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SPIN OFFS?

Ok I already know that teen wolf is already getting a spin off (even though I don't think it will fair better than the original) but (and I might be imagining this) Ian bohen put a tweet up saying there should be a hale spin off and like omg would I be so down for that! Like imagine all the different aspects and just times they could explore. Think about it

Smol derek, smol cora,Peter and Chris relationship, talia ...TALIA, Laura and all her greatness and any other family members them as a pack interacting with each other like my god I want it

My thoughts on Teen Wolf season 4

Ok so spoiler alert 🚨

Sooo...

Idk how to feel about this season to be completely honest

For me it was kinda confusing with the dead pool and Kate thing going on u know?

Like the idea of a dead pool with all supernatural creatures was interesting yeah and I liked how Parrish was put more in the spotlight of the show I liked him in the third season (he is cool plus I like his need for justice if u know what I mean) though I want to see how his supernatural side works

I liked the different kinds of assassins (how many s are in this word?!) especially the mute idk why he was interesting

And I liked the whole detective thing going on with Stiles and Lydia too and their relationship altogether u know plus it was nice seeing Lydia dive in to her new found powers

I don't like Kate so I didn't really enjoy her whole arc on the other hand I freaking loved the Berserkers their whole design was awesome and them being basically indestructible was mwah yeah it was nice seeing the characters defeat something that is like a brick wall to them

I like and hate Peter and I will leave it like that yeah

Oh yeah and I will always adore sheriff Stilinski he is awesome

Ok look here I know some people will not agree with me on this one but I hated the relationship between Derek and Braeden because it felt forced? It was just out of place for me, it didn't feel right as most of the previous ones (now I mean for all the characters in the show) it just wasn't it yep

Whose relationship I liked was Scott and Kira they were cute though not as cute as Scott and Allison but it was still cute

Anyway thanks for reading!

My thoughts on Teen Wolf season 3

Ok now that I look at it I'm consuming Teen Wolf seasons hella fast

Idk if that's good or not...

Anyway spoiler alert 🚨

Ok so I love how all the family relationships progressed u know Stiles and his dad, Scott and his mom and Allison and her dad (especially this relationship) because it was so nice to see all the parents helping them since now they also know about the supernatural and that meant that now they could do things that were a big no before

Next thing the first half I was so frustrated with Kali because girl put on some DAMN SHOES!

Like yeah it was nice seeing different kinds of werewolf fighting styles but for this one why did she have to be bare foot all the time?

Another thing I hated how they killed off Boyd and Erica

I liked them...

Anyway moving on, I kinda knew from the beginning that there was something off with the teacher who turned out to be the one doing all the killings yeah...

Plus the whole thing with the alpha pack it was kinda cool but at same time kinda weird idk but I guess we got the twins out of it?

I liked the relationships, u know the twins and Lydia and Danny it was nice, it was cute

Oh yeah I enjoyed Peter's interactions with others and his attitude altogether I know he is a bad guy but an enjoyable one to watch hehe

Ok and I still don't like Scott bite me if u want on this one but he really isn't that much of a great friend even if he had some moments

Poor Stiles yeah, the whole season he was used, hurt, manipulateted and mentally tortured and he still cared about others and their feelings (I believe he had it worse than Lydia and Jackson)

But it was interesting seeing Stiles be the bad guy since he is the fun character

Oh yeah and I pray for mr Argent because he just lost his whole family or more likely his remaining family, u know his whole world crumbling down even if he says that it's ok (I know that the aunt returned at the end but I don't like her...)

And the death of Allison and one of the twins yeah that wasn't nice I liked them both

Ooh yeah I liked how Derek tried to help and cared for Stiles

I guess this is everything yeah

Thanks for reading!

I need to know what kind of blackmail Jeff Davis has on Ian Bohen to make him get down on all fours and SNIFF THE GROUND IN THE YEAR 2023

This man needs to stop.

This beautiful man needs to stop coming for my heart. Look at those eyes, look at how blue they are. . .

This needs to stop, my heart can't take anymore, please.

Mr Ian 'Daddy' Bohen was unable to go in Twitter and instead posted this on Instagram. I'm worried about him but I also love him. That's is all. Please know that this isn't true, I don't really know why he posted it on Instagram but I am curious as to who is appearing in his dreams to have him post this. Must be someone scary... Or something else....

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I'm going to go back to writing my story. I have not touched it in three months. Sorry for wasting your time, hehe...

Can I just express how much I live for these two dorks!!

Like, I love them and I just can't, haha!

UPDATE;

Ian's middle name is Stuart. Stuart. Gosh, here's some proof;

So, I might push this back and start it when I officially finish college. I’ve got about a month left before I leave and then I can concentrate on continuing on writing the third chapter of Wait, who’s back? and then I can also start with this new fic!

A new fanfic idea!!

Hey guys, I have this fanfic idea in my head, as much as I love Peter and Chris and their ship, in this upcoming fic they’re going to be the bad guys. So, I’m reusing my oc, Liliana Stilinski but instead of being Derek’s best friend, she’s laura’s, and she gets together with Jordan Parrish.

Anyway, with the way the story is going, it’s going to be angsty and it’s going to have the mention of someone having a miscarraige and cheating. I’m sure you’re seeing where this fic is going. Hopefully, this fic is going to turn up as a one-shot because that’s what I have in mind but if not then I’m screwed haha.

Without ado, wish me luck cause I’m going to need it considering my terrible writing skills…

So, this may just be me but looking at Ian Bohen and Raul Esparza, they look like they could be related in some way. Like, as cousins probably.

I mean, look at these boys, ahem, I mean men,

I don't know, maybe it's just me projecting that these are two hot men. Gosh, I need to find guys that are my age but then again, they are dicks most of the time.

Anyway, I wouldn't mind watching a TV series with these in it. Boy, that would be too hot for me to handle 😂

A new fanfic idea!!

Hey guys, I have this fanfic idea in my head, as much as I love Peter and Chris and their ship, in this upcoming fic they’re going to be the bad guys. So, I’m reusing my oc, Liliana Stilinski but instead of being Derek’s best friend, she’s laura’s, and she gets together with Jordan Parrish.

Anyway, with the way the story is going, it’s going to be angsty and it’s going to have the mention of someone having a miscarraige and cheating. I’m sure you’re seeing where this fic is going. Hopefully, this fic is going to turn up as a one-shot because that’s what I have in mind but if not then I’m screwed haha.

Without ado, wish me luck cause I’m going to need it considering my terrible writing skills. . .

Guys, I don't know what I'm doing with my life anymore. There are so many ships that I bloody ship. Like, Stargent ( Chris x Stiles ), Steter ( Peter x Stiles ) and Sterek (Derek x Stiles ). And to be honest, I need more stargent in my life, there have been many many days where I've been on the Chris x Stiles tag on AO3 as well as on Tumblr. . .

Plus I should be doing my assignments instead of looking for fanfics that are with my ship. . . What is my life. . . ?

Update on Wait, Who’s Back?

Hey guys, just a little update on my fanfic. I’ve just recently updated the story, posted the full chapter of chapter two on AO3. Make sure to check it out.

You can check it out —-> Here

Hope you guys enjoy it!!

Okay, so, some ground breaking news. Not really ground breaking and you people probably don't care and I shouldn't care about it but like I'm okay with this and I don't mind. And I know celebrities are human too but like bruh.

Ian Bohen smokes cigarettes. Not only is he a biker and sexy as sin, he also smokes. I know I should've connected the dots already from his photoshoots but bro. He's even better!

I know smoking is bad for you but, I don't know what it s about hot biker men, wearing leather jackets with tattoos who smoke. . .

I don't mind me, carry on with your day. I need to re-evaluate my life on what type of men get me hot and what I should actually be focusing on. . .

Christ. . .

He’s Family - Peter Hale

Fandom – Teen Wolf

Ship – Peter Hale/Matthew Stilinski [OMC] ; Peter Hale & Stiles Stilinski – Friendship ;

Characters – Peter Hale, OMC, Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale, Scott McCall, Lydia Martin and Allison Argent [ mentioned ]

Word Count - 2,142

Authors Note – So, I wanted to start off my page with a fic to get it going and I hoped you all enjoyed it! I swear I will try and improve on my writing, I don’t know what I think about it but either way, when I first started this fic, I had no idea where it was heading, and I really didn’t know it was going to end like that. Sorry to all of the Scott fans out there, didn’t mean to make it like that but it just happened, same with Stiles!

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“Mm, you’re leaving already?”

“Yes, they called me in. I can’t disobey the Alpha.”

The body on the bed moved slightly causing the sheets to rustle. “It’s four in the morning. What could he possibly need from you that can’t wait till a reasonable time?”

“Who knows, either way, he wants me to see him and I’m going to have to see him.” The figure standing move closer to the person on the bed. Bending down, the standing figure kissed the other on the forehead before backing up and making his way to the bedroom door.

“You need to be careful, okay?”

“I’m always careful.” A hint of a smirk came from the standing figure.

“I’m serious, Peter. Be careful.”

The male standing, now known as Peter, turned his body until he was facing the laying body. Well, no longer laying, the figure on the bed was now sat up against the headboards.

“I will, sweetheart. Don’t worry.”

After that, Peter walked out of the bedroom and down the stairs until he reached the entrance of the house. With a roll of his neck, he walked out of the building and towards his car, ready to make his way to his nephew’s loft.

“You better be.” Was the last thing Peter heard from his significant other before he climbed into his vehicle and backed out of his driveway.

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“What is so important that you had to call me out of bed, dear nephew?” Left Peter’s lips once he stepped into the loft. Everyone was there, except for Stiles, lord knows where Stiles is. Probably sleeping.

Derek scowled from where he sat, eyes glaring at Peter. “You’re late.”

Rolling his eyes, Peter walked down the steps, making his way to an empty sitting space. “I am not late, and you haven’t answered my question.”

“He called a meeting because Stiles has been kidnapped.” Filled the silence, coming from a space a few seats down from the older man. Turning his head, Peter instantly recognized the red fiery hair, Ms. Lydia Martin.

“Repeat that for me again.” Eyes going cold as he looked at everyone sitting in the loft, his hearing must be going because he did not just hear that Stiles was kidnapped.

“You heard what she said, Peter. She doesn’t need to repeat it and we need your help.” Derek replied, stopping Lydia from speaking.

“Then I’m sure she can repeat what she said, to me.” Rang through the loft, silencing everyone and causing them to turn their heads to the loft door. There, standing there with an angry expression, looking ready to rip someone apart if they spoke, stood Stiles Stilinski’s older brother. Matthew Stilinski.

Everyone sat there, staring at the male figure storming down the stairs looking ready to kill. However, they did come out of it as soon as they watched Peter walk up to the man, eyebrows drawn tight and a frown set on his lips.

“What are you doing here? You should be at home, sleeping.” Whispered Peter, eyes roaming the other males face as he spoke. Whispers began to fill up the quiet loft, something Peter chose to ignore whilst waiting for his lovers response.

“I felt pains in my chest; I knew it wasn’t you because you had just left,” Matthew began to explain, his voice serious while his eyes showed his worry. “I rang my dad next, he sounded fine and when I rang Stiles, he didn’t answer. To me, that’s very strange.”

As Matthew stood there, explaining why he was at the loft, it was silent again. Everyone seemingly interested as to why the older Stilinski was in the loft and why Peter’s so close to him. Their conversation was soon interrupted by a someone clearing their throat, with a look that said, ‘we’re carrying this conversation later’. Peter turned around to face his nephew once again, a feral grin on his lips before they parted to let the words out.

“What’s the plan?”

Before Derek could even open his mouth to respond to his uncle, Scott spoke instead, causing Derek to lean back into his chair, glaring at the crocked jawed teen.

“Are you really going to let him be here and listen to what we’re going to say.”

Peter scoffed at what the teen said, choosing to ignore it as he stood by his lover’s side, everyone else, on the other hand, was staring at him. Some with one of their eyebrows lifted in question. With everyone being silent, Matthew thought he should be the person to answer the question his younger brother’s best friend, ‘ex-best friend more like.’ Ran through his head before he spoke.

“Yes, you are. If you try and remove me from this meeting, I will then make it my personal mission to make your life a living hell.” Matthew growled out as he glared at the tanned teen, eyes boring into his soul before changing his focus to Derek.

Shrugging his shoulders, Derek began the meeting, telling each member all of the information that they needed to know as well as suggesting a plan of attack. Some protested, others agreed, therefore they all agreed to change some aspects of the plan. With the final plan of attack in place, they all set out to rescue a member of their pack, determination etched onto their faces.

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They all stumbled into the loft, cuts, and bruises prominent on their skin. Shuffling into the room, the pack members all stumbled their way to a seat, releasing a sigh once they sat down. They all started to drift off into a deep slumber, only to be startled when the loft door slammed shut. Peter supporting Stiles to an empty space on the sofa and Matthew walking behind them with the scent of anger, pain and disgust coming from him. It didn’t help that when Matthew was angry, it was calm anger, the type of anger that scared everyone the most.

“Why, pray tell were there hunters in Beacon Hills? Stiles told me that there were dealt with.” Matthew growled to everyone in the room, a storm in his eyes as he eyed everyone in the room, not carrying that they are exhausted.

“That,” arm lifted and finger point at the sliding door, “that did not, and I mean did not look as if it was dealt with. They should have been killed.” His dark eyes landed on to the Alpha of the pack, Scott McCall, waiting for his excuse to tumble out of his mouth.

“We don’t kill, Matt. We’re not the type of people to kill.” There it was, the same sentence he’s been sprouting out to everyone to the point that his own brother, his best friend, was hurt.

“You may not be but everyone else in this room is. They know what’s good for the pack, not getting rid of your enemies will cause this pack to be dead in a fucking week.”

“Killing is wrong, Matt. You have to unde–“

“Oh, I do, but you don’t care if someone else does your dirty work, right?” The older Stilinski sneered, leaving Scott to stammer whilst Matthew continued to speak, his voice carrying over his. “Working with the enemy, using your pack members until you get what you want and let us not forget too busy thinking with your dick instead of looking around you!”

