Shankar Mahadevan Is Getting Old😭

Happy Valentine's day🩷

This year, like the last couple of years, I'm spending my Valentine's Day alone. I'm supposed to feel pretty sad and lonely, but I'm not?

This is for you, whenever you arrive—I can't wait to meet you. The love I hold for you, even when I don't have you, is immense, and it shall only increase with time. Whenever we meet, in 5 years, in 10 years, u get it?—my heart, my love, will always be with you.

I've rejected so many advances, and I hope, in the end, it's all worth it. I hope you'll understand and accept me. I'm not the best person to love, nor am I the best lover out there. My mistakes make me wish for death and keep me sleepless. And I know my flaws are immense. I'm not perfect. But I hope I'll be good enough for you.

As long as you find me lovable, I'm fine. You're loved—aaj, kal, humesha.

I'll heal myself. I'll get better. Things will change for the better. I hope so, for I've never felt like I've lived enough.

Gosh, I've never written for my future partner. This is so not me.

But I hope you understand that the 19-year-old me loves you a lot.

This version of mine loves you a lot.

Bye, love🩷

I know a lot of people don’t want to live anymore, and I know many have lost hope, thinking their lives won’t get any better. I completely understand where they’re coming from, I felt that too at some point and obviously get episodes of sadness and regret. Sometimes the turmoil the world throws at us—the overthinking, the stress, and the deep sense of dissatisfaction and disconnection—makes it so hard to believe things can improve.

But in those moments, what keeps me going are the unexplored ventures ahead of me. There are so many books I haven’t read, so many movies I haven’t watched. Perhaps there’s a legendary album yet to release that I haven’t heard. There are so many fields, skills, and hobbies left to discover. So many places to visit, and so many people to meet.

And what about the person I’m supposed to be loved by? There’s so much this world offers that’s far beyond the adversities we face. I look at beautiful, articulate women, draped in elegance and poise, and I wonder what I’ll look like one day. A single book changed my career decisions—who knows what else I’ve been wrong about all this time?

What will I look like as an adult? As an elderly person? I have to make my younger self proud, too. When I think about all of this, the negative thoughts start to fade. There’s so much I have yet to know and experience, and I’m not going to let my past define my future. Yes, these things are sometimes overwhelming, but I think , these things are worth living for 🩷

Just a thot👾

ALL THE BEST GINNY! IK YOU GONNA SLAY THIS ✨

THANKYOU SO MUCHHHHHHHHH BABEヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ

I love old doordarshan series, they are short, meaningful and definitely worth watching. Here are my top 3 favourites, in case you wanna binge watch them too🩷

1) Trishna

It's the Hindi adaptation of the classic book 'Pride & Prejudice'. The characters are portrayed accurately and it's a 13 episode series.

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तृष्णा। टेलीविजन सीरीज। 1985

Trishna was the Indian version of Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice and suitably adapted to an Indian middle-class family. All the character

2) Kashish

This series highlights the slow burn romance portraying an aspiring actress as female lead and a successful director as male lead. The characters are written very well, I actually watched this before Trishna.

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Kashish

3) Chanakya

This series is directed by a renowned director Dr. Chandraprakash Dwivedi. This used to come in the evenings before Mahabharat during lockdown and dare I say, it was my favourite and still is. I suppose, it's the most accurate representation of Chanakya and the politics during the Nanda and Mauryan era. It's longer compared to the first two, but it'll certainly leave you with lots of useful insights and knowledge.

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@Official Chanakya 1991

Official Channel of Chanakya From the makers of the serial.

Do tell me your opinions if you've watched them or have other recommendations 🩷

I ALWAYS wanted pets and unfortunately mum is quite against it(valid). And laik I'm fine w anything. Now kuch din pehle I was thinking about adopting tortoises. Like in pair so that they don't feel lonely. This morning dad bought this person who has tortoises and fishes w him (it's legal dw). Now he takes out 2 of them, a pair. They were really small n cute and therefore the moment I saw them, I fell in love. It was way too quick but I got attached in a few minutes because they were comfy w me touching em(weren't going back in their shells).

But apparently they were way too small according to my parents (ion blame em) so they asked for a bigger pair, and yeah they were really cute too, but it wasn't the same. Now the male tortoise was not moving much so my parents said to get a healthier pair to avoid issues. And constantly, I was trying to convince them to get the ones I initially was interested in.

He said he'll come back. Parents might drop the plan. But now I am not the same. I'm feeling really sick since they left. I don't KNOW how to actually explain it, but this really really left me on the edge, mainly because I've probably never loved someone so deeply in sucha long time. My nerves are trembling and I might just throw up. I didn't have dinner and it kinda ruined me. PPL might say I'm delusional but yeah, it's not a good feeling.

I don’t mind being called a diva 🤩💃🏻

But jfyi i’m a guy hehe

Ofc DIVA (✿◡‿◡)

Just added this to my playlist, thank you so so much for this amazing song reccomendationnn🌸

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