I Don’t Want To Be Photographed, Don’t Want Other People To See Me, For I Am Weak, I Was Strong For

TEAM MINATO x AESTHETIC for @blackkatmagic. “Those who break the rules are trash, but those who abandon their comrades are worse than trash!”

I’m not going to say goodbye because I’m not ready to accept that what we had is really over. Even though our love was toxic, I cannot seem to rid of the posion that still remains in my strung out heart.

broken love

Our love for each other was great

How is it possible that it broke?

Didn’t you always say we were soul mates?

Didn’t you promise me never to leave me?

You’ve broken your promises with your leaving,

Torn my soul apart with your words,

Set my heart on fire with your look,

And trampled on it, when you turned your back on me

And what now?

Now you come crawling back,

Kneel down before me,

And beg for forgiveness

But you’ve hurt me too much to could forgive you,

You’ve broken me too much to even acknowledge you with a glance.

While I powder my nose, he would powder his gun. And if I try to get close, he’s already gone. . While I put on my shoes, he will button his coat.  And we will step outside,  checking out the coast is clear.

Song: Run - Daughter

Sacred Love

I once found my great love,

You wished her death and she died.

I wanted to follow her,

Crash myself into death,

but was stopped

and broke at the loss.

I screamed at you in despair

and pushed you away from me again and again,

We have quarreled

yelled at another, blamed,

kicked another, scratched,

and provided another comfort.

You have given me support when I threatened to tip over,

you caught me when I fell without feeling,

And when it was already too late,

I realized

I’ve drowned,

and you’ve brought me back.

When Catelyn suggests “Sansa” he agrees, because there hasn’t been a Sansa Stark in years.

“She was a Princess,” Catelyn says shyly. “The Princess of the North.”

At first Eddard remains solemn. “There aren’t many Princesses in this world,” he tells Catelyn. “And none above the Neck.” Nevertheless, he agrees with this lady wife and buries his uncertainty in tradition.

Eddard Stark names his first daughter Sansa, to honor his wife’s wishes and his family’s history. His Sansa is the true Princess in the North.  In her name he feels that he honors his brave and noble father, and his fallen brother, who had been the  first one to proclaim their sister, Lyanna, the Princess in the North.

“Here she is,” Brandon had exclaimed, loud and exuberant, the day of Lyanna’s birth.

“The Princess of the North!”

His father’s bannermen had roared and toasted, cheered along with Brandon, their future Lord. Lyanna was their Lady. Karstark, Royce, Glover, Umber, and Flint alike had cheered to the new Lord and Lady of Winterfell.

When he introduces Sansa, his princess, there is that same roar. She is the symbol of happiness after such a dark time. She is the token of peace, after the war, after the North has lost their Lord Brandon and their Lady Lyanna.

His Sansa holds all the hope of the North in her, and she is perfect, and regal, and lovely.

Eddard’s Sansa is everything Brandon and Lyanna would rage against, and that is exactly what the North needs.

He says a silent prayer to his gods, the gods of the North, that Sansa might grow up strong, and sweet, and kind, and fierce– all the things that a Stark Princes should be– and Eddard revels in her.

Sansa is his Princess. The perfect combination of his Northern solemnity and Southron grace, even in just her first year, and Eddard knows she will bring nothing but praise to Winterfell.

His bannermen fight for her hand–each one presenting some new trinket or skill that makes them worthy for her, but none are. At just one, Sansa is a Princess, stronger, lovelier, and more clever than the best of them.

Catelyn says she will be Queen, and Eddard feels a pang, because Brandon had said the same of their sister, as he held her and rocked her, and loved her perhaps more than a brother should.

And when Arya is born, red-faced. grey-eyed. and squalling, exactly as Brandon and Lyanna had been, Eddard feels naught but panic. He remembers his mother holding Lyanna, her pride and joy. He remembers his mother telling Brandon, “Love her. She is yours,” and Brandon taking those words to heart, and riding hard to King’s Landing.

It gets worse when Jon sneaks into the nursery at night, when Catelyn won’t see him, and when he thinks Ned isn’t there, and gathers Arya up.

Ned braces himself for Arya’s screech, but in Jon’s arms she is content, just as Lyanna had been with Brandon.

“Sansa, is Papa’s Princess,” Jon says to the small babe. “But you are mine.”