“This isn’t a game, McCall. If you don’t get your head out of your fucking ass, I will take my brother away from this hostile pack.” Once that was finished, Scott and everyone else bar Peter and Stiles, started whining and protesting.

“I don’t care for your petty excuses anymore, Scott. My baby brother was kidnapped tonight, and you didn’t notice until you messaged him because Allison was too busy doing other things to suck your dick.”

Looking around the room once more, Matthew’s dark eyes drank in everyone’s expression before he turned and walked to the sofa Peter and Stiles was on, determined to head home. Picking up his brother, bridal style, the adult began to make his way to the entrance, his lover not far behind him. He came to a stop once he reached the top step, voice cold but stern.

“If you don’t sort your world view out and think of your pack instead of your dick and your murderous girlfriend, I will be taking your pack members and make them mine.”

That caused Scott to growl loudly, red tinting his eyes as he stared at the back of the Stilinski. Leading Peter to turn around and flash his ice blue eyes to the teen, his lips shaped into a snarl.

“You are not fit to be an Alpha, but I suppose children shouldn’t be dealing with adult cards.” With that, Matthew used his magic to open the door and walked out, heading straight towards the elevator. When it opened, he stepped inside, turning around to face the pack, now standing around in the loft with a lost expression on their faces.

Unsympathetic eyes stared at them until the elevator doors closed, cutting their contact with the two Stilinski’s.

“Well that was eventful but as you know, I need to get going as you made my mate unhappy. I’ll have to deal with it.” Turning his eyes to crocked jawed teen, Peter gave him a disappointed look, laced with regret.

“I wished I never turned you.”

Spinning in his spot, the oldest Hale walked out of the loft. No longer wanting to concern himself with such a pathetic pack.

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A few hours had passed since the whole ordeal that happened at the loft. Matthew finally went to sleep, after much pestering from Peter, now it was only Peter awake. He was ready to take care of his lover’s little brother once he wakes. He was busy in his thoughts that he didn’t notice the figure lying on the sofa began to move around and then with a fluttering of lashes, amber eyes opened to the world. A jostle at his side, however, caused Peter to come out of his trance and peer down at the younger male, a soft smile on his lips.

“How are you doing, little red?” voice soft with a hint of worry and concern laced in.

Shifting ever so lightly, Stiles sat on the sofa, warm and cozy while looking up at Peter. “Good, it doesn’t hurt anymore. You wouldn’t be using your werewolf mojo, would you?” The teen’s voice barely a whisper, Peter was lucky that he was a werewolf or else he wouldn’t have heard the poor boy.

“No, it was your brother instead. He worked his “mojo” to heal you and get rid of the pain.” His fingers wiggling when saying the word mojo, the smile never leaving his lips.

“Do you want something to drink?”

A nod was all he needed before he stood up to retrieve a glass of water for the boy, he made sure to listen to Stiles, just in case something happens, and he gets hurt again. To be fair, the boy is quite clumsy.

Walking back into the living room, he gave Stiles the glass of water, instructing him to drink it slowly before suggesting that he sleeps in the guest room tonight. Peter had already called the Sheriff to tell him what happened and that Stiles shouldn’t be at home by himself right now, the Sheriff agreed before informing Peter to keep him updated.

That was the end of the conversation. Short but not threatening, which was good.

It took a few minutes, but the older man was able to change Stiles in his brother’s sleeping clothes and laid him on the bed, telling him that if he needed anything, he can either call him or Matthew. With that done, Peter went back to his room, and the first thing he noticed was that his mate was awake.

Walking towards Matthew’s side of the bed, he lent down and kissed his forehead before heading into the ensuite bathroom for a shower. When he came back out, dressed in his sleeping pants, he walked to his bed and got settled, pulling the other male close to his chest so that they were spooning.

Nuzzling his nose at the back of the younger males neck. The older male let out a content sigh before replying. “I did though, he’s family, after all, sweetheart.”

Comfortable silence soon filled the room, enough to cause Peter to drift off to sleep. However, he didn’t have the luxury because it was interrupted by the words coming out of the other male’s mouth. “You didn’t need to do that.”

That was all that needed to be said because Matthew pulled one of Peter hands to his lips and kissed before snuggling back into the man. Both content as they both fell asleep.

The End

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Update on Wait, Who's Back?

Right, I'm currently typing out the chapter and let me tell you guys. I think it's going to be a long chapter. And I still have a lot of bullet points to cover in this second chapter.

Here is a picture of the bullet points that I still need to do. One's that are highlighted in yellows means that I've finished it. Sorry if it's really blurry, I made it like that so you guys don't get spoilers.

I’d like to bring this back up because it’s the most wonderful thing I’ve ever seen.

All found family shows have: Hale Pack Edition

(#The first 2 are usually dating)

scott: you're smiling, did something good happen?

stiles: can't i smile just because i feel like it?

lydia: peter fell down the stairs

Derek: u either sit down and do ur work or ull end up at mcdonalds

Stiles: we goin to mcdonalds if I don’t do my work??

Derek: no

Stiles: *gets stabbed with a sword*

Stiles: What the fuck?

...

Peter: *gets stabbed with a sword*

Peter: *shrugs* That's fair.

...

Scott: *gets stabbed with a sword*

Scott: Not again.

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Theo: *gets stabbed with a sword*

Theo: Are you going to want this back or can I keep it?

Adorable dorks and their grumpy but protective boyfriends

PLEASE SOMEONE WRITE ABOUT THIS. i will give you my soul.

babe, don't cry... Teen Wolf Psych!AU 👀

@teenwolffandomevents

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Let's spread some Steter love on Valentine's!

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And 28 for Sterek please! <3

(Sorry it took so long. It really took on a life of its own. I hope you enjoy it.)

28. “Please tell me you aren’t searching my room for where I’ve hidden the presents”

Sneaking Suspicions

I stroll into my study at the Pack house and find Derek sniffing around the room. I sigh and remove my scent blocker. Derek whips his head to face me and looks guilty. I shake my head and stare at him for a minute.

I sigh and say “Please tell me you aren’t searching my room for where I’ve hidden the presents. You can’t be serious, Derek. Do you take me for an amature? We’ve been together for three years and I’ve been around the Pack for over 5 years. I know I can’t trust you guys to not go looking for them, so I get creative.”

He frowns and says “Would you believe me if I told you that I was not looking for the presents? That I just missed you and wanted to be in here?”

I laugh and say “Absolutely not, dude. You couldn’t do better than that? Sourwolf, you’re losing your edge.”

He pouts slightly and says “Okay, so fine I might have been looking for the presents, but not mine. I don’t know what to get Ally or Issac. So I was going to look at what you got to get an idea on what to get them. I got one for everyone else, even Peter, but I’m struggling with those two.”

I shake my head and say “You could have just asked for my help, Der. So I don’t believe you weren’t looking for your presents. Though if you really need help picking presents for them I can definitely help you.”

He nods and says “Fine, I was also looking for mine, but I really do need help on theirs. I don’t know why I’m stuck on them when I was able to get presents for Peter, Jackson, Malia and Lydia. Who are the hardest people to please in the Pack.”

I laugh and say “It’s because Ally still scares you and Izzy is like your son, but you’re too scared to tell him that, so you’re awkward with him.”

He deflates and says “I don’t think Issac would be okay with me thinking of him that way. Ally does still scare me, but it’s more the fact that her and Lydia are together now and the combination of the two of them is terrifying. You’re scared of them too, don’t even lie.”

I cackle and say “They love me, I’m Pack Mom. I can get away with a lot more than you can. Izzy would love to know you think of him as a son, he calls us mom and dad all the time, Der. He needs the love we give him. Knowing you think of him as a son would do a world of good for him and you should know that.”

He frowns and says “I’m no better for him than his biological dad was.”

I glare at him and say “You absolutely are not allowed to say that. Never compare yourself to that man. You love, protect and support Issac. His father beat him and made him feel worthless. You gave him an out and you did the best you could to keep him safe.”

He shakes his head and says “I abused him too. I can’t give him the love that he needs, in the way he needs it. I’m pretty useless for him.”

I growl and say “Derek Hale, that is bullshit and you know it. He just needs to know you care, that you have his back and that he can depend on you. I can not believe you think that. He adores you and knowing you love him would do wonders for him. He is our son, not just yours, we’re in this together. We handle the things he needs differently and balance each other out. Don’t doubt yourself this way, love.”

He sighs and says “I think you're biased, Sti.”

I clench my jaw and say “We can ask my dad, Chris or even Deaton their opinion if you’d like. They barely even like you and they would say the same damn thing. I thought we were past this. You know what? Follow me, we’re taking a ride.”

I turn around knowing he will follow me and head downstairs. We silently walk out to my Jeep and get inside. I head for Deaton first since I know he might have the most effect strangely enough. I pull into the vet’s parking lot and drag Derek out of the car with me. Deaton is in the front behind the counter when we get inside. Deaton looks up at us in shock and I sigh.

I say “Deaton, I have a question for you. Nothing is life or death, don’t worry. Just an opinion or observation. Do you think that Derek is good for Issac as a father figure? Do you think he is helping Issac?”

Deaton nods and says “I’ve noticed a great improvement in Issac since the Pack settled into itself and Derek has been his father figure. Some of it comes from you, Stiles, but I think more of it does come from the safety that Derek provides him. Since his first father never made him feel anything other than fear, but Derek protects him to the best of his ability at all times.”

I smile slightly and say “Thank you for your observations, Deaton. That was all we needed. Have a good rest of your day.”

Deaton nods, so I pull Derek back out and get him settled back into the Jeep. I head to my father next. Knowing leaving Chris for last will make the greatest impact. I head to the house, grateful dad is off right now, I would not want to do it while he was working. I park in the driveway and drag Derek to the door before letting myself into the house. Dad is sitting in the living room watching baseball like always. I smirk and drag Derek into the living room.

Dad looks at us, sighing and says “What’s going on, Stiles?”

I chuckle softly and say “We have a question. Do you feel like Derek is a good father figure for Issac? Is he making a difference in Issac’s life?”

Dad smiles softly and says “Those boys are good for each other. They’re helping each other heal in a way no one else could. Derek protects that boy the same way he protects you. You and Issac are clearly his main priorities without question. He would do anything for the two of you. He loves the same way you do, he just expresses it differently. You and Issac have the whole of his heart, more than anyone else in the Pack does, including his remaining family. Issac is much happier and more healthy now that Derek has more fully taken him under his wing. You are the mother so you help differently, but the safety that Derek has given him has made that boy heal more than anything else could have. Derek, we might still not see eye to eye, but you need to realize that boy loves you and you are doing wonders with him. You gave him a life and family he never could have dreamed of. Don’t doubt yourself when it comes to if you’re helping Issac. You are. That’s just the facts.”

I nod and say “Thank you, daddio. We’ll let you get back to your baseball. We have one last stop before we’re heading home. I love you daddio.”

Dad chuckles and says “Neither of you be a stranger. Love you too kiddo. Good luck.”

I nod before dragging Derek back out to my Jeep and shoving him inside to make the last stop. I get in and wait for Derek to get settled before heading to Chris’s place. I did it in this order to have the maximum effect on Derek. Hopefully Derek will accept it after Chris is done with him or I’ll have to bring out the big guns, which I would not be looking forward to. The big guns would be Ally and Lyds, along with Issac himself and Danny, his boyfriend. I’m hoping they won’t have to see the doubt Derek has in himself, but I will get them involved if I need to. I pull up to Chris’s apartment building, and drag Derek inside and up to Chris’s apartment. I knock on the door and only have to wait a few seconds for him to answer the door. Chris raises an eyebrow and I just push my way into his apartment. Chris sighs and I chuckle.

I say “Chris, I have a question for you and I would really appreciate your honesty. Do you think that Derek is helping Issac? That he is being a good father figure for Issac?”

Chris sighs and says “You know that I do, Stiles. If I didn’t, you know either me or your father would have fought him for custody of Issac. But we even at the outskirts of the Pack can see how good they are for each other. Derek and I will probably always have our differences, but what he has done for that boy will never be one of them. He gives Issac safety that he has never known. He loves that boy immensely and it’s absolutely not a question to anyone who spends any kind of serious time with the two of them. That boy adores Derek without reservations and Derek has done nothing but protect him to the best of his ability since the Pack settled. Without a doubt Derek has done amazing with that boy. Issac can hug people without fear and handle so much more than he could in the beginning.”

I smile and say “Thank you, Chris. That was all we needed. Have a good rest of your day. We have to get home. I have to cook dinner for the Pack soon.”

Chris nods and lets us leave his apartment. I drag Derek back down to the car and get him into the passenger seat. I get in and drive home. Letting everything sink in for Derek in silence. We get home and I get out and motion Derek to follow, which he does without complaint. I head into the kitchen and start dinner for us and the Pack that are coming over later tonight. I decide on things that can be left alone for most of the cook time since I know it won’t take long for Derek to break down and need me. I settle on a casserole and baked potatoes since they are the most hands off dishes we have the ingredients for. I finish the prep quickly before putting them in the oven and setting the timer. A few moments after I close the oven Derek collapses and I sit on the kitchen floor pulling him into my lap. He starts sobbing harder than I’ve ever seen, I just hold him close, rocking him. It takes a good 15 minutes for him to calm down enough to speak.

He clears his throat and says “Thank you. I really didn’t know I was doing Issac any good. But they all agreed with you and none of them were lying. I never expected them to agree with you. They told me I was doing well, Stiles. They seemed proud of my care for Issac. I thought they all hated me, but they truly believed that I was the best one to take Issac in.”

I nod and say “Of course they did, baby. You’ve truly been amazing for our son. You never needed to doubt yourself the way that you have been doing. I wish I had known sooner how bad you were feeling. I would have stepped in much sooner.”

Issac comes sprinting into the kitchen panicked and says “Mom, what’s wrong with dad?”

I smile softly and say “It’s okay, pup. He’s okay. We just got back from talking to Deaton, my dad and Chris. What we talked about really affected him. But he’s okay.”

