I learned about how other DID systems experience amnesia and one description has hit the nail on the head. We experience black-out amnesia, but not how it is commonly portrayed online or in media. We do not get confused about where we are, find ourselves in places we do not remember going. We do not notice our amnesia unless we are reminded of it.
Amnesia to us is like digging through sand trying to find the memory in our brain.
I do not recall forgetting something until i am supposed to remember the events. It feels to me like i have experienced every second of every day. I find it difficult to notice memory gaps on my own, and i believe that is partly the point of DID.
Laughing our ass off with our partner in the car because Bakugou was singing his song (actually physically listening to himself song too) and went "This voice is so me, guys if we had a bakugou he'd have the Japanese voice in headspace" .... We told BM and they laughed with us...
-Kiri
Bros, we're watching The Smurfs movies and bros... I'm renaming our terms to fucking Smurf names. Hah Smerfs. Anyways hear me out.
(my term 'alter' my change but for now... I'm putting alter. If you didn't use "Alter" you can swap it)
And yes I changed a few of these, yes you can use them cuz bro... Fuck normal things am I right?
Grandparent Alter
Parent Alter
Nerdy Alter
Clumsy Alter
Hefty Alter
Grouchy/Grumpy Alter (A calmer word for rage/anger holders)
Handy Alter
Jokey/Prankster Alter
Greedy Alter
Chef Alter
Vanity Alter
Lazy Alter
Harmony/Music Alter
Poet/Writer Alter
Painter/Artist Alter
Scardey Alter
Sloppy Alter
Tracker Alter
Baby /Youngster Alter (probably a little honestly guys)
Snappy Alter (definitely a step down from Grumpy)
Slouchy Alter
Alchemist Alter
Timid Alter
Actor Alter
Architect Alter
Baker Alter
Dabbler Alter
Doctor Alter
Dopey Alter
Enamore Alter
Finance Alter
Flying Alter
Nanny Alter
Nosey Alter
Editor Alter
Reporter Alter
Sculptor Alter
Sickly Alter
Stinky Alter
Sweepy Alter
Tailor Alter
Wimpy Alter
Wild Alter
Weepy Alter
Tuffy Alter (acts tough)
Nurse Alter
Lucky Alter
Pretentious Alter
Pastrycook Alter
Cook Alter
Submariner Alter
Gutsy Alter
Navigator Alter (bros this is weirdly Lance for us)
Hunter Alter
Flighty Alter (can't make decisions)
Nobody Alter
Pushover Alter
Crazy Alter
Narrator Alter
Passive-Aggressive Alter
Panicky Alter
Smooth Alter
Clueless Alter
Party Planner Alter
Complimentary Alter
Drummer Alter
Schemer Alter
Dreamy Alter
Gullible Alter
Paranoid Alter
Policeman Alter
Magician Alter
Mime Alter
Karate Alter
(least to us)
Farmer Alter
Miner Alter
Miller Alter
Fisher Alter
Timber Alter
I understand some of these are mean or harsh! Oh you use this you can change it to fit your feels better!
(Also sorry this is kinda thrown. I wanted to just get my thoughts out really)
-Larry
Man Psych needs to have a comeback. I want to go buy stuff off me and my husband. Also criminal minds so I can get stuff of my boyfriend... Though that's more active
-🍍
(he's immediately running to Etsy now -Rob)
Great now I gotta calm a hyper Tenn... Thanks.
-b
*Achem*
Bitch :]
*Runs*
-Tenn
Boi you can't run from me!
you can tell where i gave up in some of these
Ah man getting bitched at by Lance cuz we're so harmfully selfless but feel so toxicity Selfish.
Let us explain.
It's a recurring pattern. Anyone wants something (say a movie or show) we watch that, hint we wanna watch something new or we get in the habit of seeing reels of a show/movie and our brain goes "yes watch that" but we all still win in that stupid "No, THEY want to watch [said other show]"
Happened today with music too. Think lance took control of Peter Parker to make Stark listen to HIS playlist even though we had one or teo more STAR KID musicals his son wanted to hear...
