Retribution..? :)

I’ve been captivated by his wounded animal swag, and tendency to react to well intentioned kindness with fearful aggression

sketching

when does sending texts get not stressful

MAY I INTRODUCE YOU TO HER

this is from memory the version of Night that existed first and i never drew her before her appearance and character changed again lol SO IM DOING THIS FOR MY 12-13(?? holy shit?)-YEAR-OLD SELF

funniest thing about this is I'm pretty sure she was power-hungry. lmfao.

decaying all by yourself sweetheart?

alternatively, has being in silverpelt warped your perception of time? you feel like you're same as you've always been, but suddenly you're back in the world of the living and the entire world context has changed. youre a living piece of their ancient history. they speak a different language. you feel like no time has passed at all but suddenly you're unable to ever be just a living cat again because you've been dead 500 years. forget being yourself again, can you even be a person (cat) again?

sometimes i feel really stuck on how to characterise characters like Night and other starclan cats who have been dead for so long because i cant really comprehend how exactly that would change you. fading isnt a thing in this universe. youve been dead for centuries. tiny little things in life havent been relevant for that long because youve forgotten what being alive was.

while i dont characterise my starclan as god-like figures the oldest of them certainly aren't just little cats. WHAT ARE THEY??

I LOVE it when characters are awful actually! I LOVE it when characters cause conflict! I LOVE it when characters are horrible to everyone INCLUDING THEMSELVES!!! I LOVE it when a character turns themself into a bomb, slowly ticking down before taking everything with them! I LOVE it when characters hurt people and then when confronted by this DOUBLE DOWN ON THEIR BEHAVIOR!!!!

Enough of the trope where memory loss undoes the damage or the corruption or whatever. More content where removing memories just removes the context.

The tragedy of needing to grieve and not knowing what or who you lost or why. The angst of having trauma and being denied the awareness that it's trauma. The suspense of being different somehow and left to wonder how and when. The tension of knowing that something is off and you can't find where it hurts. The Adventure Zone gets it. Kingdom Hearts gets it.

There is an aching inside you and you don't know how it got there.

squirrel warmup doodle, feel free to use as an icon or whatever!

artfight revenge for @smewduck !!!!