Issac sits down with us and says “It was about me wasn’t it? He was doubting himself and the four of you set him straight? I was wondering how long it would take for you to step in.”

I flinch and say “I wish I had stepped in sooner. It took far too long for me to notice and for that I’m very sorry to the both of you. I failed you guys this time.”

Derek says “I should have just talked to you about it or even Issac could have as well. But neither of us did. So we’re all at fault. We’ll be okay. We’re a family and we fit together.”

I smile and say “Hell yeah we do. Issac is our son, without a doubt. Everyone sees it, now we just have to acknowledge it.”

Issac says “I’ve been calling you mom and dad for years and you’ve been calling me pup just as long. Derek is the only one who hasn’t acknowledged it.”

Derek says “I’m sorry it took me so long to realize I wouldn’t cause more harm than good by accepting my position as your father. I was blinded by my insecurities until everyone ripped the wool from my eyes. I love you, pup. I’m sorry it took me so long to say it. You’ve been like a son from the beginning, but I was scared.”

Issac chuckles softly and says “It’s okay dad. I understand. I love you too, dad. Now you both need to realize I’m not your only child.”

I startle and say “Who?”

Issac laughs at me and says “Jackson and Liam, mom. How could you not see it? They’re almost worse than me.”

I deflate and say “I just thought it was a Pack thing. Since Erica and Boyd were the same way for the first year or so. I have no problem having three sons officially outside of the basics of being a Pack parent.”

Derek says “I thought they thought of Chris and Peter as their fathers?”

Issac says “They’re scared to let you know, especially since only Stiles has fully treated me like a son. They couldn’t handle being rejected. Jackson is the most afraid since he thinks both of you would reject him. He’s scared Stiles will still hate him for what he had done before.”

I say “God no. I love Jackson like a son. He’s had shit rough and he didn’t know how to handle things. I would never reject either of them. I love them.”

Derek says “I guess go big or go home. We’ve always been more protective over the two of them, you will always be the one closest to me, but I can love them just as well. We’ll talk to them after dinner.”

I smile and say “You two need to clean up for dinner anyway. So come on. Up you boys go. I need to finish dinner. I love you both. Go get ready for dinner then set the table please.”

Derek gets up first pulling Issac and I with him, making me laugh. I smile lovingly at him and he blushes lightly. I kiss both of their cheeks and hug them tightly.

I say “Go on. Get ready for everyone and set the table. I still have cooking I need to do.”

They nod before rushing upstairs. I chuckle and check on the food in the oven. I make a large salad and green beans to go with the food I already have. Jackson is the next one to come into the kitchen. I stop what I’m doing and hug him to me, he melts into my arms and I kiss his forehead. He shakes with silent sobs and I just hold him closer. I hold him until he pulls away, I wipe his tears from under his eyes.

I say “I’m sorry I never noticed. I love you, Jax. Never question that, okay?”

He nods and says “Thank you, mom. I love you as well.”

I smile softly at him and say “Go get ready for dinner. Then help your brother and father set the table. We’re going to talk after dinner, the five of us.”

He smiles brightly and says “Okay, mom. Thank you. Seriously, I never expected you to accept me.”

I nod and say “Issac told us. I’m sorry I ever made you feel that way. But we’ll talk about it after dinner. Now go get ready please.”

He nods quickly before rushing off upstairs. I smile softly and know I made the right decision. Jackson has been improving, but that was the first time I’ve ever heard him say I love you to anyone. God I failed them, but going forwards I’m going to spoil my boys with all the love and affection that they can handle. I don’t know how I missed it. I finish preparing the food and just wait for the casserole and the baked potatoes to be done. I have a few more presents to get after all. I have to get extra for my boys. Liam and Theo come in next and I drag both of them into a hug. I kiss Liam’s forehead and Theo removes himself from the hug. Theo smiles at me from over Liam’s shoulder and I smile back. I hold Liam even closer and let him choose when to leave the embrace. Liam pulls away and looks at me with tears in his eyes.

I smile softly and say “Go get ready for dinner. We’ll talk after dinner okay. Theo can stay as well, I need to talk to him anyway.”

Liam nods and says “Okay.”

Liam heads upstairs, but Theo stays with me. Theo looks at me nervously and I smile at him. He smiles back, but his nerves don’t ease.

I say “Theo, we’re okay, I promise you. You hurt my son and I will tear you apart.  But I have forgiven you for everything.”

Theo hugs me and says “Thank you. I needed to hear that. I feared the day you realized, because I thought you hated me still. I love Liam with everything I am. I will do everything in my power to keep him safe and happy.”

I nod and say “I know, Theo. Trust me, I know. But we’re okay.”

Theo pulls away and says “Thank you.”

I smile and say “No need to thank me. Now go get ready for dinner, you heathen. We can talk more after dinner.”

Theo nods before heading upstairs as well. I chuckle and pull the casserole out of the oven. I check the potatoes and realize they need more time. My boys and Derek are back down and begin setting the table together seamlessly. I can’t keep the sappy smile off of my face and Derek catches me, smiling back. Theo comes back down and comes straight to me. I smile at him and motion for him to look at Derek and our sons. Theo smiles softly and I squeeze his shoulder.

I say “Do you want to help me finish dinner?”

Theo nods and says “Of course, just tell me what you need me to do.”

I smile and say “Put the dressing on the salad, and when you’re done with that, slice the casserole please.”

He nods and gets to work. I check the potatoes and they’re finally done so I pull them out of the oven and turn the oven off. I set the green beans in the turned off oven to warm them back up while working with the potatoes. Theo is working beside me now on slicing the casserole and I enjoy having him in the kitchen with me in a way I never expected. The silence is comfortable, but far too short lived since soon the whole Pack is here and I sigh. I finish with the potatoes and pull the green beans back out of the oven. Theo finishes with his jobs and stands beside me still. I smile at him before turning around.

I say “Everyone who just got here you have five minutes to get ready for dinner, no arguments and no questions, get going or you don’t get dessert.”

Everyone other than my boys, Derek and Theo head upstairs to get ready for dinner. I laugh softly and motion for the boys to bring the food to the table which they do quickly. I smile at them widely and they smile back. I hug and kiss each of their foreheads before hugging Theo and doing the same thing. I pull away from them and double check we have everything at the table before leaving the kitchen to go into the dinning room. I am grateful our Pack has come together so well, it was difficult, but we made it out with so few tragedies. Well there were some, but the Nemeton didn’t let them stick for long. We’re a strong and healthy Pack and it took years of hard work to get it that way. Especially after Scott’s stint as Alpha. Though we don’t talk about that anymore. We don’t erase him from our history, but we don’t talk or think about him much after what happened. I shake myself out of that train of thought before I upset any of the wolves in the house. The wolves have always been extra affected by my emotions so I have to be careful. Lydia hip checks me and I look around and see everyone back downstairs. I wink at Lydia in thanks and sit beside Derek at the table. Jackson, Issac and Danny sit beside me, whereas Lydia and Allison sit next to Derek. Cora sits a few seats away beside the twins. Peter sits next to Danny with Malia and Kira on his other side. Liam sits with Theo, Mason and Corey. Erica and Boyd take the remaining seats. I smile at everyone and we all get our food, the wolves and coyote as always finish long before us humans of the Pack. I shake my head when we all finish and go grab the cake and cookies I made earlier. Everyone is eagerly waiting for dessert, I don’t understand why they love my dessert so much but I love that they do. I slyly give my sons and Derek extra of each dessert. They smirk when they notice, making me chuckle softly.

Lydia says “So Derek finally accepted his sons?”

I laugh and say “I knew you had to know.”

Lydia says “Of course I did. I’m glad you guys finally got your shit together. The boys were breaking my heart and I did not appreciate that.”

I nod and say “Yeah I fucked up. I should have seen it sooner. But I didn’t.”

Lydia says “It’s not all on you. So many of us could have said something. We talk about it when you’re not there, but no one knew how to bring it up with you. Even I was unsure how you would react, so none of us said anything. I didn’t know how you felt about Jackson, not enough to be willing to tell you how to hurt him at least.”

I frown deeply and say “God, is that what you guys think I would do? Even if I still hated him, I would never use something like that against him. What kind of person do you guys think I am?”

Lydia flinches and says “I didn’t mean it like that.”

I shake my head and say “Sure. Then how did you mean it, Lydia?”

Lydia says “I’m sorry.”

I nod and grab the empty plates, heading into the kitchen to wash them. I will not let it affect me while the Pack is here, so distraction. Jackson follows me with more plates and we work together silently. Everyone else leaves us alone which I also appreciate, Jackson is the one I need right now. When we finish I pull Jackson into a tight hug and we just stand there holding each other. Soon Theo comes in with more plates and starts washing them silently, leaving us to have our moment. When Theo is done I drag him into the hug as well. I comfort myself with the fact that even though they thought I hated them, they never shied away from affection and believed me when I told them the truth. I steel myself before pulling away and we all head back into the dining room together. I sit back down with Jackson and Theo hesitates to leave my side until I nod that he can go back to Liam.

Lydia says “Stiles, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you.”

I clench my teeth and say “I knew Jackson’s insecurities and history far better than anyone ever knew when we hated each other. I have never and would never take things that far, no matter how I felt. I thought you guys knew me better than that, especially you.”

Lydia says “I’m sorry, I’m just still protective of him, and I wouldn’t take that risk.”

I shake my head and say “It’s fine. I’m done talking about this.”

Jackson wraps an arm around me and says “I never feared he would hurt me with it on purpose, I just thought he would reject me. The fact that you thought he would, upsets me, Lydia. Even with being protective over me, you dated him as well once upon a time, how could you have thought that?”

Lydia deflates and says “You’re right. I don’t know. I think part of me still resents him.”

I sigh and say “For what?”

Lydia flinches and says “For leaving me in the dark while Peter was inside my head, for always choosing Derek over me, for abandoning me after we finally got you back.”

I nod and say “I should not have left you in the dark, none of us should have. Scott didn’t think it was wise at that point to tell anyone and we agreed. I was trying to keep Scott safe from Gerard and Victoria. I chose you over everyone for a long time Lydia, even before you acknowledged me. I’m sorry things didn’t work out, but we’re better as friends and you knew that. I didn’t abandon you, you and Scott were also supposed to leave. You never even asked me to come back. You had my number and you could have at any time called me to tell me to come back. You decided against it. That is not something you can blame on me.”

Lydia says “You’re right. I could have called you and you would have come back. I couldn’t do that to you though. You got out and I didn’t want to be the reason you came back. I didn’t want you to hate me for taking away your chance at the FBI. You made the decision for yourself, for Derek.”

Allison says “Do you also blame me for not telling you or is it just Stiles? I could have easily brought you in the know and decided against it. Even when you asked me.”

Lydia says “I don’t blame you. I blamed Scott the most, but since he’s gone all the blame fell onto Stiles. Also Stiles left me alone crying in my car after promising to be right back.”

I flinch and say “I was busy trying to stay alive and keep Derek above water waiting on Scott to come save the day. Since Derek was paralyzed and we were in a pool so I had to keep him above water. Scott barely made it in time to save us from drowning.”

Lydia flinches like I struck her and says “I didn’t know. I’m sorry, Stiles. I should not have blamed you for it. It took you so long to tell your father, I shouldn’t have thought it’d be any easier to tell me. Especially before we became friends in a real way.”

I nod and say “It’s okay, Lyds. We’ve survived worse. We’ll be okay.”

Lydia nods and says “Okay.”

Jackson says “You need to separate your feelings on Scott from Stiles, Lydia. They are not and have never been the same person. Yes Scott is dead now, but that doesn’t mean you can’t still resent him for his failings.”

Liam says “Jackson is right.”

Allison says “I have to agree with them, love. Stiles doesn’t deserve your scorn. He has done more for all of us than he ever should have. He constantly put himself in danger for each of us, when he was the least qualified to fight the way we needed to. He did it without hesitation even when we treated him like shit.”

Lydia nods and says “You’re right. He is the only reason I’ve lived so many times. He saved me many times when there was no one else who could.”

Derek says “He saved each of us at least once. Long before he came into himself. He was thrown in the deep end and still kept pushing through it for everyone else.”

Malia says “Not to mention he was the only reason we won the war. He refused to rest until it was over. He brought Monroe down by himself and made sure Kate and Gerard were gone as well.”

I say “That was for purely selfish reasons. Kate and Gerard for Derek, Peter and myself. Monroe killed Scott and even if he deserved it I was not going to watch her take down anyone else I cared about. Especially since I knew who she was going after next.”

Liam says “You never told us that. Who was she going after next?”

I flinch and say “Do any of you really want to know?”

Everyone nods so I sigh and steel myself for this admission. This is going to hit hard and I don’t know how to make it easier. It’s not going to affect everyone the same way, but Derek it’ll really hurt.

I sigh and say “She was going after Issac and Liam, then I’m pretty sure next was Jackson and Ethan.”

Issac says “Why was she going after me?”

I flinch and say “Oh, pup. You because of your closeness to Derek and Chris both. Liam because of Scott, Jackson because he was an extra difficult threat and Ethan because he had Jackson.”

Derek says “So it would have been my fault that Issac had died if you didn’t go after her.”

I sigh and say “No, the whole war was Scott’s fault. So if anyone other than Monroe and Gerard being to blame would be Scott. Or mine for not being here to fix it sooner.”

Derek says “What do you mean the war was Scott’s fault?”

I flinch and say “Monroe was caught in the middle of a fight with Le Bete and Parrish, Scott left her there in a pile of her dead colleagues even though he should have heard her heartbeat. Liam not hearing it was excusable, but with Scott’s stronger senses as Alpha it was no excuse and Monroe blamed him above all others.”

Lydia says “How did you know that? Only Malia Scott and I were there when she told him that. So how did you know?”

I sigh and say “I asked her what her story was. Before she fully knew what was happening when I found her. Before I killed her.”

Lydia laughs and says “Only you Stiles.”

Theo says “How did I not know you killed her?”

