Need To Meet Someone As Unhinged And Hypersexual As Me With An Equal Capacity To Be Completely Obsessed

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful

wanting to feel good and everything around you being bad is exhausting

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

"read 2 hours ago" okay what if i just block you and you never hear from me again instead

People seriously underestimate the long term effects of constant loneliness

"why are you so weird?" Idk, maybe because being completely isolated while growing up has destroyed my brain and now I'm nothing more than a human-mimicking creature that bases all of my actions on what I think is normal human behavior rather than just doing things naturally

I hate that there's no way to be disabled that people will accept.

If you show joy, or acceptance in your disability, you're not really disabled and no one will take you seriously when you do complain and well it can't be that bad and oh I'm sure you're used to it.

But if you're miserable then you're whiny and annoying and people hate that it's "all you talk about" and its always ugh you're always tired and can we please stop talking about this it's making me depressed and oh I'd kill myself if that happen to me.

If you're happy you have everything figured out and don't need help anyway but if you're miserable you're a whiny bitch that can't just suck it up. There's no winning

torture myself or torture myself? tough choice

Not now kitten daddy's googling his symptoms

i’m so jealous of passionate ppl.

like, there’s smth u wanna achieve in life? you don’t just feel as if you’re wasting away your time, as if you’re a dull background character meant to make the talented ones shine even brighter?

bc i wish i had that. i wish i had a goal that i wanted to strive towards. i wish that there was smth that genuinely interested me, rather than just seeing it as a good pastime. i wish that i didn’t feel the need to go to extreme lengths just to feel like an adequate person, rather than just being a prop meant to fill in the background.

Quite frankly, I'd rather be unconscious