I Am A Clown

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When Megatron enters Starscream's cell, he only briefly gets the other's attention before a bitter laugh escapes the jet. "Well if this isn't a familiar scenario..." Megatron doesn't find the humor in it. "You've holed yourself away again, Starscream." Starscream could only weakly scoff in turn, his once pristine frame creaked with rust as he moved. "And I suppose you're here to beat me within an inch of my life again... to tell me what a miserable failure I am as a leader. So cut whatever righteous speech you have planned and let's just get it over with." Megatron was taken aback, so Starscream still expected to be beaten. He didn't think the former Decepticon leader was capable of being good, of being redeemed. Something about this fact made Megatron's tanks churn as he continued to talk, his voice soft and gentle as he spoke to Starscream. "Do you really believe I am still the same person I was before?" There was just something about this scenario that made Megatron crave Starscream acknowledging his change. Megatron couldn't quite pin down why it felt so important to him that Starscream would see he was no longer the tyrant of their past. He wanted Starscream to look upon him and see that change. But Starscream never looked over at him like that, and instead he let out a mocking laugh. It didn't sound like most of Starscream's usual laughs though, this one sounded strained as he shook his head and covered his face as he finally turned to face the man behind all of his abuse and pain. His lips were twisted into a mix between a snarl and a grin, his sharp denta glinted slightly in the low-light of the brig's holding cell. "Oh save it Lord Megatron. I know that deep down, you don't believe you're worthy enough for that badge on your chest. Bots like us don't change... anyone that says so is fooling themself." A sharp digit pointing towards the red Autobot badge on Megatron's chest. He was angry to relent that Starscream was right, despite everything he'd done aboard the Lost Light, Megatron still didn't believe himself worthy of wearing the badge. He felt old rage begin to bubble back up to the surface, Starscream had that influence on people. He always seemed capable of reading a bot and being able to pick at a scab that never seemed to heal right. No matter how much time had passed, Starscream always seemed to know what ate away at Megatron's spark. He never seemed to shut up once he found it either. But he wouldn't let Starscream get under his plating, not this time. Not even when every fibre of Megatron's being wanted to punch the other in the mouth. He was better than that now, he would prove that to Starscream once and for all. And ever observant, Starscream pointed out the larger bot's tension and gestured to Megatron's entire being. "You forget, we fought together for millions of years. Even now I can tell the minute details of your body language, I can see you wish to punch me. To beat me and have me screaming for mercy, well no more. I'm tired, so either get your catharsis in, or let the rust eat away at me. I. Don't. Care." Megatron continued to tell himself, that Starscream couldn't get under his plating anymore. He wasn't the same bot that Starscream knew from before. He was better now.

"Even that lousy Bee knew I was a lost cause... not even he was as delusional." Everything seemed to stop for Megatron there, it was one thing for Starscream to badmouth him; it wasn't anything that the ex-warlord hadn't heard before. But now Starscream was mocking the memory of the kind autobot that Megatron was proud to call his friend, the bot primarily responsible for Megatron seeing the faults in his actions! That was taking it too far. [Tumblr is not happy about the size of this idea, lemme split it up again.] [Part 3]

Did this quick doodle a few days ago, used it as value practice! :D

[Here is part 1 and part 2 of this idea. Please read both of these before continuing on.]

He didn't even register this fist slamming into Starscream's face until he hear the jet's back slam into the wall behind him. As the sound reverberated in Megatron's audials, he could only stare in horror as he watched Starscream pick himself back up and bring a hand to his face, energon coating his digits. Megatron took a step forward, his anger quickly fading away into horror as he realized what he'd just done. He reached out, an apology on his lips. "Starscream, I.." Starscream only turned away, his expression was morphed into one that the ex-warlord had been unable to properly decipher in the moment. Starscream just let out a heavy vent and returned to laying on the berth in the brig, quietly speaking one last time. "It's just as I thought... you'll never change... just leave me alone. Let me rust away in peace." Megatron felt himself at a loss for words, all he could bring himself to do was comply with Starscream's demands and leave him in the brig. The words uttered by his former second in command, digging their way into his spark. As Megatron left the brig and made his way to the main deck of the ship, he was left coming to terms with all the events that had just transpired. His gaze rested upon his fist, his tanks churning when he saw the faint traces of Starscream's energon on his knuckles. One thing that didn't add up to Megatron had been Starscream's expression. The jet's expression was not one of smug pride that he got under Megatron's plating again, it wasn't one that was happy to be right about his former leader's attempts to atone... no. Starscream's expression had been one of disappointment and slight bitterness. Megatron continued to walk, thinking about the entire interaction that would have brought reason for Starscream making such an expression. He stopped in his tracks when he finally realized it. 'Bots like us don't change... anyone that says so is fooling themself.' Starscream wanted to be wrong, wanted what he said to not be true. He wanted Megatron to be a changed bot, because if he was then it meant Starscream's belief in being unable to change was false. If Megatron was capable of changing, capable of not lashing out at Starscream's responses, then he would have proven Starscream wrong... and that in turn would have led Starscream to believe there was hope for him to be capable of changing too. To be more than Starscream the duplicitous backstabber. But Megatron reacted with violence towards Starscream again, and to Starscream that was enough to believe that there was no hope for either of them. Megatron never felt more defeated.

These are the cutest things!!!!

I'm learning to draw with gouache.

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Учусь рисовать гуашью.

The one, the only ✨

My fucking heart, this is EVERYTHING!!!!

Alice and Last Skystar Animatic

Another Skystar animatic!! This time with the song "Alice and Last" by N-buna. When I first looked up the lyrics I was like "wtf this is so Skystar???" And I just had to.

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*THROWS OUT THE TABLE* I AM REACHING LIMITS OF HOW FRICKING MUCH ANIMATICS I WANNA DO WITH SPELLBOUND IT FITS TO LITERALLY ANY OPTIONS! OOOOH YOU WANNA ANIMATE SOMETHING?? HERE TAKE SPELLBOUND OH THANK YOU *GETS DROWNED* Song: Cast the Bronze - Raynes

Spellbound au by @keferon please go bite them

Squeeze the skrunky boi.

Don’t mind him, Starscream knows I love him so much… and when I love a character, I throw them through all the angst! Lmao, look at him tho!

The smiles they all have on their faces too. Absolutely perfect.

It's a constant amusement while watching the series.