I say “I didn’t broadcast it. I told Derek and everyone else kind of figured it out over time. Peter knew because he was my backup, I would have asked you, but I didn’t want to take a chance of you getting caught. You were good but Peter was the best we had at that point. So for something that important I needed him.”

Theo nods and says “That’s fair. I’ve nearly caught up with him now, but I had nothing on him back then. He’s trained me well now though.”

I smile and say “You are third best in the Pack for sure.”

Theo says “Third? Who’s second?”

I smirk and say “Peter.”

Theo says “Who is first then?”

I smirk wider and say “Who do you think?”

Theo says “Jackson?”

I chuckle and say “No. Though in strength he’s probably first. Because of his extra abilities.”

Theo says “Malia?”

I smile and say “She’s fourth. Though sometimes she is better than you, but not consistent enough to push you out of your spot.”

Theo says “You then. You’re the only other option besides Allison and there is no way she takes the top spot anymore.”

I smile and say “Thank you, but no. I don’t count myself or Derek in the lists. Erica and Boyd take the top spot. I know it’s kind of cheating but they really only work together so ranking them separately is pretty impossible.”

Theo says “Okay. That does make sense. Erica is ruthless and Boyd is crazy smart in a fight.”

I smile and say “Hell yes they’re amazing and I couldn’t be more proud of them.”

Erica says “Thank you, Batman.”

Boyd says “Thank you, Sti.”

I smile and say “No need to thank me, Catwoman and B. You’re incredible.”

Jackson says “I rank first in strength? Not Boyd?”

I chuckle and say “Yes you do. Boyd ranks third.”

Jackson says “Who is second?”

I laugh and say “Ethan and Aiden. Their merged form keeps them very close second to you in strength.”

Jackson nods and says “Makes sense. Who is after Boyd?”

I smirk and say “Lydia, though some could argue she could beat all of you out, but it’s also about durability and longevity. Her scream could beat you out but she can’t do it for too long or she could seriously hurt herself. Unlike your and the twins' extra abilities now and Boyd is a tank.”

Jackson says “That’s fair.”

Liam says “Where do I rank in the strength list?”

I say “You and Theo share the fifth spot. Though sometimes Malia pushes you guys out. So I’m tempted to have the three of you share the fifth spot. Kira steadily takes the seventh spot with Cora. Peter is eighth and Issac takes the ninth spot though when he doesn’t hold back he’s even with Peter. Danny and Allison are tenth with Mason and Corey taking eleventh. Each of you are amazing no matter where you fall on the list. Almost every one of you top one of my lists.”

Issac says “Am I the one that doesn’t top one of your lists?”

I say “No, pup it’s not you. You are the most likely to be underestimated and make someone very much regret it. And trust me that’s a good thing for us.”

Issac says “Okay, mom. Then who is it?”

I sigh and say “I know I’m going to regret answering this question. But I will answer it anyway. Allison though she takes a close second in two of the lists. And no I’m not going to share who beats her out on those lists or what the lists are. Because I will not start drama.”

Allison says “Lydia beats me out. I know. I’m okay with that.”

I say “One is Lydia, correct but on the other list she’s third.”

Allison says “Who?”

I say “I’m not answering that question. I already said I’m not going to. You’re extremely competitive and I’m not starting a fight.”

Allison says “Do you not have a weapons list?”

I flinch and say “Ally you’re a badass that’s not a question. I do have a weapons list and you are a super close second especially with me out of the running. But versatility also was a part of the equation.”

Allison says “So who beats me out other than you? I know that one isn’t Lydia.”

Danny says “I’d have to assume me.”

I flinch and say “Danny!”

Allison says “So it is Danny.”

I sigh and say “Yes it is Danny. He’s able to use more weapons extensively. And has you slightly on the accuracy in weapons outside of your go to ones.”

Allison says “I guess that’s fair. He’s also a better shot with a gun than I am. I can accept that.”

Lydia says “How did I end up being third on that list? I feel like Mason is getting close to Allison’s level with training with you, your dad and Chris.”

I nod and say “You share with Mason since you’re the only one other than me able to work with the harder and more obscure weapons. Also you build fire and acid bombs regularly. How could you not place high?”

Lydia laughs and says “Okay. That makes sense.”

I smile and say “I know. Corey is also doing phenomenal with weapons training. Only Erica Kira and Malia are on that list with you guys since almost none of the wolves are willing to learn weapons, which is annoying.”

Cora says “You won’t train me.”

I say “You never asked, I’d love to train you. Though I’m not training you with bombs of any kind.”

Cora says “I guess that is fair. You’re not training Erica with them either. We would probably abuse the privilege so you’re not wrong to not let us touch them.”

I say “That and just like Peter and Derek I like keeping you away from fire.”

Cora says “But I don’t have the same problem with fire that they do. So why do I still get removed from the equation when fire is involved? Especially since Malia isn’t.”

I say “Well that’s simple. Derek and Peter would both freak out. Malia is a special circumstance, but you, they already thought, died in a fire so you and fire stresses them out.”

Cora says “Okay. That does make sense.”

I chuckle and say “Exactly. So for their sanity I won’t train you with fire. I know you might want to but for the health of the Pack I refuse.”

Cora says “I understand.”

I nod and say “Good. Maybe you’ll be able to convince Peter to let me train him after you start training. Derek let’s me so I want to train Peter as well. Also I want to train my sons as well. It’s always good to have some weapon training in the life we live.”

Theo says “I’ll do weapons training and try to convince Liam.”

I smile and say “I can’t wait to train you Theo.”

Issac says “I might let you teach me some weapon stuff.”

Jackson says “If you want me to do weapons training, I would do it. It might be fun, Danny loves it and so does Corey. So I’ll give it a shot.”

I laugh and say “Pun intended I assume. Okay boys now it’s up to Theo to convince Liam and Danny to fully convince Issac. I want everyone to train with weapons honestly because sometimes you can’t wolf out in a fight.”

Peter says “Fine, darling. I’ll do some weapon training. Only because I know you worry too much and it would make you feel more secure with Pack safety.”

I smile and say “Thank you, Peter. I’ll probably pair you with Malia just so you know. Though only once I’m confident you can handle it. She’s a little above Erica currently and Erica is getting paired with Cora though I will probably regret that. Jackson will be paired with Corey. Danny with Issac and Liam if they decide to train. Ally and Lyds are already paired up though I might split them if we get more people. And yes Danny can handle having two partners. Theo will be paired with me solely in the beginning. Derek doesn’t always participate, but when he does he’ll be with me and Theo. Ethan and Aiden you should join in. I know you guys will love it. I would love to pair you with Kira. There are so few I can pair with her, but I think you’d thrive with her. Currently only Danny and I can pair with her, though Derek tries sometimes too. Also Boyd if you join I’ll pair you with Erica and Cora. Or Mason if you would prefer. Also Issac you could pair with Mason if you don’t want to pair with Danny in the beginning.”

Mason says “You’re pairing Corey with Jackson? Why not me?”

I chuckle and say “You and Jackson wouldn’t meld together as well as him and Corey and you know it.”

Mason sighs and says “But I want to pair with Jackson. I like Jackson.”

I smile and say “I know you like Jackson, Mason. But I don’t think you would work well together. We can try it though but not in the beginning. Corey is a safer starting partner. You know that Corey is probably the best starting partner outside of me.”

Mason frowns and says “I know you’re right but I want to work with Jackson.”

I sigh and say “Mase, I know. You’ll get to work with him if you both want to. But only after he’s gotten a few months in. Your style is hard for beginners to work with and you know it. The only reason I’m willing to pair Issac or Boyd with you is because I feel like they might end up with a similar style.”

Mason says “Because I’m chaotic you mean?”

I say “Mason I don’t think you’re chaotic. Just difficult to work with without some training. Though to the untrained eye yes probably considered chaotic.”

Mason says “Then let me train with Ally or Lydia and whichever you don’t pair me with can take Boyd or Issac if they choose to participate.”

I nod and say “Okay. Lydia and Mason. Ally can train with Issac and Boyd if they choose to.”

Allison says “Boyd would probably prefer not training with me, Sti. I can train with Mason and Lydia can train with them.”

I frown and say “Why is everyone doubting me today? Lydia training with them would not be ideal. Mason and her would work well though.”

Boyd says “I’d be okay training with Allison. I don’t think I should start with Erica and Cora. Though I would eventually like to join that group.”

I nod and say “See Allison Boyd is good with training with you.”

Allison says “Okay, Stiles. I’ll work with Boyd and Issac if he chooses to as well. Though once a month I want to swap with Lyds and work with Mason.”

I say “Deal. Only if you promise me not to go overboard when paired with Mason. The two of you always cause mayhem together worse than Cora and Erica likely will.”

Allison laughs and says “Fine. I promise we won’t go overboard.”

I shake my head and say “I will revoke your ability to partner with him if you break that promise.”

Allison says “I know you will.”

Peter says “You think Malia and I can be paired together without mayhem?”

I laugh and say “You’ll learn fairly quickly that Malia will not stand for you slacking and will run you ragged if you fail to meet her expectations.”

Malia says “Stiles is correct. Typically he is the only one I’m willing to partner with. Since everyone else doesn’t meld well with me. Which is the only reason I’m not higher on the list. Since Stiles normally has to switch between Danny, Kira, Derek and I. Because we typically work best with him. Though Danny and Kira also work well together.”

Peter says “You really are my daughter.”

Malia says “I’ll take that as a compliment.”

Peter says “Trust me it was intended as one.”

Ethan says “You think we could work with Kira who you said typically can only work with you and Danny the two top performers?”

I nod and say “Yes I do.”

Kira says “I agree with him if that helps?”

Ethan says “It does help, but is still confusing. Though I’d be willing to give it a shot.”

Aiden says “Sure. I’ll also be willing to try. It’ll be a fun challenge.”

I smile and say “Great.”

Liam says “I’ll try training mom, but if I don’t like it I will stop.”

I smile and say “I’m okay with that, pup.”

Issac says “I’ll work with Ally in the beginning and maybe join with Danny once I’m more comfortable.”

I nod and say “Okay, pup. Whatever you're more comfortable with.”

Jackson says “Could I work with Mason and Lydia sometimes?”

I say “Not in the beginning, but yes you can.”

Derek says “Why didn’t you pair Peter and I?”

I sigh and say “Because I’m not stupid, Derek. You two would be terrible together. You can’t work with anyone other than me with any regularity.”

Derek says “I guess that is true. Wouldn’t want a repeat of when you paired Mason and I. Or Malia and I.”

I say “Precisely. Though I think eventually I could pair you with Theo. You two would work well together I think.”

Derek says “Possibly. Though we’ll see. I know you prefer working without a partner so hopefully you’ll finally have someone to pair me with.”

I say “I don’t mind having a partner as much anymore. Though yeah I do prefer not having a partner.”

Theo says “You want to train me to be Derek’s partner? He’s even more difficult to pair with than Kira? You would trust me working with Derek?”

I smile softly at him and say “You’re one of the few I would trust to have Derek’s back the same way I would.”

Theo says “Thank you. I think that is the highest praise you could give. The trust you have in me is much appreciated.”

I chuckle and say “You’re probably right. I trust you, Theo. You’ve earned it.”

Peter says “Do you trust me?”

I laugh and say “Overall yes. With Derek? No. Your view of Derek has improved but the two of you still have a long way to go. Though at least you both see each other as family again.”

Peter says “That is justified.”

Ethan says “Do you trust Aiden and I?”

I say “Yes I do. You’ve been great since Aiden was brought back to life. You fit well within the Pack.”

Lydia says “Who do you trust the least in the Pack?”

I sigh and say “Honestly currently, you. But typically probably myself.”

Lydia says “Oh I honestly kind of thought you were going to say Ally or Peter.”

Derek says “He just said he trusted Peter and he is comfortable letting Allison pair with one of his sons for weapons training, despite the history there.”

Lydia says “That is true.”

I say “Any other questions?”

Liam says “Who is allowed to learn bombs in the Pack?”

I say “Currently, Mason, Corey, Lydia and I, though I have a few I’m willing to consider teaching how to use them as well. Though I’m 90% sure I’ll teach Theo and possibly Jackson or Boyd as well. I’m not sure if anyone else. Well that’s not true, Malia is currently learning but we’re still deciding if she wants to continue on with that training.”

Liam says “Allison isn’t learning it?”

I say “We both agree that she isn’t going to.”

Theo says “You would want to train me with bombs?”

I say “I think you are the best one to teach outside of the ones currently doing so. Boyd and Jackson I’m less sure of. Though I’m leaning towards trying with them.”

Theo says “Holy shit. You truly trust me. You’re so careful about who you allow to train with them.”

I say “I really do. I’m just not sure how you would handle it. Whether you’d actually want to, that’s why I’m not 100% sure.”

Theo says “I would be honored. I’m willing to train with anything you think I should.”

I smile and say “Remember that. I will try to train you with everything I know. At least the beginner level, then you’ll get to decide on which ones you want to continue with.”

Theo says “Sounds great, Sti.”

Jackson says “You might train me with them? Why aren’t you sure about Boyd and I?”

I say “I’m not sure you and Boyd would have the stomach for it. Not in an offensive way. I don’t think you’re weak, it just takes a level of disregard that I’m not sure you guys have the stomach for.”

Jackson says “Okay. I can understand that.”

I nod and say “But we can always try and stop if you guys don’t like it.”

Jackson says “That makes sense.”

Aiden says “Why is Kira difficult to work with?”

I laugh and say “Well two reasons. The first reason is she’s supernaturally gifted with the weapons she predominantly works with. The second is she is painfully shy about her abilities when it comes to working with anything new so she needs someone willing to keep her going when trying new things.”

Aiden says “You think we would be able to work with her as beginners though? Why?”

I say “Because I have a feeling you guys will thrive together. The two of you will be able to pick things up quickly from her and I think you two would be able to encourage her outside of the weapons she’s used to in a way that Danny and I just can’t. We’ve been working with weapons for our whole lives practically, so it’s hard for us to connect on that with her unlike you guys.”

Aiden says “What makes us special though?”

