whoa i feel like i can actually look at myself when i do more masculine makeup. like i don’t just feel immediately depressed and dissociate/experience my vision going blurry and can’t look myself in the eye. also boxers are so comfy and i love love love my new short red/burgundy hair. and my new ear piercings. like i’m just taking so many steps to feel more affirmed in my gender experience and comfortable in my own skin on my own terms, and it’s so so nice. now that i’ve started, i don’t want to stop.
not sure if i’m trans masc or a trans man or non-binary, or if i’m genderfluid like i initially thought, but man i feel so much more calm and at ease and like gently alive. like such a chill vibe and so grounded i love it so much omg
i think i might change my blog yet again lol.
Always always
Always
to trans men: you don't have to and can stop apologizing for being a man. it'll save you. you don't have to hate yourself for the approval of transphobic assholes like that. trans manhood is quite literally nothing to be ashamed of.
Can you please reblog if your blog is a safe place for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, asexual, aromantic, pansexual, non binary, demisexual or any other kind of queer or questioning people? Because mine is.
In our house there are 4 light switches by the front door. All are in a line, together.
1 light switch turns on the light in the kichen
1 light switch turns on the light in the livingroom
1 light switch controls literally nothing, as far as we know it is not connected to anything
And 1 light switch will shut off power to the entire house, air conditioners, fridge/stove/microwave, wifi box, literally anything you thing might have some sort of electrical current to it will turn off and take a full minute to reboot
This sucks because WE (those who live in the house) know which switchs turn off the lights before we leave, but others will never know when they've just turned off our refrigerator...
(Also we have 2 fuse boxes. One outside the house that is not grounded and WILL electrocute you if you so much as brush against it, and one in mine and my fiancé bedroom)
Star-Ranger's Transgendered Galaxy, 2000
*starts timer*
*checks #transmen tag*
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"Hmm, no..."
*Checks #transmasc tag*
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"Hmmmm, not here either"
*goes to liked posts*
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"FOUND IT!!!"
*checks timer*
Timer: 47 min, 2 seconds
That is how long it took me to find this FUCKING POST
JUST TO SAY
THIS POST HAS GIVEN ME A GENDER EUPHORIC HIGH I HAVNT FELT IN SO LONG
"But Li, you repost so many trans positiviy posts, why is this one so euphoric"
First of all, your beautiful, SECOND of all:
Specifically for one of the characters represented in it that i can relate to SO hard
And that is HIM
As a pre-top surgery trans guy, this shit makes me feel so EUPHORIC
Whether he can't get top surgery or doesn't want it doesn't fucking matter, what matters is that he doesn't have it, and he's still chest out and fucking proud about it
I don't know how to describe it properly but seeing somebody whose body is so much like my own, sitting there so casually, the representation has me on fucking Cloud Nine
And the whole image is beautifully created, an amazing representation of the diversity of trans men is just breath taking- the colors, the poses, the controposo, the contrasts
It's just, it's just a perfect and uplifting image all together, but still seeing someone with a body like mine represented is so beautiful and wonderful
This post has effected the way I carry myself
I used to think the peak of my masculinity right now was walking around the house in a sports bra because I don't have a proper binder rn- I was still covering mirrors to shower. Lights off, don't look down, just wash and go, close my eyes to get dressed
BUT FUCK after I saw this, I went to change and I looked in the mirror, and I saw myself in this image
I was able to look at my chest more objectively
And I just thought-like
"Yeah, that is a male body, that's what my male body is *supposed* to look like"
And just
Yeah
happy pride !! i love u my trans masc siblings 🫶 ⚧️ 🫶
this is also a redraw of a piece from june 2019 ⬇️
Trans tips #9!
Dont be embarrassed of yourself!
Somewhat story time, but it has a lesson, I promise!
I'm no longer sick! And I went out to dinner with some friends, my fiancé, and my younger sibling (NB) Whom knows about my transness
Well, we were at a Mexican restaurant when the manager walked up and was making conversation with the table. Eventually, he asked how we all knew eachother.
Now, some information about me, I still have long, blue hair that I am finally growing out after years of cutting it, and I'm pre-t. For the most part, not passing at all.
But my sibling introduced me as their brother
I felt super embarrassed
The manager asked "Brother? Who's your brother?"
Sibling points at me again, very casually, "yeah, so, my brother, his fiancé, (their) friends, ect..."
Manager starts pointing around the table, asking again "who is your brother?"
Sibling points to me again and very dismissively calls me their brother again
Now, overall, very proud of my sibling for sticking to their guns and not backing down
But in that moment I was so beyond embarrassed!
At the end I just wanted to tell them so let it go and let the manager call me their sister or something, anything to end the conversation, get me out of this mess, stop everyone from staring at me, I want a molcajete and a margarita at this point, thank you, yeah I'll pay let's just wrap this up please sibling shut UP
I was so annoyed with them
But, that was a few days ago, and I've since calmed down and I've been thinking about it all
I was the first in my family to ever come out. I've expressed my gender and sexuality differently for the last couple of years, and when my sibling came out as Nonbianary, I got them their first flag, and I walked them through coming out, and I showed them their options and their resources
And they received backlash
Because people (especially our family) weren't used to the idea of Nonbianary
My sibling considered de-transitioning
Going back to "normal"
Hiding in the closet
But I told them No! If someone doesn't refer to you by your chosen name, don't respond! I won't! I don't know who [deadname] is! I only know the name You told me! Fuck anyone who says otherwise!
