Hey

I am done letting others into my progress just for them to compare, judge, or make me doubt myself. I worked hard to get where I am, and I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. My success is mine. My journey is mine. I am no longer giving people the power to affect how I feel about my own efforts.

I don’t need to share what I’m reviewing, what I’m working on, or how I feel after an exam for toxic people who seek constant validation through grades and others' approval. I don’t need to join in on answer-checking just to feel validated or worried. I am choosing peace. I am choosing to trust myself. I don’t need to compare because I know that my effort will always pay off in its own way.

I am stepping back. I am focusing on myself. I know what works best for me, and if that means studying alone and keeping my progress to myself, then that’s exactly what I will do. I don’t owe anyone my notes, my strategies, or my explanations I share only with ppl who are supportive and respectful . If others are curious, they will have to find their own way, just like I do. I am no longer available for people who only want my knowledge but don’t truly support me or respect my boundaries.

I will not let small mistakes make me doubt everything I’ve done. I will not let others’ reactions make me feel like I am any less smart. I have proven to myself that I am capable, and I will keep proving it in my own way, at my own pace. I am enough. I am strong. I am moving forward for me.

@bloomzone

I am ready to give my all this exam season. I refuse to let distractions, self-doubt, or temporary setbacks hold me back. Every single day, I will show up for myself with discipline, focus, and determination. Success is about effort, consistency, and resilience. I will push myself to study harder, to understand deeply, and to prepare thoroughly because I deserve to succeed. I will not allow laziness or fear to take control of my mind. I will take charge of my own future, and I will prove to myself that I am capable of achieving excellence.No matter how hard things get, I will not give up. I will keep going, keep learning, and keep improving. I will manage my time wisely, organize my notes, and revise with full concentration. I will believe in myself, even on the days when things feel overwhelming. My hard work will pay off because I am committed to this journey. Every effort I put in today is building the success I will celebrate tomorrow. I am getting stronger, smarter, and more prepared with each study session. I trust in my ability to overcome challenges and come out victorious.This exam season is mine to conquer. I will not settle for less than my best. I will work with passion, with energy, and with the mindset of a winner. I am fully capable of excelling, and I will prove that to myself. I am unstoppable, I am powerful, and I am ready to achieve greatness.

@bloomzone

18.03.2025 (mon)

( MAGIC bc I frkn LOVE them 😭 )

Hellloo BEAUTIFUL hoomans ;)

Today was a whole lot of procrastination and barely any productivity :( Did about 3 hours, but around 2 of those were just my live class, and the rest went into writing notes and HW. Not exactly proud of today, but I’ll make up for it tomorrow by working even harder !!

Also, after iftar, I usually feel tired, but today? I was like sooo full and sooooo ded. Like, I couldn't even lie down. Idk why probably because I was stuffing my face with literally everything in sight

Got a chem test on Chemical Kinetics this Thursday, so I need to cover at least half of it tomorrow.

*sigh*

It’s already 1 AM, and I have no idea how I’m gonna function 😭.

Gnnn lovesss

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03.03.2025

Guess who recovered just to get hit with a deluxe, extra-crispy version of the same illness? Yep, ME.

Thought about just accepting my fate and rotting in bed, but then I remembered that MAMA DIDN'T RAISE NO QUITTER (…Twitter… I’m sorry, I physically had to....it RHYMES).

Despite feeling like I got run over twice, I still managed to study before school like- who even am I? Manifesting that I keep this streak going. Did a lecture on organic nomenclature before school, another after, and went over Lecture 1 from the morning before a live class. Technically understood things from the live lecture, but let’s be real—I need to actually sit my ass down and study it before it evaporates from my brain. This whole “two 11th-grade lectures a day while balancing 12th-grade coaching and school” thing? Yeah, that’s a recipe for my brain to just ✨exit the chat✨. And as much as I planned to prioritize coaching, my school teachers are lowkey terrifying, and I refuse to be that person who just sits there staring blankly when asked a question.