I say “You guys already fight better together and are used to battling in a team more than anyone else is. And in a fight you both typically gravitate towards Kira already. So training together would help you guys do better in fights since you already fight together in a way only Boyd and Erica currently do outside of your group.”

Kira says “We already work well together and this would just give us an even stronger advantage when fighting together.”

Aiden says “Okay. I’ll have to trust you guys know what you’re talking about. Hopefully we’ll work as well together as you believe we will.”

I say “We’re right, I'm very sure of it.”

Aiden says “Okay, Sti.”

Jackson says “Hey Mason Corey and I also regularly fight together in fights.”

I say “That’s different. You guys in a fight only watch each other’s back. With Erica and Boyd and Ethan, Aiden and Kira, they build off of each other in a fight. You guys protect each other in a fight. They truly work together and off of each other, they seem choreographed and know which way to work with each other’s strength to inflict maximum damage.”

Jackson says “Oh.”

I say “I wish I could train groups to do what they figured out on their own, but I don’t work that way. I’m better working on my own. Derek also isn’t the best at working with others, so neither of us know how to train others to work the way they do.”

Lydia says “You, Ally and I work that way, Stiles.”

I say “What do you mean?”

Lydia laughs and says “We work off of each other in a fight. We always have. Especially you and Ally.”

Allison says “We really do. We’ve always worked off of each other in a fight.”

I say “Oh. I did not see that. But I can see what you mean thinking back.”

Derek says “Also Peter and Malia also typically do so as well.”

I say “You’re right about them, but they’re more of hunting partners than I’m comfortable with others being.”

Derek says “I can see that.”

I say “Yeah. I guess there are three groups the others can watch and try to mimic in their own way with whoever they’re most comfortable working with that way. Lydia, Allison and I, Erica and Boyd and lastly Ethan, Aiden, and Kira.”

Derek says “Pairing Peter and Malia is going to strengthen the way they hunt together, you know that, right?”

I sigh and say “I know, but they’re the only pairing that makes sense for either of them. Also we benefit from how they fight, there is no denying that. Even though I don’t want anyone else to emulate that, well outside of you and Theo eventually. Since you both also thrive in the more animalistic side of things. Not everyone does, so emulating their style could get others seriously injured.”

Derek says “Then why couldn’t I handle being paired with Malia?”

I chuckle and say “You guys don’t have the relationship needed for that kind of style. The trust you guys have is surface level. Not the level of trust needed for it.”

Derek says “You think Theo and I will have an instinctual level of trust?”

I laugh and say “You already do. Do you not realize that he is currently your second? It’s no longer Boyd or I like it used to be. After the war was over it changed to Theo. Did you never realize that, Der?”

Derek tenses and says “No, I didn’t know. How could I have not noticed it? Did everyone else realize it?”

Theo says “I did not know.”

Liam, Jackson and Issac say “We realized.”

Lydia says “I knew.”

Peter says “I wasn’t sure.”

Allison says “I did not know either.”

Boyd says “I knew, but mostly because Erica knew.”

Kira says “Ethan Aiden and I knew.”

Cora and Malia say “We didn’t know.”

Mason and Corey say “We knew, though not in the beginning.”

Danny says “I knew.”

Derek says “I think it’s ironic that Theo didn’t know either, but so many others did. How did it even happen? When did it happen?”

I say “You guys had each other's back after the war. You both protected each other. Theo took care of a threat to you and I and that is what cemented it. Neither of us noticed, but Theo did and he took care of it for us. So for almost three years Theo has been your second with neither of you knowing. It’s also when I accepted Theo wasn’t going to turn his back on us once the war was over. When I was okay with him and Liam falling for each other.”

Liam says “Wait, what do you mean?”

I say “Theo killed someone trying to kill Derek and I.”

Liam says “Not that. Why would Theo and I falling for each other affect you?”

I say “Just because I didn’t realize you and Jackson thought of me that way, doesn’t mean I didn’t always consider the two of you my sons. Well Jackson when he came back home,  but the point stands. You have been my son for a long time.”

Liam says “I didn’t know.”

I say “I adopted you after you were bit. I felt responsible so I told myself I’d keep an eye on you. Also you are an adorable angry puppy and I love that about you.”

Liam says “I’m unsure if I should be offended or not.”

Jackson says “Hey at least it didn’t start because he felt sorry for you like it did with me.”

I say “Jackson I didn’t adopt you because I felt sorry for you, idiot. I love you, part of me always has. When you came back you were more sure of yourself and weren’t attacking me so I finally felt secure enough to let myself love you fully since it wouldn’t kill me anymore.”

Jackson says “I didn’t know. I’m sorry I never separated you from Scott until right before he died. I hated him and definitely took it out on you.”

I say “It’s okay, Jax. We’re good now. Scott and I were inseparable back then so it was easy to see us as the same person. Trust me, it was a struggle for even our parents to think of us as separate people for far too long. It was easy to assume based on how close he and I were that we would have the same beliefs and be far too similar. Though it couldn’t have been further from the truth. We were so close because we felt the other was the only one who could understand each other, especially after my mom died and Scott’s dad left. Though Theo proved that we were wrong. Our relationship was always unbalanced, I always cared more about him than he did about me.”

Jackson says “You’ve never talked about this before. Why have you not talked about this before? Why are you talking about now?”

I sigh and say “I never wanted to bring him up myself, not in a real way. We all feel so differently about his passing, so the less we talk about it the better in my mind. It felt like the right time to talk about it since others had brought it up.”

Jackson says “So you’ve never talked about it with anyone before, you’ve just let it stay bottled up for over three years?”

I nod and say “I can’t talk to dad or Mel about it because they have very different feelings than I do, the Pack is all so indecisive on how to feel about it and Derek had been betrayed too many times by Scott for me to feel right bringing up my feelings about what happened. So I just ignore it for the most part, especially since I also don’t truly know how to feel either. On one hand he was my best friend for most of my life, he was like a brother to me, but on the other he was also definitely not as good of a person as he pretended to be. What he did to Derek the day we got you back was the beginning of the end of our relationship. He did too much to everyone for me to really forgive, he was more like feral Peter than I like to acknowledge. Then he was against me after the third hardest thing I had ever done and that made it an easy choice to go for my father instead of him.”

Jackson says “Why are you so torn though? It’s okay to be sad he’s dead, even if you never could have loved him the same way as when you were younger. So why are you torn on it?”

I flinch and say “About that, there is something about Scott’s death I never told you about. Peter and I are the only ones alive that know and I was never sure of if I should tell anyone else. Scott sacrificed Alec to possibly survive, he gave this poor terrified child to Monroe in hopes that she would spare him. Instead she killed them both and laughed at Scott’s pleas to spare him. I was there, though not physically sadly, I was astral projecting and watched it all unfold, horrified. That’s when I went to Peter to plan an attack on her and her minions in a major enough way for them to back off. Especially when she said who she was going after next.”

Allison gasps and says “He did what?!”

I flinch and say “He gave Monroe Alec to attempt to save himself and him alone. I couldn’t tell anyone with good conscience while Mel was here, because someone would have told her. I didn’t want her to have to have that be how she remembers her son. I wish it wasn’t what I have to remember him as.”

Jackson says “Mr. Holier than thou did that?”

I nod and say “He really did, I couldn’t believe it myself and I thought I knew all of his darkness.”

Jackson says “That’s why you’re so particular about who can pair together now and that you want us to train in every single thing you can imagine, isn’t it? Because of what Scott did. It affected you more than we could imagine, didn’t it?”

I curl into myself and say “This was someone I thought I knew completely, someone I grew up with, someone I still trusted despite all he did. If he was capable of it, I wasn’t sure who else would do the same thing. That’s why I also have trouble letting Derek partner with someone I’m not sure beyond what I felt about Scott that he is safe with him.”

Theo says “I’m the only person you trust that way?”

I say “When it comes to this kind of thing? Yes absolutely. But with emotional stuff, my sons for sure are top spot. No questions asked, though the four of you are the only ones I’m fully able to trust that way. I don’t exactly doubt any of you, like I said before I do trust all of you, but not enough to risk Derek, only myself.”

Derek says “So to you, I’m more important than you are?”

I nod and say “Absolutely and I will not apologize for it either.”

Derek says “Marry me?”

I look at him and say “Yes, but really that’s how you decide to ask?”

Derek blushes and says “Technically I had a plan, but I didn’t want to wait.”

I chuckle and say “Okay.”

Derek says “You accepted that too quickly, why aren’t you laughing at me or saying something sarcastic about being too impatient to stick with my plan?”

I smile and say “I’ve almost done the same thing many times, but I knew I had to let you do it or you’d be upset.”

Derek says “You wanted to propose to me?”

I chuckle and say “Far too often. If you asked even on the day that we got together I likely would have said yes. It wasn’t ever a question for me once I was sure about my feelings.”

Lydia says “You both are the most ridiculous people I have ever met.”

I laugh and say “That it’s you saying that, not Peter, is sadly not as surprising as I wish it was. And Peter is super butt hurt because Chris won’t marry him. You really do resent me for ending up with Derek.”

Lydia says “That’s not true.”

I sigh and say “I don’t need advanced hearing to know that was a lie. Lyds, you wanted to break up with me anyway and you’re happy with Ally. Why does it matter that I’m happy with Derek?”

Lydia looks down and says “I don’t know. I just don’t know, Stiles. I’m sorry.”

Jackson says “I know why. It’s because for as far back as we remember you have been in love with the idea of Lydia, so she’s used to being your first priority. She doesn’t like that someone took that place and he brought many others with him. Also it doesn’t help that she feels like you upgraded while she didn’t. No offense Ally.”

Lydia flinches and says “Jackson, was that really necessary?”

I frown and say “Holy shit. That means Jackson is right. I don’t understand the last part, but I can understand the feeling resentful about being replaced after a decade. Though that also explains why you didn’t want to tell me about Jackson and Liam. It wasn’t really about you thinking that I would purposely hurt him with it, it was that it would move you even further down the list.”

Lydia flinches and says “I’m sorry, Stiles.”

I sigh and say “Maybe you should talk to Marin, Lyds. This isn’t healthy for you or Ally. You need to move forward without needing me for validation.”

Lydia flinches and says “You’re right. It really is about validation and my ego. This is the first time I’ve actually let myself be honest about this so I don’t think it has actually affected Ally until tonight. It’s just you had kept me going through everything, you were the one that always saw through me and it’s hard not having that anymore. It isn’t even just about you not being in love with me anymore, it’s about the fact that I feel like there is a wall in between us now and I lost the person who has always saved me when it was necessary. You are the reason I’m alive today and I don’t recognize you half of the time. There is a disconnect between us and I don’t know why it’s there.”

I flinch and say “Oh fuck. I know what it is. Our magics had been mixed for a long time and I have too much control over it to have it accidentally merging with someone else’s now. So it has been affecting you because we no longer are connected in that way. I had no idea that you would even notice a difference.”

Lydia says “Oh. So it’s not just that I’m a bad person. It’s also my creature affecting my emotions because essentially my balance was thrown for a loop?”

I flinch and say “I’m sorry, Lyds. If I had known it was affecting you negatively I would have made sure to keep them merged. Because it doesn’t cause any harm to continue to have it connected, since it really does just create a balance and if needed technically we could pull from the other’s pool of magic as well. I never even considered it could have affected you in such a way. I have been failing all of you recently, this is why I trust myself the least.”

Lydia says “It’s not your fault, Sti. You couldn’t have known without me acting out of character or telling you. You’ve been doing so much for the Pack, it’s understandable that things would slip through the cracks. You still have too much responsibility on your shoulders since even Peter and Derek rely heavily on you for practically everything. Especially since you are the one with the most knowledge and resources now. Peter and Derek try their best but you still are doing most things single handedly. Mason has also been trying, but with school and such he’s been struggling. Not to mention the fact you’re working with your father, Deaton, Chris and other Packs in the area when they need help that they can only truly rely on you for. You have so much on your plate and if we’re having problems we should just actually go to you with them instead of ignoring it until you finally notice it and force it out in the open.”

I flinch and say “Lyds. I didn’t know anyone even realized, not even you. I thrive in it, but it has been difficult to do alone. When Mason was actively working with me it helped more than I realized until the help was gone. I also don’t know who else I would feel comfortable helping with this other than Mason. Mason is most similar to me, so we work well together. Peter no longer has the ability to deal with these things and Derek is bad at dealing with people. I’d consider Theo, but now that everyone is aware of Theo being the Second, he’ll have new responsibilities to do with that. Liam is too high strung, Issac is still too reluctant near strangers, Jackson might be a possibility, Erica and Boyd have their own responsibilities, you are too much of a control freak, Ally is too Hunter, Malia is practically mini Peter, Corey is already struggling with school without adding anything else, Kira is too awkward around new people, the twins are already working with my dad, Danny has his business to run and Cora is too much like Derek and Peter to handle dealing with people without someone being harmed. I’m happy doing it on my own, don’t get me wrong, but it does get to me sometimes. Especially since Brett and Deucalion only trust me to help when they need it and they need help far too much for as competent as they are as Alphas. Though most of their pack mates are either fairly new or traumatized by the war. But they also have had them for enough time for them to be trained well enough to deal with some of the things on their own. Hell I trained them more than Brett and Deucalion did. Brett I understand, but Deucalion was an Alpha for most of his life. It is ridiculous that I’m training three Packs, especially all separately. I can understand them not wanting to train with us, but each other should be fine. They’re all at the same level and are nearly the same in general.”

Lydia says “Why don’t you tell Brett and Deucalion that? That you want to train their Packs together if you are going to continue to train their betas along with your own Pack. I’m sure they’d agree to continue to have your help.”

I say “I don’t want to offend either of them, because I feel like I owe it to them. They get along, but they died for or due to my Pack. So I feel responsible to do things their way.”

Derek says “You really take too much onto your plate. I’m the Alpha, you don’t have to play Alpha in these situations.”

I sigh and say “I actually do, it is also a part of my jobs. Also they don’t trust you the same way that they trust me. So it is on me.”

Derek says “How often are you acting as Alpha?”

