the best advice i have for trying to figure out who you are outside of your mental illness is to try things. try anything that seems remotely interesting and try not to get too caught up in the consequences or whether you’re going to be good at it. of course, this is all within reason - don’t do anything dangerous or illegal, but trying new hobbies and places and ideas is such a good way to find out what you like outside of festering in front of netflix and crying in the shower.
sing off key, or buy a cheap instrument. draw haphazardly. buy books you’ve never heard of. go to a coffee shop and order a drink you’ve never had. try out that recipe you keep seeing online. buy that shirt that catches your eye immediately.
mental illness often takes away who we are and we can lose so much of what makes us us. you may never return to who you were before your illness, but you can become a new person. someone strong and someone you like. trying new things is a good way to build the foundations of that person. keep your head up, you’ll get there.
if u and I were little frogs. we could sit on leaves together. u ever think abt that.
if you woke up late, your morning didn't go well, something unexpected happened at the beginning of the day and you are now sad and worried your day will be wasted, don’t worry. take a deep breath and start with where you left off. you can always start at any point of the day. you can start getting your life together at 5PM in case you were too tired and sleeping all day long. please don't give a bad 20 minutes or so of an incident the power to dictate the rest of the day. you dictate the energy you want. start wherever you want. rest when you need to. you got this ♡
the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.
it’s not a myth. it gets easier. every bit of hard work is worth something. it builds you up.
tender love
thomas merton // “eurydice” sarah ruhl // ernest hemingway // anis mojgani “in the pockets of small gods” // lemony snicket // franz kafka “the castle” // @fridayiminlovemp3 (mitski “strawberry blonde”) // mitski “pink in the night” // khalil gibran // gustave flaubert from a letter to george sand, 1876 // danez smith “acknowledgments” // “love freely” E.C. @desultory-suggestions
i need to remember that recovery is not linear. there will be good days, there will be bad bad bad days, and there might even be some really bad days. but these bumps in the road do not mean you’re not getting better. they do not mean all the progress you made is gone. so please, if you are having a bad day remember this feeling wont last forever. i know it seems like it will, but if you can just hold on for a little bit longer, you’ll soon see again all you have been working for.
my illiterate ass rereading smth a billion times only to end up posting a sentence with the most horrendous mistakes