God I Am Aching For It (some Affection)

good bye

sorry that i ended two consecutive messages with "lmao." i don't know why i did that. it looks really dumb doesn't it. i'll edit one to get rid of it. you can end my stupid pathetic life if you want

The Daily Times, New Philadelphia, Ohio, July 9, 1924

nobody knows! :)

Lately I've been trying to be more in tune with how I feel, and fuck it's so hard to feel things again after trying your absolute hardest to keep yourself numb. But it also feels good to be in tune with my desires/dislikes/needs/ etc.

time with complex trauma is like. i need to do everything all at once and if i don't i'm a failure, even if there's nothing to do. three months ago feels like yesterday but i can hardly remember yesterday anyway. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. i need everything to slow down but my life is so stagnant. i can't go to sleep because the day can't end, but i need the day to end or i'll go insane. i'm constantly worrying about the future but it feels like i have no future. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. time has no meaning but every second is the end of the world.

or is this just me?