I flinch and say “Der, it’s not a big deal. We’re a team. We are technically both Alphas of the Pack.”

Derek says “Sti, that’s not an answer.”

I frown and say “Der, being your mate has a lot of responsibility and I knew that going into it. Also there is a lot of people who trust me over most others. I have a reputation and it’s not that you don’t now, but some people prefer working with the Alpha Mate instead of the Alpha.”

Derek says “Stiles, that is not an answer to my question.”

Lydia says “He is working more as Alpha than you are when it comes to dealing with people outside of the Pack, even with threats at times.”

I flinch and say “Lyds!”

Derek says “So I haven’t actually been a good Alpha, I just have an amazing mate?”

I frown and say “You have been a good Alpha, Derek. A good Alpha lets the Pack handle the things they are best at as long as it’s for the betterment of the Pack. Good Alphas are not afraid to ask for help when they need it and they love and protect their Pack. Lydia made it sound worse than it is. I never claim the title and no one ever calls me by that title. I have responsibilities as Alpha Mate and Emissary which can sometimes make it seem like I’m acting as Alpha. It’s just the combination of my two roles in the Pack.”

Derek says “I don’t know if that makes me feel better or worse. You do so much more than I ever knew. Do you even get the respect you deserve?”

I sigh and say “Der, that was on purpose. This is exactly why, I knew it would affect your insecurities and we didn’t need that. I get as much respect as I want.”

Derek says “Did the whole Pack know about this other than me?”

I flinch and say “I don’t know. I didn’t even know anyone knew how much I was taking on myself, so it might just be Lydia. It’s really not a big deal.”

Peter says “Stiles is right. He is only doing his job as Alpha Mate and Emissary. Though I disagree that he gets the respect for it that he deserves.”

I frown and say “Peter I get more than enough respect.”

Peter says “You are training two Packs that you are not a part of because they trust only you, but they did so without approaching your Alpha and Mate about it.”

I sigh and say “Peter I asked them not to tell Derek. I wasn’t sure how he would feel about it in the beginning and I didn’t want to risk our relationship with them. Also we owe them much more than some training for their Pack.”

Peter says “That undermines Derek’s authority, Stiles.”

I face palm and say “This started before Derek fully took the mantle and I owed them outside of the Pack responsibilities due to Scott’s hand in their deaths.”

Peter says “It’s not your fault Scott was an idiot, so you don’t owe anyone anything based on his failings.”

I shake my head and say “You don’t understand. If I had done things differently Scott never would have turned out the way he did. I also could have done a lot more to help them if I was actually here. I don’t regret leaving here, because it gave me the opportunity to save Derek, but I regret the lives I wasn’t here to save. Also Scott got turned because of my shitty decision.”

Peter says “If it wasn’t Scott it would have been someone else and they likely would have been in a lot worse of a position. Scott only survived because he had you. Who knows what would have happened if it was anyone other than you or Scott in that situation?”

I nod and say “I have thought about that. You do make a valid point. I don’t regret it, because I love the Pack and my life, but I do feel guilty.”

Peter says “You need to forgive yourself and stop taking the blame for things outside of your control. Scott was not your fault. You need to lay the blame on him because you were not in control of his actions and you did everything possible to fix his mistakes along with everyone else’s.”

I shake my head and say “It’s my fault he was a True Alpha. He would not have been able to take the Spark from the Nemeton if it wasn’t for me. I caused his stint as Alpha, stealing the Hale Spark from the rightful Alpha.”

Peter says “How did you do that? What do you mean? That doesn’t make much sense.”

I sigh and say “For a True Alpha to happen he needs the Spark that is connected to the ley lines on his side, it’s made even stronger if the Spark is connected to a Nemeton. Because of me suppressing my loyalty to Derek his Spark went to Scott. Which is how he got his Alpha Spark back so soon after Scott’s death. It was always his, Scott was just using it. That was my failing.”

Peter says “Did you know that then? Did you do it on purpose? Or was it just an accident that came about from subpar circumstances?”

I frown and say “I would not have made that decision consciously. It was something I learned after Deaton was willing to let me learn more about my heritage. It doesn’t change that it was my fault.”

Peter says “Do you hold what I did while feral against me? What Jackson did while he was the Kanima? What Mason did while he was the Beast? What you did while possessed? What Lydia did while under my control to bring me back? What the twins did while a part of the Alpha Pack? What Theo did when he came back to town? What Denton decided to do by having you, Allison and Scott sacrifice yourselves instead of your parents?”

I sigh and say “I do not hold any of that against anyone other than myself. I could have resisted the Nogistune if I was stronger. But everyone else did the best they could.”

Peter says “You are an idiot, sweetheart. You did everything you could to fight the possession. You found out and let us know, you set up things to minimize the casualties, and you beat him in the end.”

I shake my head and say “You don’t understand, I let him in. He had to be allowed in and I did, twice. I wasn’t fully aware that I was doing so, but it doesn’t change the fact that I did.”

Peter says “What do you mean by that?”

I say “I opened the door for him, it wasn’t just because of us sacrificing ourselves, I opened the door fully for him. Despite my subconscious telling me to shut the door, I opened it for him to get inside. If I had closed the door he never would have gotten control and I could have overpowered him before he got the chance to possess anyone else. I need an anchor the same way you guys do and my anchor back then was not strong enough to battle against the Nogistune. Because I was denying a major part of myself, I caused many deaths.”

Peter says “Explain what you mean by that please, because it doesn’t make as much sense as you think it does.”

I sigh and say “When the Nogistune got in it happened in a dream, I had woken up in bed with Lydia with the door cracked. I stood up to close the door but as I got closer I heard a voice telling me to open it. Lydia told me not to, but it wasn’t enough to beat the compulsion to open it that the Nogistune was using on me. So I opened the door and walked out into the clearing with the Nemeton. That was when I was actually possessed. If I had let myself accept that Lydia wasn’t who I was most connected to, I would have been able to overpower the Nogistune. My emotional connection to Lydia was too weak. It’s a miracle I survived the initial sacrifice. Because of my denial about Derek, I was vulnerable and easy to defeat. At minimum Issac should have been my emotional tether and Lydia should have been Allison’s. Which is why Allison and my backlash was so much worse than Scott’s. Which is why we both ended up nearly killing our true emotional tethers.”

Allison says “Wait so you’re saying Deaton made the wrong decision on who to pair us with that day?”

I say “Yes, he did. He didn’t know that then, but he decidedly made the wrong decision. It ended up being a fatal mistake, sadly.”

Issac says “I could have been your emotional tether back then?”

I say “Yes, despite everything I loved you even then. You were a douche, but I was also super protective over you.”

Peter says “Does Deaton know he messed up or did you never tell him?”

I say “I never told him, but I think he suspects it.”

Peter says “Why would you never tell him that he made a mistake? That’s something he should know. That’s something we all should know.”

I sigh and say “Peter, that’s rich coming from you. I just didn’t want to talk about it. I never wanted to admit it, even now.”

Jackson says “So you have never dealt with the trauma of being possessed despite forcing me to get help along with many others in the Pack?”

I sigh and say “I wouldn’t say that. But I also can’t disagree with you. I have never talked about it but I’ve done things on my own to improve it.”

Jackson says “You clearly didn’t deal with it enough. You need to deal with it with help. And you need to stop blaming yourself. Do you blame me for when I was the Kanima? Because it wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t convince Derek to give me the bite.”

I shake my head and say “You didn’t know enough to know that something like that was possible. Also I’m fairly sure if you hadn’t pissed Peter off he probably would have bitten you since Scott was rejecting him. There are also other things at play when it comes to you becoming the Kanima that you don’t know.”

Jackson says “What do you mean, Stiles?”

I sigh and say “Please don’t get mad at me for not telling you, okay? I wasn’t sure how to bring it up and by the time I felt you could handle it, just way too much time had passed so it felt weird telling you. I’ll start with the simple part, the wolfsbane in your system shocked it and the extreme fear Derek elicited in you aided in you becoming the Kanima. It was made worse by the fact that you are a Hale and you were so terrified of your family. Add on that you were messed up about being adopted, it was a foregone conclusion that you were going to become a Kanima.”

Jackson says “What do you mean I’m a Hale?!”

Lydia says “Peter is your father and Malia is your half sister.”

Jackson says “How many people knew this?!”

I sigh and say “Just Lydia and I as far as I know.”

Peter says “You guys never told me I had another child?!”

I nod and say “We didn’t feel safe telling you about both, especially with Jackson’s history with you and Derek. We were protecting him. Though hindsight we probably should have told you guys sometime in the last three years.”

Derek says “You didn’t even tell me.”

I shrug and say “I wasn’t comfortable telling anyone other than him first. If he didn’t want you guys to know I would have honored that. But too much time has passed and it’s been eating away at me.”

Jackson says “I have blood family.”

I nod and say “You do, Jax. I’m sorry we didn’t tell you earlier. I was scared how you’d handle it in the beginning and once I was sure it was going to be well received so much time had passed and I was too stressed to consider doing it myself and Lydia wanted me to be the one to tell you.”

Jackson says “I understand. I don’t like that you knew for years and didn’t tell me, but I understand it. Malia is my sister and Peter is my father. I think part of me has known for a while. My wolf seems fond of them and the other Hales, the only other person it’s fond of in that way is you so I should have known.”

I say “You probably didn’t want to get your hopes up, which is understandable. But now you all know. It might not seem like it but we were protecting you guys by not telling you guys.”

Lydia says “I didn’t want to be the messenger of it, which is honestly the only reason I ever told Stiles, though he already knew.”

I sigh and say “I did. Or I was fairly sure of it when Lydia confirmed it. It made sense to me.”

Jackson says “You’re just dropping all kinds of bombs tonight. I don’t think we can handle any more.”

I nod and say “Okay. I’m sorry for throwing this at all of you guys at the same time. There has been a lot I threw at you tonight.”

Malia says “Were you ever going to tell us about Jackson?”

I sigh and say “I was planning on telling at least Jackson eventually. I just needed Derek and Peter to deal with their issues with Jackson first and vice versa. So that they weren’t starting from mutual hatred.”

Malia nods and says “Understandable.”

Peter says “I have two children? Talia stole two children from me. It was bad enough with one, but two?”

I nod and say “It gets worse though I will tell you later, just us, okay?”

Peter nods numbly and says “Okay, Stiles.”

Erica says “We should probably get going. We’ll see you guys later. Love you guys.”

I say “Love you guys as well.”

Soon everyone other than my sons, Theo, Derek and Peter has filed out of the house. I look at Peter and nod upstairs. He nods and heads up to my study.

I say “Give me a minute, okay? We’ll talk after I talk to Peter. If I don’t help him handle this now he’ll end up making all of us regret it.”

Derek says “They’ll be fine with just me while you handle Peter. Don’t forget the soundproofing ward. He’s likely to get loud.”

I nod and say “He will more than likely. I’ll be back soon. I love you guys.”

Everyone nods and I head upstairs after Peter. I get to my study and find him with his head in his hands. I step inside and put up a soundproofing ward, like Derek told me to. I walk over to Peter and lay a hand on his shoulder. He looks up at me and he breaks down. I wrap my arms around him and he sobs into my chest.

I say “I’m so sorry she did this to you. I’m also fairly sure she thought they both were dead and that’s why. I think she wanted to protect you from the pain, but it ended up being the wrong decision.”

Peter says “I missed out on both of my children growing up because of her. I think she just never wanted to lose me as her Left Hand. Which is why she stole my kids from me.”

I nod and say “She might have, but Jackson’s survival was kept a secret since the accident was suspicious and Malia’s mom did try to kill her and everyone thought she didn’t survive either. So she might have thought that they were dead and took your memories of them to make sure you didn’t lose your mind. We’ll never know.”

Peter says “Do you think Jackson will want to have a relationship with me when he has you and Derek?”

I nod and say “Of course he will, Peter. It’ll be okay. I promise you that.”

Peter says “Okay, sweetheart. Thank you. You brought me both of my children and I couldn’t be more grateful.”

I smile and say “It’s my pleasure. Are you okay enough to go to Chris yet? Or do you still need me?”

Peter says “Give me a minute longer and I’ll be able to go.”

I hold him close and say “No rush I just thought you’d want to tell him. You’re welcome to stay with me right here for as long as you need. I’ve got you, Zombiewolf.”

Peter chuckles and says “You’re an asshole, darling. Thank you as always for having my back.”

I say “You nearly burned yourself alive for the third time to let them know I was real, Peter. I know you did it for me Peter. You wanted them to be able to get me out of the Wild Hunt and you risked everything for it.”

Peter says “I did it for you and Malia, you’re right. Though mostly you. I knew you were the best bet on getting everyone out of there.”

I smile and say “I know. I appreciate that you did that for me. We’ll always have our differences but I do love you Peter.”

Peter says “I love you too, sweetheart.”

I chuckle and say “I know. That’s why you’re willing to be vulnerable with me. I’m not an idiot.”

Peter laughs and says “You’re right. You and Chris are probably the only people I’d be comfortable with enough to be vulnerable with. I know I can rely on you both.”

I nod and say “I know.”

Peter nods and says “I think I’m ready to go now.”

I remove my arms from him and say “Okay. Call me if you need me okay? Or if you’re unable tell Chris to call me if you need me later.”

Peter stands and says “Okay, sweetheart. One of us will call you later if we need you. Good luck with your sons.”

I chuckle and say “Thank you. I might need it. Hopefully they’re not going to be mad at me for not seeing it earlier.”

Peter says “I don’t think you should be worried about that. I’m sure they’ll be just happy about finally having you guys know. They have been really struggling with that.”

I nod and say “You’re probably right. Let’s head down so you can go home and I can have the conversation with my sons.”

Peter nods and we head down. I remove the soundproofing ward while leaving. Peter heads to the front door and I head for the dining room table. I sit back down and act like nothing happened. I raise my hand to pause the questions I know are coming until I feel Peter fully leave the wards. I don’t want him to have to  listen to their questions about him while he’s struggling. Once I’m sure he’s out of listening range, I lower my hand.