We don't know how to get out of this stupid loop. We feel selfish when we have a bad mental day/sick day/pain day or Tony has a *horrible* narcoleptic day (trippy how that effects the body honestly. Like WTF) see cuz we could be doing so much right?
Us and BM have made a sticker chart and reach enough you can get something you want... We... Want Moriah Elizabeth stuff but... It... Feels too expensive... And yeah ik BM will see this, tell us to get it, we're going to feel like always cuz why not just tell them or something... The problem is we have a hard time telling anyone what... WE want... We're not... Well... We feel like we're not... For US you know?
It's like Lance is the only one physically upset about it...
I'm not going to lie we saw our grandma is selling dolls (she makes the clothes by hand... Like... BEAUTIFUL clothes...... Like the ones below)
Silly... We physically are the only grandkid who actually cares and ADORES them... She stops giving them for Christmas at 18.. (body is 21 now) like we physically cried when we turned 18 cuz we knew it was the last doll... We don't talk to them, or our dad, or mom, or her mom (all in all we don't REALLY talk to our family, idk why we just don't) so we feel selfish for wanting one for that reason but... We love these dolls... Have them on display when we're not moving place to place... Like... Tall big glass containers!!! Really cherish them!!! And it threw out fucking vibe off... Wanted Tony's music to try and cheer up but we went "Nah. Peter is listening to the musical" for an hour...
See what I mean by harmfully selfless??? Watch what we want when people are asleep, press home when they wake up so they can watch what they want. Think we have a Barry Allen, HR (The Flash), Lucifer and someone else but we don't watch those damn shows cuz who tf would wanna watch those??? Ngl Shawn was nervous to watch his source... (Turns out Psych is uh... More loveable than I thought... Considering I'm a dumbass -🍍)
It's... Irritating...
We feel like assholes for being fucking human... Ngl we were hoping Tony Stark would be selfish enough but turns out we were dead fucking wrong...
We've kind of lost ourselves too... You know? We're used to certain foods now we don't even remember what we like (and we're adding this here because it ties in to that ↑ -Lance) I know frozen burritos and pot pies but... Those... Aren't... Favorites here lmao.
We forgot shows we like even with damn alters OF those shows. Movies? Uh... I think Pixels? Wonka? Iron Man? Right... Uh... Idk.
And yeah we know this is related to trauma and whatnot or whatever but fuck can we just... Idk... Idfk...
Anyone else get this way or are we just pathetic?
Hehe guys I just wanted to share me and my husband
-Wanda
Uhhh- i dont normally like to post art-
But heres me and my Wife!!
-Starlord
@the-wild-west-sys
Jedtavius wedding art!! It doesn't rlly read well but hey, at least I tried
Okay start this with a song I suppose, shall we-
We're The Wild West System.
Please be patient with us. We kind of discovered we're a system mid 2024 shortly before meeting our partner sys. We're mostly made up of fictives. (If you want to know sources or the difference. Ask and they may tell you!)
Collective name: Eddie
System nicknames: West/Crow
Collective Pronouns: He/They
Collective Orient: Bi
Body Age: 21
Disorders: ADHD, PTSD
Suspected Disorders: OCD...
Hobbies: reading, writing, painting
Hyperfixes: ALWAYS changing
Body/Hosts: Writer, M and Crowly, BJ, Shawn Spencer
Co-Hosts: Peter Parker, Steve Harrington, Wade Wilson, Tony Stark,
We'll post using our SP sign offs and try to tag who posted if not uh... Good luck out there with our posts!
We don't know terms really yet so all your hoodoo voodoo terms makes us
Someone in our system wants to take us to the gym to walk on the treadmill with a book until the book is finished
-c
Alter going to the gym at 9am: Oh yeahhhh we gonna have a killer workout!
Alter who has to do a 6 hour retail shift afterwards: WHY!? WHY DO YOU HATE ME!?
Sys that's all over the place but vibing to life. Oh uh please don't treat fictives as their source... it makes us feel we're faking because we're NOTHING like our source
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