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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

Feeling guilty

I don't know but I feel bad for shipping Shance when Shiro literally had (has?) a fiancé on earth... I'm like, "he's probably still in love with Adam... He's definitely still in love with Adam." But then it changes to, "I still ship Shance! Adam's probably in the past." Like, nothing can get in the way of Shance! Shance all the way!

I mean, I don't know if I should just ship what I like to ship or just slowly back away... To be honest, I might join some of the others and just ship Lance with Shiro and Adam.

no no just asking in general I didnt want to send in a request with a charcter you didnt want to write lol sorry if I was the confusing one

No, it’s fine! Sorry for the mix up, haha, I can write for any character that you’d like. It’ll just depend on if I’m able to write like them within the fics. Other than that, I don’t writing for any character! 😊😊

So, in Avengers: Infinity War, if Tony goes back in time and brings past!New York Fight!Steve to the present and Bucky is still around when Tony brings him through time. How will Steve react while he sees Bucky, standing in front of him? Like, what would Steve's facial expression be when he sees Bucky, long haired, metal arm and scruffy Bucky?? Like, what will happen??

Yeah, they definitely do help with passing time by. I prefer movies though, unless the show has a different plotline each episode and you don't need to watch every single episode. I guess thats why I like black mirror lol. Haha, yes the breakfast club is 85. Ugh, I'm obsessed with 80s films! I watch random ones that aren't that popular though. But if you liked the breakfast club you should check out the rest of john hughes' movies he made, they're not as serious and dark lol.

I just might, maybe after I've finished with college things. Then I'll have enough time to just sit back and relax. Thanks for the suggestion, though!

So... I have returned...

Umm, Hi there! As you have read in the title of this post, I have returned to tumblr and I don’t know if I will be as active. I am, however, still writing the Teen Wolf Fanfic cause I put that off for a while and then Uni came and slammed me in the face and now that I offically finished my first year of uni, I’m back to continuing with the fanfic, this does mean I will probably be doing one shots again if requested and also being writing up the one’s already requeats.

Um, other than that... Hi! Hello! I’m back... that’s about it hahaha!

Bruce Wayne watched both of his parents die.

Tony Stark has heart problems and anxiety.

Peter Parker saw his uncle being murdered.

Steve Rogers lost his best friend.

Bruce Banner attempted suicide.

If they can save the world, you can get through this day.

Never stop fighting.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore 😂😂

Steve has a twin sister, known as Nicole 'Sarah' Rogers, in this and she took the serum just like him but survived the WW, after the war he changed her name to Sarah Daniels. She helped Peggy and Howard founded S.H.I.E.L.D and helped Howard look after Tony but left after staying till Tony was 16.

Steve wakes up, 70 years into the future. He wakes up to realised that he become a national icon to America, that they made comics about him and had a whole section at the Smithsonian just for him and the Howling Commandos. He wakes up believing his home is gone. To a world where he couldn't make weird, witty jokes with the commandos, smile at Peggy like a love sick puppy or look at Bucky as if his whole world is within his best friend's hands.

He soon finds out that he isn't truly alone in this cold, lonely world that only shows black and white. He finds out that Peggy is still alive but the Howling Commandos has passed away during the early 2000s. He finds guilt and anger well up inside him but he had no reasons to be angry, he should be the one they should be angry at... He shows up at the care home that Peggy was staying at, with guilt heavy in his chest. Peggy takes a few seconds to recognise him but when she doesn't, his heart breaks. He left his best gal all alone and yet she found happiness, something he wanted for her. They talk for a few minutes before Peggy forgets again and Steve had to watch as Peggy recognises him again... He had to leave his best gal behind because he needed to save the world, needed to save the people that have families or young children that still have so much ahead of them. He tells that to Peggy, tells her that he would do anything to protect the world and keep her safe but doesn't tell her that it was suppose to stop the guilt, that is still in his chest, the guilt he felt when he couldn't even save Bucky from the fall on the train.

He doesn't say anything though, he keeps the smile on his face and keeps himself in check because he's Captain America, and Captain America has to be strong for the people out in the world. Suddenly, 2 years have flown by and he's on a case, finding this assassin that was suppose to be a myth, The Winter Soldier. Steve does find him, well, the Winter Soldier finds him and his friends but he's no longer the Winter Soldier now. No, instead he's his best friend from Brooklyn, the guy that stuck by him through thick and thin, he's his Bucky. The Bucky that he couldn't save, the Bucky that didn't deserve whatever happened to him while in the hands of Hydra.

