Who Wants To Worship Me And Also Treat Me As An Equal And Also Be Terrified Of Me And Also Be Disgusted

do not forget who you are.

Upon viewing starfall, I was filled with feelings of homesickness. 🌌

Anyone else feel like an outcast in the alterhuman community?

Most of the therians/alterhumans/nonhumans I see online are minors; I’m 20 years old.

Most of them can do quadrobics; I can’t run on all fours for five minutes without everything hurting, and if I did a jump, I’d probably break my wrists

A lot of them seem to enjoy the company of humans; I’ve never trusted or liked humans

Most of the community talks about being “silly” or “cute” when experiencing a mental shift; I have violent, animal instincts and avoid others when I feel a mental shift coming on

I don’t know. I just feel like a lot of us have become… tame. And I’m not. I feel like we as a community don’t talk about the “darker” side of not being human. The violent prey drive. The instinctive fear of humans that wild animals have.

To clarify, I mean no hate towards those who genuinely enjoy not being human. I just feel like even in a community of outcasts, I’m an outcast.

It’s just frustrating. In a place meant for those who aren’t human, I’m still too different to fit in. I just want to have a place to belong, you know?

hey, hey alterhuman community. just created this page so would love to find new friends and connections around ya'all.

angelkins, godkins, starkins, spasekins, faerykins and others, let's get to know each other and exchange experiences. let's have some fun!

To you I'm the monster.

Because I bite. Because i growl and howl. Because i claw and tear at my prey.

Im the freak here

Not the one who glares at me. Who jabbed me with their judgmental words. Who isolates me in a cage too small for me.

You blame me when i wish to snap your pointed sticks that you sink into my hide.

You fear me while cornering me and gawking.

Im not your novelty. Im not your prize catch.

Im not a human. I never was and never will be.

Im not one of you. You all make it clear.

This is directed to the humans who act like we are the wrong ones for existing.

If you're willing to share, I'm very curious to know how nonhumanity has been for you. Though I doubt im the only one that feels the way i do, i havent seen people speak of it really. It has been a very difficult process finding out what exactly i am, and i am still not fully sure on most of it. I know im a shapeshifter, but sometimes i just am an animal. How fluid my nonhumanity is doesn't help in figuring it out, truth be told. I have been a crow, a snow leopard, a cat, a dog, an angel, a ghost..... I have been those but im not sure if i still am, or if it even matters. Im not a crow anymore but it was very important to me when i was, and the same goes for being a ghost and an angel; though being an angel still applies at times. I dont think this is very coherent, but i guess it just shows how puzzling it has been.

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Hello! Thanks for the great question, I really didn’t see that the community was actively discussing this, so it’s really worth talking about. It sounds like you really care and you don’t stop thinking about it.

I will share my experience and may even advise something, but each experience is unique and we should seek our own answers to difficult questions.

I always paid attention to what seemed familiar and right. Not just some things that seem right for a few moments, but a constant feeling of repetition. For example, as I remember myself I always was drawn to the stars, I talked with them, shared some secrets and stories and just slept under the starry sky and felt very calm and "right". This is just one example, but it’s the most vivid in my memories. If you’re not sure about who you are now, remember everything you did when you were absolutely certain that you were a snow leopard or a ghost, for example. Does it feel the same now? Does it feel "right" now?

I suggest just sit in some quiet and special place and focus on your feelings. Ask yourself questions. Also do not forget about the kins, which are not too common. For example, you can be a mythical being that combines several animal traits in one!

At the end I want to say that changing your opinion and learning yourself is normal. It’s okay to doubt, to ask questions and not be completely sure of anything is also okay. Let’s normalize this in our community and help each other. I encourage all readers to share their experiences in comments.

May the stars guide you. 💫

I make moodboards in order of the queue, thank you for your orders and politeness. I do not write anything under moodboards just to preserve the aesthetics of the work. I can also add facts about your kin(if it's an animal, for example) or quotes, just tell me if you would like to.

Do you remember what it was like to be a star? How did you perceive the space around you? Also, what stage in your life cycle were you?

Sorry if this is all too personal! I just love hearing about celestial bodies!! So fascinating :]]

Hello!

Understanding the concept of "very personal" is a bit blurred for me, given my celestial nature as a star. Many human experiences are unfamiliar to me, but I appreciate your interest and am happy to answer.

Trying to convey the essence of being a star using human language is quite a challenge. As a star, I am essentially a large, radiant energy pulsating ball with what could be considered a soul or spirit. Space around me is home and this is an absolutely amazing. You have a sense of stability and a feeling of floating at the same time. I have a unique connection with other stars, enabling us to communicate in a special way. I was a young main sequence star if you explain it in scientific human categories but a process is individual for each star.

Thank you for your question. May the stars always guide you!

Greetings !

Would it be possible for you to create an angelkin moodboard ?

I have preferences for colours of gold and grey but I wish for you to take liberty where you so please .

~ <3

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