Do you think I'm able to date and be engaged to the most wonderful and beautiful person in all of existence by hiding in the closet when people are mean to me? FUCK NO!
Stand up, say it with your chest, own it, and you'll be so much happier! So much more free!
They're just doing what I thought them to do
Dont be ashamed of who you are, and when you are ashamed, I won't be ashamed of you.
I can't hide in the closet, I am Valid
I may not pass, I am Valid
I may not be able to medically transition, I am Valid
I may like my hair longer, I am Valid
My voice isn't as deep as I want it to be, I am Valid
I am Valid, and You are Too
As long as you are safe to do so, don't be ashamed or afraid to come out;
And when you are, have someone else who can speak up for you!
Trans Tips #10!
List off parts of yourself that you DO like!
I always see "oh I don't like this or that, I don't pass for this reason or another" ect ect ect (Also I'm totally a hypocrit for this) BUT
MAKE A LIST OF THINGS YOU DO LIKE!!!
In the process of making my Pfp, I had to think about what my face and stuff looks like, that makes it look most like me out of all of these options
MAKE LISTS OF THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
I have a mutual, I can't remember who, but somebody said they also did voice training, and (as a singer) they could no longer reach higher pitch notes
ID BE SO EUPHORIC OF THAT FACT!!! THATS FUCKING AWESOME!!!
I can change a tire! I aired my tires and had to change one recently!!! IM STILL LIVING OFF OF THE EUPHORIA OF THAT!
This post is derailing rapidly, so I'll move on to the example part of my post!
My lovely PFP in question! I used a stardew valley pfp creator to make it. I've only played a tiny bit of stardew valley, but @wizzom showed it to me months ago, and now I'm using it for my profile!
I had to select different characteristics that matched my face, and it made me think objectively about myself,
As an artist, I had to pull myself apart by my tiny details instead of looking at the big picture. Overall, I don't pass, my features work together to look at little more fem, but each characteristic made me feel better about myself
My hair is blue! Not really a masculine or feminine thing, it just is (it's also very grown own, so you can see my very long dark roots, but whatever)
My hair is wavy, very similar to my Dad's, which already makes me feel good
My hair is very long! I have been cutting/shaving my hair for the better part of 4 years, all through high school, and I'm finally letting it grow out. I feel like there's a nice punk element to it, but also, if my femininity was highlighted with short hair, may my masculinity be defined by my long, luxurious, wavy hair
I have sun kisses on my cheeks, bridge of my nose, and shoulders from repeatedly burning and peeling. Now they're very faint freckles
I am white, but I'm not super pale. I tan very good and will be outside more when summer hits. This is the closest I could get to my skin tone
I have very thick, bushy eyebrows. My fiancé jokes about them being patchy and fucked up near the ends, and that they're just very bold and wildly thick
I have a big forehead, also like my dad!
I have more of a rounded nose (Fiance calls it a snub/snoobie nose) which i get more from my mom
I have very, very dark brown eyes to the point that in the shade, people often can't tell my pupil from my iris. It's only clear in direct sunlight
I have some eye bags, I work and overnight/revolving shift at work, and just naturally have a droopy, depressed, tired resting face
I don't have a beard (YET), but in my dream post, this is very similar to the beard I had. In my dream, my beard was my natural brown, but this pfp creator wouldn't let me change the facial hair color. (Low key love the look tho)
I do have a giant brown leather jacket that I wear constantly, he's scuffed and fucked up, I got him from a thrift store, but he has personality and I love him
I wear alot of horror t-shirts, mostly black with red accents, which is why the shirt is that color
Also, all of my shirts either have a wide neck or I've stretched the neck. I have ADHD and sensory issues and can not handle shit touching my throat. I WILL throw up (same with tags, I rip them off of everything I own/wear. I just can't)
The character creator wouldn't let me add piercings, but I have 3 facial piercings. My right eyebrow, septum, and tongue ring
I have a wider/boxier/chubbier face shape, with a soft jawline. I have convinced myself that that + my big forehead makes me look more masc
I like to joke that I have those soft masculine looks that girls are jealous of (male long lashes, boys soft kissable lips, guys with big butts, ect) just to help re-frame how I think about that stuff
I have a very broad back, I'm working out more to try and build muscle, but I'm happy for my wide back
I can go on but you get the point. Everything i try and reframe into being masculine. It can be difficult with dysphoria, but I continue to try!
Anyway, please message me! Put shit in my ask box! Comment! Add your own traits that you love! Please please please please please interact I WANNA SEE HOW YOU SEE YOURSELF
guys srsly be safe with binding your chest, most binders when bought new come with care instructions specific to the binder and the company but just generally make sure to be careful and if ur currently wearing one just take a moment to reflect and make sure you haven't been wearing it for over about 8 hours (give or take) take it from me, ive nearly broken my ribs while binding and it SUCKS, and while my dysphoria isn't too severe safety should come first, just be aware that binding can go wrong sometime and PLEASE BUY FROM A REPUTABLE COMPANY because if a binder isn't made right it can potentially be more dangerous than a well made binder
Li He/They/It Absolutely Unapologetically Dedicated to the most Beautiful Woman to have ever Existed
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