There is a part of Ned that is broken that day, as he watches the incarnations of Brandon and Lyanna commit themselves to each other all over again.

Ready for an unpopular opinion?

Although, opinion isn’t really the best word for it, since it’s actually a fact but JKR did such a great job romanticizing abusive/toxic people and relationships that very few people will like what I have to say…

Molly Weasley is a bad mother. 

*GASP!* 

I know, I know…Blasphemy, right? I can practically see my follow count going down as I type this. I mean how can this woman

Be considered anything other than a proud, loving matriarch? 

Well, let’s start with the really obvious one:

She can’t tell her own twins apart.

Mid way through his first year of Hogwarts, Harry Potter - The Boy Who Doesn’t Notice Shit - can tell Fred and George apart, but their own mother can’t. I know plenty of twins and their parents know who is who. 

Now I know someone out there will try to defend this somehow and say that it’s not THAT BIG of a deal, but tell that to a kid whose mother doesn’t acknowledge their individuality. It’s pretty damaging. And this is actually one of Molly’s minor offenses. 

Moving on…

She’s Incredibly judgmental and unsupportive of her children.

Fred and George were legitimately geniuses, but never does Molly utter an ounce of praise for their accomplishments. In fact, she puts them down, insisting that the joke shop and all of their inventions are a waste of time. She only ever focuses on the fact that the boys tended to get themselves into trouble. She also completely disregards them as part of the family during OotP when Ron is made a prefect and she claims that that’s “everyone in the family!” to which the twins reply “What are we? Next door neighbors?” 

Nice Molly. Good Parenting. How about the fact that your kids were TOO SMART for general academics, dropped out and started their own highly successful business when every other shop in town was closing? No? Not good enough for you…alright….

Fred and George aren’t the only victims of course. She nags Bill about his hair and his earring and, most importantly, his marriage to Fleur Delacour. 

Look, not all parents are going to be thrilled with who their child chooses to marry. My mom hates my soon-to-be-husband and, much like Molly Weasley, she can’t keep her irrelevant and completely unwarranted opinion to herself. And let me tell you something, it’s very hurtful to have your own mother disregard the person who makes you happy and be blatantly rude to them every time they are forced to be in the same room. 

Then there’s Percy…Alright look, yes, Percy behaves like a little shit and eveyone has reason to be upset with the actions he takes against his own family but…can you blame him? Look at the chaos he’s grown up in. He was offered a very good job for someone his age and of his stature and he got a little carried away. Molly didn’t have to agree with what he was doing, but her lack of ability to show any support for her children is what drove Percy to take it as far as he did. Forcing your beliefs onto your children DOESN’T WORK. You need to let them go out and make some bad decisions. They need to see things for themselves and the more you try to hold them back from doing so, the harder they are going to try to prove you wrong and that, in my opinion, is a big part of what happened to Percy Weasley. 

I could really go on and on about all the terrible ways Molly judged and refused to support her children, but I have too many other points to make so we’ll just leave it at these major ones here…

She plays favorites…Big Time.

It’s not exactly news to anyone that Molly Weasley favors her youngest child and only daughter, Ginny, over everyone else…especially Ron. It’s so bad that when the Horcrux talks to Ron in DH, it actually plays into the fact that Ron’s biggest insecurity stems from being the LEAST LOVED by his mother, who craved a daughter. Basically Molly has seven kids because she kept trying and trying for a girl and never got one. By the time Ron came around, she was fed up and she didn’t even try to hide it. Ron often feels overshadowed by all of his siblings and then by his best friend who his mother ALSO treats better than she treats him. 

Until Percy’s big no-no against his family with his position at the ministry, Percy was another child who was put upon a pedestal and used to compare her other children against. The twins were constantly told to “Be More Like Percy” and that she “Never had these problems with Percy!”  

It’s not only HER children who are subject to her toxic behavior….

She’s very hard on both Hermione and Harry as well, although she’s so overbearingly loving towards Harry that it’s often over looked. However, we’ll start with how she treats Hermione…

After Rita Skeeter, who is well known for being less than truthful in her articles, writes a scandalous piece on an innocent fourteen year old Hermione and basically destroying the poor girl’s first real romantic experience, Molly Weasley thinks its appropriate to basically throw her opinion on the matter in Hermione’s face by sending her a smaller chocolate egg than everyone else during easter, and by greeting her with very little enthusiasm the next time she saw her. It isn’t until Harry explains to her that he and Hermione were never involved that the grown woman warms up to her again. 