Also, why am I suddenly so productive while being sick?? This is not on brand for me. Normally, the second I get a fever, I’m KO. But today? Laundry? Notes? Started them, then realized I desperately needed sleep. I still have notes to review, which I usually cram on the bus ride to school (because morning sleep? Never heard of her). Napped on the way back (but not at home so slayyy ~~ 😌). Planned to finish my notes, but decided to let my future self suffer through that mess in the morning, along with some physics and math reading that I have left.

Will I keep up this academic weapon arc or crumble under the weight of my own choices? Stay tuned for the inevitable breakdown.

xoxo, ur favorite hooman <33

EIDD MUBARAKK YALL

تَقَبَّلَ اللهُ مِنَّا وَمِنكُم 🌙🫂✨

Hope y'all have an amazing Eid <33

Kind reminder that a degree will not get up one day and leave you, cheat on you, cut your funds, disrespect you or assault you. A degree will be worth a thousand sleepless nights and rivers of tears, because in the end it does matter more than anything else. A degree will make you an independent and undefeated woman, so stop belittling the importance of education nowadays. Every woman who studies is a woman who is ensuring a greater future for all women.

07.03.2025

Didn’t post yesterday because I literally did nothing. Skipped school, joined the live class 15 minutes late because I randomly decided to shower last minute (and ofc, I don’t shower fast—especially when it's hair wash day !!!). Spent the entire class daydreaming instead of actually functioning, and now my to do list is staring at me like a disappointed parent. Ugh.

Anyways, shit happens. But also, I am so stressed about my backlogs. I feel like I’m drowning in stuff I have to do, I'm doing and will have to do— I have no idea how I’m supposed to do all this. Like, where is the pause button?? Also, I joined a Ramadan challenge group and haven’t updated in days—it’s barely been a week and I’m already flopping. I hate myself for it.

Weekend to do list:

• clean room

• Complete Saturday’s notes + HW before they consume me

• Study for the bio test on Sunday (our teacher tests us on stuff we learned the previous week—I love her, but also, why)

• Rewatch yesterday’s lecture and actually process it this time

• Study all three bio lectures because apparently, I enjoy suffering (I did this to myself really)

• Iftar party later today, which means I’ll definitely miss live lectures and will have to listen to them tomorrow (future me is already panicking)

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• Try to actually update in the Ramadan challenge group before I disappear completely

I am so behind, and I have no idea how I’m going to survive this, but we move.

good to see that ur doing well with the productivity challenge :) kind of a bummer that plans with ur family meant u couldn't revise, but I hope u enjoyed them atleast 🫶🫶

I’m honestly past being used to this by now, but yeah, it’s still pretty annoying lol.

That being said, I did have an amazing time!! Took loads of pics and actually wasn’t cooped up and rotting in my room for once =D

Also, your blog >>>> (AHHH)

Hope you and your family are happy and healthyyy <33 (why am i literally quoting olivia rodrigo without meaning to— help me)

10.04.2025 (thu)

Day (2/30) of COLLAB CHALLENGE

3:21 hrs on ypt :P

💤 Sleep → 4 hrs I'm dying 💤

Got my Bio test back—scored 15/20. Was expecting 16-17 so it kinda stung, but I wasn’t fully shocked either. Definitely humbling though, thought I had that chapter down, but clearly not.

Math test today too -_- there was one question I wasn’t sure about but I did do it right the first time and then changed it last minute. And now there’s a high chance my original answer was correct. UGH. Mood was off after that, but I remembered my Bio marks and that was all the motivation I needed.

What I got done ~

Blurted the whole of Bio ch 1 (SRIFP) for Sunday’s coaching test

Read the reader carefully

Did 150 questions in 40 mins (got 6 wrong—4 due to dumb rushing)

Submitted Thursday workbook Qs (mandatory pre-test stuff)

Was supposed to clear Chem backlog today but LOL no ✨ fully sleep deprived ✨

Skipping Chem for now, going straight to bed. Also have a Phy test on Sunday—same chapter as the lecture I haven’t finished. So fingers crossed it all somehow works out :'(

Cyaaa

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“ If you don't fail, you're not even trying. To get something you never had you have to do something you never did.”