I Guess I Really Need To Make A Permanent Comeback This Time. Because The Stone In The Chest Is Growing

09.04.2025 (wed)

Day (1/30) COLLAB CHALLENGE

3:38 hrs on ypt ;) + (~ 20 mins)

💤 Sleep ~ 4hrs + 2:30hr nap 💤

Today was BRUTAL y'all. Had double phy, chem, bio AND math. It wasn't like phy chem bio math phy— nah AH. It was BIO BIO CHEM CHEM MATH MATH ugh. By math I started to forget who I was. And these tr be giving barely any breaks 😭

Couldn’t revise the notes I made yesterday, so just went over Lec 1, but my focus was trash (less than 10 hrs sleep over the past days which is wild considering I was averaging 10 hrs/day during break). Decided to nap because I was absolutely useless by then. Planned for 1 hr, woke up after 2.5 hrs and turns out that’s my perfect nap length. I just auto-wake at that point.

Post-nap:

Dinner

Math hw

Watched a one-shot on Matrices for the test

Did extra questions tr gave us

Went through my notes + reader

Skimmed through Determinants reader part (till ex: 4.2)

Gt rev notes of determinants in the morning

Also,

Read till ideal & non ideal solutions in chem in the morning. I was planning on reading haloalkanes and halo arenes but my dum ass took chem part 1 instead of 2 so compromised.

Wanted to squeeze in a Chem lec, but I gotta sleep fr—can’t make naps a lifestyle. I ain't got time for that 😭

Until next time ~

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Update : Not done with stuff but f it I'm heading to bed early 🤡

11.03.2025 (Tues)

thought today was monday wth

Went to bed at 2 AM today and still couldn’t finish my chem notes or review the bio lecture (ughhhhh). Also ended up sleeping instead of studying before school, so that’s fun.

Anyways, here’s my to-do list for the day: bet ya can't tell how much I love to-do lists

Rev bio lec

Finish up chem notes (finally) and study it.

Watch lec 2

Live class

Math,chem,eng,bio hw

Manifesting productivity... or at least, survival.

Hope y'all have an amazing day ahead !

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Hellooo Peoplee !

I'm just a girl in her last year of school time flies so fast wth preparing for NEET (an entrance exam to get into med school in India) trynna survive. I started this blog to document my journey, hold myself accountable, and stay consistent—cuz God knows I need to.

A little about my journey so far:

- Joined an online coaching institute in 11th and, well… fucked around and as a result have the whole 11th syllabus as backlog🤡

Sooo basically, my plan/goals are to:

» Stay consistent with my 12th-grade coaching (attending live lectures, tests, workbooks, the whole deal)

» Slowly cover my 11th-grade backlog (maybe a lecture each day— not sure yet..)

» Crack NEET on my first attempt and secure a govt. medical seat.

So if you’re also on the grind, let’s keep each other motivated! Feel free to drop a message or an ask.

Here’s to staying disciplined and getting that govt seat 🥂✨

Also @midnightatthemalfoys

09.03.2025

Last week was a mess, but it’s cool cuz no way I’m repeating that. We’re back on track (hopefully).

To do list:

Math - read the text

Physics - reader + rev notes + hw

Eng - hw

Chem - read the reader + rev notes

Bio - reader + notes

Chem - lec 1 of solutions

Bio - review lec 1,2,& 3

It’s raining here, and i love the weather. My bed looks insanely cozy, but nope- no naps today :')

Also, in school, I kept thinking of food lol idk whyy probably bc my friends were eating in front my face 🥲. Anyways, hope y'all have a good one !

Toodles ~~

"What if you mess up? What if you realize you’ve already forgotten the materials you start studying?What if you initially focus but feel like a sedated zombie after a while?"

Can't you change these questions in your mind to - What if you can actually focus well for a long time? What if you do good enough to at least feel relieved? What if you can feel some sense of control over your life? What if you didn’t forget as much as you thought? What if you're way more competent than you thought? What if consistent hard work actually brings what your childhood self had desired instead of disappointments and exhaustion? What if it solves your lack of appetite and anxiety and thought spirals?

What if you asked the second set of questions more often? You already subconsciously know it would've lessened your stress a lot. Can you please stop thinking of self-hatred and pessimism as inseparable parts of your identity?

You're throwing yourself on the verge of extreme uncertainties. Do you deserve this much indifference? Ik you're afraid. But there isn’t any way to eliminate the fears without working on things while being afraid at first.

And even if you're lagging way too behind, you can manage to improve better than you're expecting at present. Trust this for at least a little time and trust everyone who trusted you.

Finished notes. Will do the studying tmrw cuz sleep deprivation be catching up 😵 (I’m just hella sleepy 😭)

Gnnnnnnn

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25.03.2025 (tue)

HIIIIIIIIII <33

Plans for the day:

Complete notes of lec 3 of srifp + study

Live lec (we'll finish the chapter off today)

Live lec - notes + study

Finish off srifp 😭 + maybe questions ?

Study lec 5 of solutions

That's ittt ! See ya later ;P

“ If you don't fail, you're not even trying. To get something you never had you have to do something you never did.”

04.03.2025

Ended up not going to school but the doctors today :(

So I have notes to complete and stuff to study for tmrw . I'm like seriously scared of the teachers for the first time in my life cuz they hella strict. As if the pressure of boards and entrance exams wasn't enough 🥲

Things I did today (I'll update as I do em) :

• Attend my live class

• completed my notes

• read a few pages of phy reader

• did math hw

13.05.2025 (tue)

ypt hrs ≈ 4:10 hrs

Lec 2 (left over 40 mins) + lec 3 of current electricity

Lec 3 + lec 4 of electrochemistry

Just a reminder that someone with the exact same goal as you is working harder than you.

- Tam Kaur