Derek is the first one to speak and he says “Is Peter going to be okay?”

I nod and say “He’s okay, now. Talia stealing both of his children from his mind really messed him up. But Chris and I have Peter covered. If Peter needs me he or Chris will call me later. But he’s fairly okay about it now.”

Jackson says “You’re closer to Peter than we knew. So you’re going to want me to really give him a chance aren’t you?”

I nod and say “He would like to have at least some kind of relationship with you. Maybe not as close as him and Malia. But I think you should definitely give him a chance, though if you’re really against it I’ll explain it to him.”

Jackson says “I’ll give him a chance. I’ve been wanting blood family since I found out I was adopted. Though I can’t make any promises.”

I nod and say “I completely understand and he does as well.”

Jackson says “How did no one know that you and Peter were so close?”

I smile sadly and say “Willful ignorance mostly. Peter and I are both sarcastic assholes so we banter at all times. But we’ve had each other’s back since he risked dying bringing my keys back to Scott and Lydia during the Wild Hunt. Though I guess the entire time we were in the Wild Hunt we had each other’s back. I’m the second closest person to Peter though sometimes Chris and I swap places if they fight too much.”

Derek says “Also Peter isn’t comfortable with people knowing how close Stiles and him actually are. He thinks it could make people disrespect Stiles or put him in danger. Especially since Stiles is my mate.”

Stiles says “I’m already put into danger due to so many other reasons it’s ridiculous. But because of certain reasons I understand why he’s extra cautious.”

Derek says “You are so many of the Pack’s anchor, it’s a little uncomfortable.”

I sigh and say “Just because I was yours first does not mean no one else can use me as their anchor. I personally think I’m a good choice. Also it’s part of my job in a way.”

Derek says “I’m not saying no one else is allowed to. I just think it’s weird that you’re still your ex girlfriend’s anchor.”

I sigh and say “I taught her control and was the one to teach her how to be human again. It makes sense. We were never really dating; it was a weird codependency thing.”

Liam says “You’re still one of my anchors, it’s you and Theo.”

Issac says “You’re also one of my anchors now.”

I smile brightly and say “I didn’t know that.”

Jackson says “My Kanima side will only react to thoughts of you now whether to come out or go back away.”

I raise my eyebrows and say “Oh I definitely didn’t know that.”

Derek says “I wonder how many in the Pack actually have you as one of their anchors.”

I say “Clearly more than I knew about. I’m curious now as well.”

Jackson says “It’s not exactly the same but I know Lydia uses you when her powers are overwhelming her as they grow to focus and get through it.”

I nod and say “That actually makes so much sense because I was the one to help her in the beginning and I saved her when Valack drilled a hole in her head to purposefully overwhelm her to get the answer on who was the last chimera.”

Theo says “I’m going to be uncomfortably honest with you, you have been my anchor since I became a chimera. Though Liam is now also an anchor for me.”

I look at him wide eyed and say “I wish that didn’t make as much sense as it did. But I’m honestly not very surprised. It strangely makes too much sense.”

Derek says “So you guys did actually grow up together? Scott wasn’t fully an idiot to believe him? About who he was.”

I say “Yes, though when he came back he was a very different person. Which is why I didn’t trust him. I knew there was something wrong with him and I was right. Though I think the dread doctors messed him up thoroughly. Coming back from hell settled him well, though I’m still apologetic about how long he was left there.”

Theo says “Pain conditioning was part of it. You were my best friend and I’m sorry for the pain I caused you. I deserved going to hell.”

I say “Theo I told you I had forgiven you and I meant it. You’re the one person I’d trust to partner with Derek in a fight. You and I are good now. I hated you for what you did to my father more than anything else. But you have proven yourself to me.”

Theo nods and says “I never meant for him to truly nearly die. I just needed you away from Scott. It was a bad idea but it seemed like a good one in the moment.”

I nod and say “I am aware of that, Theo. The same reason you protected me from my dad knowing, but told Scott a worse version of what happened with Donovan. I understand what your plan was, I still don't like it, but I do understand.”

Theo says “Thank you for forgiving me, Stiles.”

I smile and say “You don’t need to thank me, Theo. You have more than proven yourself. Especially when it comes to how you protect Liam and how you had Derek’s back after the war.”

Derek says “I hate that you had to deal with all of that without support, Sti.”

I say “I don't. It’s a thing that happened, but I got through it. Without help, better yet.”

Derek says “I think that makes it worse.”

I say “Hey it made me stronger. I got through it and it was worth it. I’ve always been a survivor and this life has proven it beautifully.”

Derek says “That you are and you made sure as many as possible around you would survive as well.”

I nod and say “I didn’t want to lose any of you. You guys made this shitshow worth living through. Which is why I would always go out of my way to save everyone I could even while woefully unprepared for this life.”

Jackson says “This is why we adore you, Stiles. Because you will go to the end of the earth for the ones you care about. Also are unafraid to tear down the people who are going against you and the ones you care about.”

I smile and say “I’m fairly morally grey so if you’re not my people, you just don’t really matter to me. Which is why it was so easy to turn Scott against me with his weird black and white view of the world. Also I wanted to say thank you for believing me, Jax and Theo. You both thought I hated you, but easily accepted the truth. So thank you seriously for believing me.”

Jackson says “You don’t have to thank me for that. I know you wouldn’t lie about that, especially knowing how much it would kill me. Because even if you did hate me I was still a part of the Pack so I was one of your people.”

Theo says “I agree with Jackson on this.”

I chuckle and say “I love you morons.”

Theo laughs and says “I love you too, Asshole.”

Jackson says “I love you.”

Issac says “Holy shit.”

Derek says “Issac hush.”

I smile softly at Jackson and say “Issac, don’t make your brother uncomfortable.”

Issac says “Sorry mom.”

Jackson says “No need to worry about that, mom. I know you’re the first person I’ve said that to since I found out I was adopted. I also know it’s a big deal and surprising to others.”

I smile and say “I’m so proud of how far you have come, Jax.”

Jackson says “Thank you, I really appreciate that.”

Derek says “I’m also proud of you, Jackson. You’ve been a great beta and have improved immensely since joining the Pack. I’m really glad you came back.”

Jackson smiles and says “Thank you. I’m glad I came home. Thank you for giving me a place in the Pack.”

Derek says “You don’t need to thank me.”

Jackson says “Okay. Though I am grateful.”

I smile and say “I’m really glad you came home, Jax.”

Jackson says “I’m glad I came home as well.”

Derek says “We have three sons and one practically official son in law and probably another one that is close.”

I laugh and say “We do. And I love them immensely. I can’t believe I didn’t see it earlier.”

Liam says “Theo is the almost official son in law?”

I smile and say “Yes.”

Issac says “I think Jackson is going to bring two son in laws, just so you know.”

I tilt my head and say “You think he’s going to get with Mason and Corey? I could see that. I’ve been curious if there was something going on there.”

Jackson blushes and says “I doubt it’d happen, they’ve been together for a long time. I think it’s too late to add another person in the relationship. Even if they did for some reason want to.”

I shake my head and say “I think they’ve been trying to add you since you and Ethan broke up. Though I could be wrong. Maybe it’d be worth asking them, if it’s something you would want from them.”

Derek says “I agree that it definitely seems like they have been trying to add you.”

Jackson says “You really think I have a chance? I’ve been too scared to consider it.”

I smile softly and say “Yes I truly believe you have a chance. They seem enamored with you. So talk to them about it if you want to.”

Jackson blushes and says “Okay. I’ll think about it.”

Liam says “So you guys are okay with us considering you mom and dad? Both of you?”

Derek says “Since I know you’re mostly talking about me I’ll answer. Yes, both of us accept you three as our sons. We’ve always been more protective over you three.”

I say “We both do accept you three as our sons. I already considered you my sons, though it’s nice to know I’m now allowed to show it. It’s just as nice for me to be accepted as it is for you guys.”

Jackson says “You were probably most worried about me, the same way I was with you, right?”

I nod and say “I knew you didn’t hate me, but I was worried you would be offended by me feeling that way.”

Jackson says “I can understand that.”

I say “All three of you knew about the others right?”

Liam says “Yeah we have been talking about it for almost the whole three years that we were brothers and you are who we chose as parents.”

I nod and say “Understandable. So you guys are okay sharing us?”

Issac says “I am or I wouldn’t have told you about them.”

Liam says “I’m okay with it.”

Jackson says “I always wanted siblings and now I have one biological and two essentially adopted ones. So I am definitely okay with it.”

I smile and say “I’m glad.”

Derek says “We might eventually have our own children, but you'll always be our sons. I just wanted to warn you about that. So you guys can be prepared for a much younger sibling in the future.”

Liam says “What do you mean? Like have Cora carry your child?”

Derek says “That is an option, but because of Stiles magic one of us can carry our own child. Due to how much Stiles has to do, it’d probably be me. Or we can ask Cora to carry it for us.”

I say “We will get married before we do that though.”

Liam says “Does it only work for you or can you do the spell on other people?”

I smile and say “I should be able to use it on someone else as long as they are something other, even man made supernaturals.”

Liam blushes and says “That’s good to know.”

I chuckle and say “If either of you ever want it I can do it for you guys. You only have to ask. Though only after you graduate.”

Liam blushes brighter and says “Thank you, mom.”

Theo looks sharply at Liam and says “I didn’t even know that was something you would consider. Having kids with me.”

Liam tenses and says “Is that’s not something you would want? I wasn’t sure if you were ready to talk about it so I never brought it up. It’s definitely something I’ve thought about though.”

Theo smiles and says “It’s not that, baby. I would very much like to have kids with you. I just didn’t think you’d be comfortable with me and kids.”

Liam smiles and says “Personally I think you’d make a great dad or mom. You’re kind of a perfect mixture of Stiles and Derek. So either role would probably suit you.”

Theo says “You really think so?”

Liam says “Of course I do.”

I say “If it helps, Theo, I agree with Liam on this. I think you’d make a good parent. You and Liam would balance each other out well.”

Theo says “Thank you both. That honestly means a lot to me.”

Derek says “I agree with them as well. I never thought I’d say that from what I had heard about you. But I’m sure Stiles didn’t either. Though it’s true. I think you’d be a good parent.”

Theo says “Thank you. I’m surprised to hear it from anyone.”

Jackson says “I need to leave, is that okay? Mason and Corey asked me to come over.”

I smirk and say “Good luck, Jax. Use protection if something happens. Cleanup is hard otherwise. I love you. Be safe.”

Jackson blushes and says “Mom, you did not just say that. I love you as well. Will do.”

I cackle and say “I did say it and will say it again. Get going. We’ll see you later.”

Derek says “Listen to your mother. Be safe. Love you.”

Jackson melts slightly and says “Love you too, dad.”

I smile and watch Jackson leave. I’m glad he’s putting himself out there. I giggle slightly thinking about him blushing so easily.

I say “I can’t believe I successfully made him blush about that. He must really care for them. I wonder how that will play out.”

Liam says “Mason and Corey are way too into him to turn him away. They’re a little gross about it honestly. I get so tired listening to them bitch and moan about him not being responsive when I know it’s because they’re too subtle about it for him to realize that they are serious.”

I nod and say “They came to me about it last year and I told them that they were being too subtle about it, but they didn’t agree.”

Issac says “I didn’t know until recently that any of them were interested in the other, so definitely too subtle.”

I nod and say “Without a doubt. It was adorable though. I hope things work out well for the three of them.”

Derek says “Even if they don’t work out I doubt that they’d stop being best friends so either way they’ll be okay.”

Liam says “I agree. Whether they stay or even start a romantic relationship I know they’ll always love each other. They’ll be just fine.”

I nod and say “You guys are right.”

Issac says “Danny wants me home. I’ll see you guys later. Love you mom and dad.”

I chuckle and say “I love you, Pup. Be safe. We’ll see you later.”

Derek says “Love you too, pup.”

Issac leaves after hugging Derek and I. I chuckle and lean against Derek.

Theo says “Should we head home as well?”

I shake my head and say “You don’t have to go. You’re welcome here as long as you want. Even if you want to spend the night here, we have the space for the whole Pack and guests. Despite none of the Pack choosing to live with us. Which we should have expected but we did not.”

Liam says “I don’t think we knew that we were actually allowed to live here full time. Though I think many will move in when they graduate. Theo and I will for sure.”

I smile and say “I will have to make it more clear to the Pack that they are allowed to live here full time. I’ll be glad to have you here. We both will.”

Theo nods and says “Make sense, but we should go.”

I nod and say “Okay. We’ll see you later. I love you both. Drive safe, Theo. Since I know you brought the truck tonight and you’re still too protective over it to let Liam drive it.”

Theo chuckles and says “Will do. Love you too, Sti.”

Liam says “Love you mom and dad.”

Derek says “Love you too, Liam.”

They leave and Derek and I head up to our room after locking up. I pull Derek close when we get to our room and just hold him.

I say “Were you serious when you asked me to marry you? Or was it a heat of the moment thing?”

Derek says “I meant it. I was going to propose on my birthday so that you were my gift to myself.”

I chuckle and say “Then we’ll wait until Christmas to actually get engaged. So you can keep your plans. I think it’d be a gift for both of us.”

Derek says “Okay, Sti. I love you so much. Do you know that?”

I smile and say “Of course I know, Der. You make sure I know everyday. I love you so much as well, baby.”

Derek melts against me and says “I’m glad you know, Sti. Can we go to bed? Today has been mentally exhausting.”

I smile and say “Of course, baby. Whatever you need. Let's get ready for bed.”

I reluctantly pull away from Derek and we go through the motions of getting ready for bed. I finish and lay in the middle of the bed. Derek finishes and settles in my arms. I kiss him lightly on the forehead, nose and lips before settling back so we can sleep.

Derek says “Good night, Sti. I love you.”

I smile and say “Good night baby. I love you. Get some rest.”

We fall asleep quickly wrapped around each other, a perfect end for such an emotional and eventful day.

