Damn do you guys think Jayce might be a little protective over Viktor?
URGH. Emmerich Holyblade and I just went to The Ceremony to receive our RPG Job Titles, and he OBVIOUSLY got Chosen Hero Sword Saint. So now he's gonna set out to kill the Demon Lord of Darkness.
Me? I just got Dark Mage. Honestly, it's pretty rare, but the job opportunities are also limited. You either get into covert assassination or dungeon raiding.
God, just because we're the only two kids in The Village, Emmerich Holyblade automatically assumes this makes us friends. He doesn't even realize I hate him and his stupid smug swordsman ass.
URGGHHHH he just asked me to join his Grand Hero's Party. fuck. I can't just say no if the Grand Holy King himself is gonna payroll us to do this shit. Whatever man. Let's rock till the Demon Lord of Darkness is dead, and then I can retire and never see Emmerich Holyblade again.
I just realized that xicheng makes perfect sense if they're lesbians and now I have to sit down. Your ex who is also your other ex's ex blows up your life spectacularly? Fuck her coparent/ex-wife and then uhaul your way into a yearlong lease. not even maliciously, just because at this stage in the ex-chain you're running out of options and keep being emotional in each other's vicinities and want to touch a boob. It's the move! It's the ONLY move.
Day7, NAUGHTY OR NICE!
PART 2 TO THIS
I had an internal struggle on whether or not I should go naughty or nice myself
'replacing jc in someone's affection' I am crying! wwx doesn't do it once but twice! It's fascinating! Also, this makes me understand why some people, reading the novel, come to the conclusion that wwx doesn't care anymore about jc. Yeah, it's a valid interpretation!
Listen, I just rotated, and rotated, and rotated this scenario (âbecause, like, both child and adult Wei Wuxian are sincerely in need of support and affection, but I think receiving it as a child while it was withheld from someone he loved, what might have seemed like taking it away from someone who also needed it, also contributed to his boundary problems and self-sacrificial tendencies and eventual resentmentâlike he needs it but it hurts someone he loves deeply when he gets it but he still needs it, how can he reconcile these conflicting truths?? OK I will stop nowâ) and, uh, have a tiny little sketch of that zhanchengxian fic concept below, with which I will exorcise my sad past chengxian/past zhancheng/current wangxian thoughts.
It was going to be a perfect triple triple drabble but I needed 80 more words in the centre section to describe Jiang Cheng's tears. You know how it is.
At first he was busy and grateful for it.
Then, Jin Ling settled, elders cowed, sect in order, Jiang Cheng was forced to returned to Lotus Pier. Empty, now.
His sect ran as it always did. He slept poorly. He dreamed often. He walked up and down the pier at night, pursued by lesser ghosts, echoes of people who were alive, just gone. His own life closed around him as tight as any noose, one long merciless sequence of work, sleep, work.
He had a minor qi deviation.
âGo back to dual cultivation,â said the doctor.
âThatâs no longer possible,â he said.
The doctor looked up. When Jiang Cheng didnât say anything else, she said, âWell. Come here for acupuncture once a week. Consider visiting Jin Ling.â
Relax, she didnât bother to say.
Jiang Ping, his one surviving cousin, took tea with him, and said: âI know things have been stressful. Perhaps you would consider marriage now?â
âI didnât think marriage was relaxing,â said Jiang Cheng, drily.
âIt can be. After everything, well⌠itâs nice to have someone there.â Jiang Ping looked up, thinking. âHaving someone there and working a lot. I donât think itâs possible for Sect Leader to work harder, so youâll have to try the other thing.â
Jiang Cheng let out a snort despite himself. Jiang Ping grinned at him.
He could get married, he supposed. What was there to prevent him?
He didnât call for a matchmaker. He worked harder, kept himself so busy he could hardly think, but at night, laying in his bed, he ached with loneliness before sleep. And in sleep, he saw them, Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian both, invariably walking away from him, hand in hand.
Sometimes he was silent; sometimes he called to them. It didnât matter. They never turned around.
-
In Wei Wuxianâs dream, it was high summer, air as thick as syrup, and he was lying under the trees along the riverbank with his head in Jiang Chengâs lap.
Above him, Jiang Cheng was eating tanghulu. Playfully, Wei Wuxian opened his mouth like a baby bird, and Jiang Cheng, rolling his eyes, took a piece of fruit and fed it to him, red and almost glowing. His index finger brushed against Wei Wuxianâs mouth.
Sometimes, he dreamed and he didnât know whether it was just a dream or a fragment of a memory. He thought this might have happenedâhe faintly remembered begging Jiang Cheng to let him rest his head in his lap, across his narrow, muscled thighs.
Suddenly it was night, and Jiang Cheng was gone.
âJiang Cheng?â called Wei Wuxian, and found his voice was a childâs voice, high-pitched and nervous. âJiang Cheng?â
He rushed through Lotus Pier, now dark and empty, towards Jiang Chengâs room. Then, in the way of dreams, Jiang Cheng was in front of him, a child again, too, face swollen with tears as he wept alone on the pier.
Wei Wuxian froze, panicked.
Someone picked him up; Uncle Jiang had appeared. But instead of saying anything, he turned and walked away. âUncle Jiang,â Wei Wuxian whispered, but Jiang Fengmian didnât respond.
All Wei Wuxian could do was look over Uncle Jiangâs shoulder at Jiang Cheng, at his crumpled, sobbing face. You donât understand, he thought, suddenly, I love you but I need this, I need it, I need it.
That face changed again, blurred into Jiang Cheng's adult face, still weeping as he knelt on the pier. And then the strong arms around him werenât Uncle Jiangâs but Lan Zhanâs, holding him tight in a bridal carry, taking him away as he squirmed to look back, to not look away from Jiang Chengâs face, they had been so happy only a moment agoâ
Wei Wuxian woke late, his face wet. Went to look for a handkerchief. Opened a drawer he hadnât looked in before to find: two purple hair ribbons. An open jar of salve, carved with the insignia of a well-known Yunmeng herbalist. And a lavender handkerchief, embroidered with a little frog. Wei Wuxian traced it gently with his thumb.
-
The day was a little crisp, but bright and beautiful. Lan Wangji had risen at the appointed time, eaten breakfast serenely with the sect, and taught some advanced guqin lessons. Lan Sizhui was coming along beautifully, playing more delicate and precise every day, a delight to teach.
Everything was just as it should be in the Cloud Recesses, but Lan Wangji was still somehow uneasy.
He had gained everything he had dreamed of as a teenager, in one bewildering fell swoop. His life had been overturned, but for the better, the man he had wanted for so long delivered to him on a silver platter. He was unbelievably lucky.
Of course, he grieved what had happened to his brother. Lan Xichen deserved only good things. It was bitter to find out someone you had loved so deeply had deceived youâhad failed youâhad abandoned you.
But with the exception of that dark spot, the suffering and absence of his brother, his life was everything he had ever asked for, wasnât it? A pristine life, on the surface.
If there was a dark shadow underneath, the ripple of something passing through a lake on a sunny dayâsomething slipping out of an incautious hand, lost to the waterâthat too was life, wasnât it?
He had never been so happy in his life. He had never before been so happy in his life, as he had once imagined it.
He averted his eyes from that shadow.
Until, one day, he returned home, and found Wei Ying, sitting at the roomâs low table, holding a handkerchief in one hand. Remnants of a different life that had collected in his home. Noâthat he had kept. Gripped tightly.
âLan Zhan,â Wei Ying said, brightly, face stretched in a brittle smile. âWhatâs this?â
High school students joking about snapping their fingers to summon lightning after school during a thunderstorm
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