Steve fights Bucky, it's a bad thing because Steve couldn't concentrate on fight but only on the thoughts that he could've saved Bucky, he could've landed the plane. Could've told Peggy his coordinates and had that date with her. Could've stopped Howard from being like that to Tony and his wife and help save Bucky from Hydra again before it become so severe. But what happened, happened. He couldn't go back in time and change everything, instead he has to learn to live through he regrets and guilt and help get Bucky back, help Bucky with the pain he's going through.

After the fight on the helicarrier, Bucky disappears and Steve tries going back to how it was before he found out that the person he was hunting was his best friend. The best friend he thought had died from his fall from the train. Instead, he puts on his mask again, Sam and Natasha know it's a mask but they don't question it because they know Steve would lie to them, like he was lying to himself every day for the past two years. Only one year passes and he slowly gets through it, having his friends with him helps him get better a bit. But then things get bad again because Tony and Bruce designed a robot that now wants to get rid of the human race. So they fight. That's what Steve is good at, fighting and using his body as a shield for people that hasn't got quick healing like he does.

The fight ends and Ultron is defeated but Sokovia is in a bad bad state, lots of people's lives have been lost, including Wanda's brother and god does Steve understand what she's feeling because now, now, he starts thinking about his sister. God, his twin sister, the other person that stuck with him and encouraged him through things that he wanted to do, the person who also took the serum and servived. The person that Steve didn't have to see die during the war. And he feels the guilt again, so he stands next to Wanda, telling her it would be okay and helping her through the sadness and guilt throw the years.

Another year goes by and now he's found Bucky. Bucky who doesn't remember him but remembers something's from the past. "Read about you in the museum." Bucky says to Steve and Steve... Steve has to keep the tears from welling up from his eyes because that's not how he wants Bucky to remember him but he doesn't complain, instead he's there, helping Bucky fight the police force that is after Bucky. He's helping Bucky escape because that's what he can to do get forgiveness from not being able to stave him from the fall. When they get caught, Steve becomes a fugitive and that means that he doesn't have to hold himself in check now, doesn't have to have a bright on his face. But that still stays on even if he wants to take it off.

The doctor that was questioning bucky, makes Steve feel uncomfortable, he doesn't why but his gut is telling him that something is about to go wrong. And it does, Bucky breaks out of the weird prison and then the 'doctor' isn't seen again. Bucky fights his way through the facility and leaves. Steve and Sam find him later, Steve puts Bucky's metal arm in a metal holder in case they aren't talking to 'Bucky'. When Bucky does wake up, he has all the memories, ranging from Steve and his twin to the army and the fall. Steve shed some tears but wipes it away quickly before smiling brightly that he has his friend back. They get him out of the hold and tell him everything, tell him that they were on the run because they didn't sign the accords but that's okay, as long as he has bucky.

Then there's the fight between Steve's team and Tony's team. Steve and Bucky get out of it and travels to the place where Zemo is but then Tony turns up and says that he believes Bucky is innocent and Steve thinks that his 'family' is going to become okay but then Zemo destroys that. Shows the actually scene on what happened to Tony's parents, leaves the video playing long enough for Bu- no, for the Winter Soldier to look up at the camera and shoot at it. Tony's is angry and Steve understands he does but it wasn't Bucky but Tony doesn't listen. At the end of the fight, Tony is lying on the floor, babbling about how the shield belongs to his father, which it does but it has the marks of Peggy, so he lets it go. Like he did to everything else, he helps Bucky, the only person he can't leg go anymore, up and walks out of the vault, leaving Tony behind. When Tony does get back to the Avengers building, he's found helping Rhodes with is leg paralysis but he's getting better and Tony can tell. Then a parcel is there for him, a phone, sitting there, in the box, waiting patiently before being tipped out with a letter and it's from Steve. The same Steve that never leaves behind any family members, even if they are behind bars. This, Tony knows and doesn't discuss with Ross, hanging up on him within the first minute. He stares at the picture that's on his desk and it's him, Jarvis, his mum and dad along with Peggy and Sarah. Smiling brightly in the coloured photo, but he wonders who Sarah was other than his dad and Peggy's friend...

thank you, avengers

ok im like angry now so stop excluding latines from your posts, we don’t just exist at the border and i’m not your fucking paleta cart man. we’re everywhere but y’all pretend like we dont exist or like we’re fictional. we know you see us as drug dealers, amongst other things. appropriate us because sombreros and ponchos are so funny!!! mariachis are just so funny!!!  we see you when you ignore our voices, make fun of us, and pretend we don’t exist altogether. im tired of it