 Aaaaaaand Harry….

Okay….

I appreciate a lot of the things Molly did for Harry. She practically adopted him when he really had no one else and that’s great. I don’t want anyone to think that I believe Molly is a terrible person altogether, all I am doing with this rant - as I do with all of my rants - is make people think about these characters and see their flaws, when many readers only see the romanticized outer layer. That is what makes all of these characters SO GOOD. They are REAL. They are problematic…okay….here we go….

Molly puts her own kids and their needs aside to take care of Harry. Harry gets decent dress robes while Ron gets hideous, ratty hand me downs. Harry gets support and affection while the twins are brushed off to the side. And I understand that Harry needed that and good on Molly for stepping up…but she wasn’t good enough to her kids to warrant the amount she does for Harry. 

She also acts very entitled to Harry because of all she has done for him and gets a little jealous when the idea of another parental figure is brought up. I could give an entire rant dedicated to the way Molly treats Sirius, and one day I probably will but today is not that day…it’s just….it’s very bad…

She undermines anyone else’s opinion on how to deal with Harry’s involvement in the Order. Why? Well because she’s practically his mother and so she gets to decide…

Here’s the thing though, Harry isn’t just a kid who is interested in fighting against Voldemort, he’s the center of everything that is going on and sheltering him from the facts is not going to help. Personally, I’m very against sheltering kids especially kids who are 15/16 years old and can comprehend a situation. Molly verbally attacks Sirius when she feels he is giving Harry too much information and accuses him of treating Harry as if he’s James…

He’s not treating Harry like James. 

He’s treating Harry like Harry. He’s treating Harry the way that James and Lily would have wanted him to be treated. He wasn’t going to give him every last little detail, he was only going to tell him as much as he needed to know. Why? Because Sirius knows that if he skirts around the truth, Harry will make his own conclusions and that may not end very well…

in fact…

it DOESN’T end well. Molly gets her way, Harry is kept in the dark about some pretty important details and all hell breaks loose in the department of mysteries. 

Harry deserved to be treated like more of an adult in particular situations. He had been through too much to keep him sheltered from the truth. Molly needs to back off.

These are just examples of her being a bad mother. As I said before, her behavior towards Sirius, her manipulative involvement in the relationship between Tonks and Remus and her complete inability to handle confrontation like an adult are all things that deserve their own separate rants. 

 I don’t hate Molly. I really don’t. I think she has so many amazing qualities that do redeem her, but she’s far from the Perfect Mother that the fandom sees her as.

Please don’t lynch me o_o 

Okayy, soooo.

I've been caught up in the bnha fandom recently XD

And like all fandoms an OC came out of all that time. So let me introduce you to:

Natsuki Mirai (hero name: Dusk)

She is the result of imagining an Uzumaki to be in the bnha-world. So basically she has two quirks, like Todoroki.

One is the chakra chains, with which she can fight and restrain people. I may or may not add quirk-surpression as an ability to the chains. Depends on if it would overpower her.

The second is the ability to impose her rules on the world through seals, her only limit being her imagination and energy-level.

I thought of her being the daughter of a villain and being trained accordingly. But because a hero saved her (from what is not yet decided) and died doing so, she wants to become a hero as well and honor that hero by living by his ideals (protect and help those that are weaker than you).

I had the idea of her parents union being a quirk marriage, but then I thought that would be too similar to Todoroki's storyline.

So, her parents did marry, because they both had strong quirks, but they didn't do it as the sole purpose of breeding the perfect quirk user.

While we're on her parents-

Her father's quirk is seals, her mother's is chains (which is a reference/parallel to Minato & Kushina).

Her looks (the red hair, the dark blue eyes) she got from her mother, her father had brown hair and green eyes. (Which is only already decided, because I wanted her to originally look a bit like Todoroki - half her father, half her mother. But as already said, too similar to an already existing character.)

Her name is Mirai, because to her mother she was the future. Natsuki, because I like the idea of her nickname being Natsu. Her name was originally Natsukawa Mirai, but I googled it and it's the name of a pornstar, so.

Her hero name is Dusk, because I imagine her wanting to be an underground hero and with her dark red hair, dusk was fitting.

I don't really imagine her in any pairing, so.

That's all I have on her, for now.

Can I just point out the height difference here