Fruit Me4lsp0!!

whys ui so damn big on mobile!! im not that old yet!!

Can i just have long slim legs? please?

the urge to post body checks but the fear and disgust of old wanker pervs looking at them. it's for the girls and the gays, leave!!!!! ToT

found this somewhere, not mine

I hate what I've done to my body.

Post-puberty, I've developed a really nice hourglass body type.

But that's under the layers of fat.

My hips and ass seem small compared to this belt of fucking flab

My stomach is bigger than my tits.

I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to stop fucking eating.

I could've been so hot by now.

reasons why i want to be sk1nny:

- i won’t be the ugly fat friend anymore

- guys (and girls) will like me, not my friends

- i can hug people without being scared of them feeling my stomach

- wearing cropped tops

- wearing tight, body forming dresses and clothing

- being looked at and asked if i want something to eat out of concern

- being cold on 30° celsius days

- someone can carry me

- being picked for a lead in a musical

- my school uniform fitting properly

- thigh gap 🤩🤩

- being able to fit both my hands around my leg without having to stretch

- shopping at op shops and being able to wear everything there

- looking like the characters i so often read about in my books

- walking through the house and not making a sound

- rings fitting my fingers

- baggy clothing looking actually good 🥹🥹

I’ve been wayyy overcomplicating my diet so I may just simplify it to just having tea for lunch and whatever my family have for dinner

Like, this system worked for me in my honeymoon phase, and tbh it’s too hard to keep track of my plan when I eat during the day

Anyway! I think I’ll start to track a food diary and stats here too. Hopefully I’ll be on here more when I can use my laptop!!!

Weight - 58.1 😵‍💫

Fast - 18:02

Steps - 1762 👎

LUNCH

- Black Tea w/ milk (9 cal)

DINNER

- 3 x Mexican chicken tortilla wraps (~612 cal)

EXCESS

- Earl Grey Tea w/ milk (7 cal)

- Mint gum (26 cal)

TOTAL // ~654 cals

Bit embarrassed about how much I ate at dinner, but I guess thats why I’m posting here for accountability (and why I need to do OMAD). I did feel dizzy today which was good I guess

ive been doing awful lately, everythings gone to hell, i dont know whats wrong with me, i need to stop eating entirely to get back the hang of hunger. im going to keep trying to trigger myself with my old early day stuff like tea. i miss my tapid weight loss so bad :((((( im really sad thinking about it i hate this stupid eteral hell

I was drawing myself in tim burton style last night, i genuinely felt so upset by it cause it had me with insane proportions it was hard to keep drawing. I want to get worse some days and it sucks that im like this. my meal options keep getting smaller, and family discussions about my diet are becoming a weekly event. i cant wait to get out of here :(

!!!!

piece of advice if u keep on "starting tomorrow" you will never get there.