Derek Hale Appreciation Week 2021 Day 7:

Sunday Nov 28 - Dealer’s Choice // Sadness

(Will likely write a full fic for this eventually)

Killing Peter was simultaneously one of the hardest things I’ve had to do and worryingly easy to do. I know he deserved it, that it needed to happen. But he was still the only family I had left. I expected it to be harder than killing Paige, but oddly it’s not. I worry what that means about me.

“Derek you’re freaking out, stop. It’ll probably affect you more when things settle, but even if it doesn’t there is nothing to freak you out about. It was sadly necessary and you’ll deal with it in your own time, don’t rush it.”

I whip my head towards him and really he must be right since I didn’t even know he was there.

“What are you doing here?”

“I’ll tell you the truth only because you’ll know if I lie. I felt the need to check on you. So I didn’t even question it, I just did it.”

“That’s weird because I’m pretty sure you hate me.”

“I don’t hate you, I never did, I just didn’t trust you in the beginning. Though you do hate me. Which isn’t new.”

“I don’t hate you. You just annoy me.”

“Oh. Well then I’m going to tell you something that might help you digest what happened. My mother got sick and eventually she forgot that she ever had a child. She thought I was a demon sent to kill her. She tried to kill me five times before my father found out and put her into the hospital. I never hated her for it. She did what she felt she had to.”

“How is that supposed to help the situation of me actually killing my uncle?”

“Your sane family and possibly even Peter will understand you did what you had to do. It sucks completely and I get that. But it was what needed to be done. It was necessary and it was better it being you, than it being Scott. I love that boy I do, but he’d make a shit Alpha.”

“You really believe that?”

“Yes. Scott is kind of a shit werewolf as it is. He does not need the upgrade. The bite was wasted on him. He hates it but exploits it to his advantage.”

“That’s really aware of you. To see that. Despite him being your best friend.”

“I’ve never been blinded, well not in that kind of way. I know his faults. Just like I can understand Peter but know that he also deserved what got to him. He was mostly feral and insane, though I’m not totally sure how bad it was. Because he offered me the bite and actually took no for an answer despite saying I was lying.”

“Do you want the bite though? Just not from him? That could be why it read as a lie.”

“I’m not sure honestly. I don’t think I know what I want. Part of me wants to stay human, but part of me thinks Peter wasn’t wrong when he said I’d make a great wolf. At least much better than Scott.”

“I also think you could make a great wolf, you’re already fairly wolflike as it is. And you could better keep Scott in check as a wolf. Or become your own person.”

“I don’t think Scott would be okay with me willingly taking the bite, especially from you. But I also think that I need to make my own decisions for once. Because I’m going to be involved either way, whether I’m human or wolf. I’m also not sure I would actually turn into a wolf. I read somewhere that sometimes the shape you take reflects who you are inside. I feel like I’m more of a fox and I’ve read that that is possible. But wouldn’t that not be good?”

“That is possible, but it wouldn’t change anything really.”

“So I wouldn’t be left alone if I end up being another type of were?”

“Never. If I bite you and you want to stay in my Pack, you’d always be welcome.”

“I’ll give it some thought. I can let you know later, right. You’ll be willing to accept me even if I don’t decide now, right?”

“Yes, Stiles. I don’t want you to rush into this decision. You could probably not even let Scott know if you do take me up on my offer. You’d have better control than even me I think. So you could play human until you were ready for people to know.”

“Do you really believe that?”

“Yes, also I think you’re already a little something and it might translate over if you get the bite as well. I think the bite would strengthen the magic you have in you. Since I’m pretty sure that you’re a Spark, which is the only kind of magic that works well with the bite.”

“So that would be really good for us right? I could still do things I normally wouldn’t be able to do as a were, correct? So I could probably still use mountain ash and stuff while being a wolf or whatever I end up being.”

“Exactly what I think. Also that way you really could pretend to be human for as long as you wanted. Because you taught Scott control in a day, something that would have taken me a month if not longer. And now he’s even okay on full moons. So I think you would have control easily, especially since you already have such self control.”

“Are you just saying this because you want to build up your Pack? Or do you really believe it? Also, are you only willing to turn me because you think I’d be useful?”

“I really believe that you would be an asset, but that’s not the only reason I want to turn you. I want to turn you, because like you said you’re going to be involved either way, it’d be better for you to be able to heal like us. I’d feel safer having you around if you were able to heal like us. But I would never force you to get the bite. It would just make me feel less guilty.”

“If I take the bite, I’d want to tell my dad. Though I’d want it to stay in between the three of us. Until I was ready for it to be different.”

“I understand that and I think it might be for the best for your father to be in the know. But Scott won’t be happy, so you’d probably want to tell your dad that he shouldn’t let Scott know that he knows. Because he’ll think that your father will tell his mom, which wouldn’t be a bad idea, but Scott would not be happy.”

“That is a good point. Would you tell my dad with me? As my Alpha, wouldn’t that be something that you should do?”

“If that’s what you would want. You’re dad kind of hates me right now. But if you want me to be there I would be there to help, even risking getting shot.”

“At least he wouldn’t be able to kill you. But it would hurt like hell. I’d feel bad if he did shoot you.”

“Maybe you can convince him to not have his gun so he doesn’t shoot me.”

“Fair enough, I could probably convince him.”

“Does this mean that you trust me?”

“Dude I attacked Chris because of what his sister did to you, clearly I trust you to risk bodily harm for you.”

“You did what?”

“He came after Jackson and I at the hospital and Jackson was an idiot once again and couldn’t lie in the face of Hunters. So when Chris attacked me, I went off on him because by that point even my dad knew mostly who it was. The fact that he was willingly blind about it pissed me off, so I went off. Then Jackson and I came to save the day, kind of.”

“You did that for me?”

“Yes, you moron. What happened was not your fault. I know you won’t believe me, at least not yet. But it really wasn’t your fault. You were a child and what she did was on her, not you.”

“You actually believe that. I don’t know how, but I want to believe you. Maybe in time I will be able to believe you.”

“I’ll be willing to tell you until you believe it. Because only after you accept yourself would you be able to truly become the Alpha you’re meant to be. I’d like to help you get to that point.”

“I bit Jackson and I think it was a mistake.”

“Derek, fuck man. Why do you think it was a mistake?”

“His body seems to be rejecting it, but he’s also not dying. So something else might be going on with him. It honestly scares me.”

“Which means he’s becoming something abnormal more than likely. Because if he’s not dying, but is not getting furry, it means he’s becoming something else.”

“That’s what I’m scared of, yeah. None of the things that could mean are good news for us. I’m biting Issac Lahey tonight, his dad is an abusive piece of shit and being a wolf could help him.”

“He’s both a good and terrible choice. Erica Reyes should be next. Or me than them. Do you know who else you’re going to bite?”

“Boyd, I think. Issac said something about him.”

“Okay good to know. I should probably get the bite before Erica, because I think she’s going to come after me slightly. Not intentionally, but because she won’t know and she’ll see me as a loose end of Scott’s.”

“So you’ve decided you want the bite?”

“Yes. As long as you’ll trust me, I think it’ll be a good idea. Though at least in the beginning, I’ll only be on your side behind the scenes.”

“Okay, Stiles. If you’re sure I can bite you now and we can talk to your dad tomorrow.”

“That sounds good to me. I’m pretty sure I’ll be fine on the full moon, but make sure you keep an eye on Issac. He’ll have an extra hard time I believe.”

“Okay.”

I give him the bite and take him home. We’ll see how he is tomorrow. I’ll come see him after biting Issac.

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Derek Hale Appreciation Week 2021 Day 6:

Saturday Nov 27 - Post-Canon // Happiness

(Will write full fic for this eventually)

I stroll to the door to the vet clinic, hating that I have to go here, but this is really the only place I can go for this. I hear Stiles’s hummingbird heartbeat and get extra uncomfortable with the situation. What could he be doing here?

I hear Stiles say “Doc, I don’t know what to tell you, I just need to study as much of your books for this. I don’t know what the witches plan for him. I just know I have less than six hours to figure it out or he’s as good as dead.”

Deaton says “Mr. Stilinski, I would really prefer you to give me more information than that. Where did you see Scott last? Where did the witches take him?”

Stiles sighs and says “The Nemeton, now can I get back to work?”

Deaton sighs and says “Alright, Mr. Stilinski.”

I walk into the vet clinic and say “Hey, Deaton. There is a problem that I need your help with. So if you could come open the barrier that would be ideal.”

Deaton walks out of the back room and sees all the baby betas I have in my arms and on my back and it’s the first time I’ve ever truly seen him lose his composure. His eyes go comically huge and he falters in his step. His heart starts beating wildly and smells of fear and regret.

Deaton says “Mr. Stilinski, you might want to change what you’re looking into.”

Stiles runs out of the room and says “Oh shit. I guess I should. Hey Derek and Puppies. Where did you find them, Derek?”

I sigh and say “The Nemeton. And that’s not the only thing. I’m an Alpha again.”

Deaton flinches and says “Mr. Stilinski, you don’t need to worry about finding Scott anymore. He’s gone and there is nothing you can do.”

Stiles says “How do you know that from the fact that Derek is Alpha again? You did not, did you? I knew that True Alpha shit was nonsense. I can’t believe you. What the hell gave you the right to do that? And if you say balance I will absolutely lose my shit.”

I stare at Stiles and say “What are you talking about, Stiles?”

Stiles glares at Deaton and says “Deaton gave Scott your spark, I knew he couldn’t have become a True Alpha if it did exist. He never did accept his wolf. So there was no way he’d have gotten the upgrade.”

Deaton looks down and says “It wasn’t like that. I was desperate and Scott seemed like the best option. Once it became clear it wasn’t the case it was too late for me to do anything about it.”

Stiles shakes his head and says “There are so many things wrong with what you just said, but I don’t have the time to break it down for you. Come on, Der. I’ll let you and the puppies in.”

Stiles opens the barrier without issue and Deaton looks shocked at that. Stiles just smirks and waves me to follow him. I can’t help but feel I’m missing many things and Stiles has the answers to at least most of what is going on.

I follow Stiles into Deaton’s magic room and say “What do you already know, Stiles?”

Stiles tenses and says “Why do you think I know anything right now?”

I sigh and say “You were lying to Deaton earlier. So what really happened? What happened at the Nemeton, Stiles?”

Stiles deflates and says “Scott and I went to the Nemeton because I felt something pulling me there. The Nemeton spoke to me and it was so bad, Derek. Do you know the damage Scott has truly caused? Because I do now and it hurts. Knowing I helped him cause all of the pain and destruction he has.”

I flinch and say “Stiles, tell me what happened.”

He runs a hand through his hair and says “I fed him to the Nemeton to atone for my part in everything. The Nemeton told me that it would help right some of the wrongs. When I left the Peppies weren’t puppies yet. They were adults. Clearly something happened after I ran away.”

I growl softly and say “You left them alone, Stiles. What the hell? Some of them were just brought back from the dead and you left them alone?”

He sighs and says “I felt you were coming and I couldn’t bring myself to face you yet. So I left and decided to do as much research as I could convince Deaton to let me do with his library. I panicked and I regret leaving them alone, especially since something happened in between me leaving and you getting there.”

I growl and say “Do you know who all of them are? I’m unsure about a few of them.”

He frowns and says “Deucalion, Ethan, Aiden, Boyd, Erica, Issac, Jackson, Peter, Cora and Malia.”

I sigh and say “Why are Peter, Cora, Malia and Deucalion in the group? That doesn’t make sense.”

He sighs and says “It makes more sense than you realize. But I will explain later. I have a lot of research to do. I will help you take care of them until I can get them back to adults. It’s a good thing I did something behind your back over the years since having them in town too often would raise too many questions.”

I frown and say “What do you mean, Stiles?”

He tenses and says “I had your house rebuilt in the preserve. It’s in your name and everything. I found your plans and put them into action. It’s hidden under a ward for now. I was going to surprise you with it, but I never really got the chance.”

I stare at him and say “Why would you do that?”

He shakes his head and says “It doesn’t matter why. I did it and it’s a good thing I did. We’re going to have to probably go to Ikea to get furniture for the Puppies and stuff though.”

I frown and say “Stiles, why are you so willing to help me? Why did you get my house rebuilt? How did you get it rebuilt?”

He frowns and says “It does not matter, Derek. I care, okay? That’s all.”

I sigh and say “Okay, Stiles. I’ll leave it alone for now. But only because we have more important things to worry about.”

He growls surprisingly wolflike and says “We’re not going to talk about it at all. My reasons are my own and I will not share them. You’re not the first to ask and you won’t be the first I give into. Everyone that helped with the house asked the same question and I never answered. I’d like to keep that streak up personally.”

I sigh and say “Fine. Whatever you want. Thank you I guess.”

He nods and gets to work researching. I study him and wonder why he’s doing any of this. Especially since I know he is the one who made sure to go and make sure Kate was dead for real this time. I don’t understand why he’s always willing to take these insane risks when I’m involved. It’s worse with me than it ever was with Scott, Lydia or even his dad. I mean he risked his future with the FBI for me. I don’t understand. Why does he do any of it? He had my childhood home rebuilt to my specifications if he is telling the truth. I don’t even know when he would have had the time to set it up. I can’t fathom that Scott would have been okay with it. Though clearly that’s not as important to him as I thought it always would be. I can’t believe he sacrificed Scott to the Nemeton, bringing my betas back and others along with them. He said he cared, but that’s still a lot of trouble to go to for someone you only slightly care about. I don’t understand and contemplating it is only making it harder to understand. I hope one day he decides on his own to tell me. Because I’m not going to be able to convince him to tell me or figure it out on my own. Slowly the deaged betas are all waking up, causing me to be distracted from my thoughts. I slowly set each of them on the ground and try to keep an eye on them all while also being aware of Stiles. Most of them pile together, but Erica starts growling and wolfing out, which is both precious and terrifying. I’m unsure what to do. Stiles pointedly clears his throat and Erica calms nearly instantly. I gape at Stiles, unsure how he was able to do that so easily and while rather distracted. Peter is climbing up Stiles’ pant leg and Stiles doesn’t even look up from what he is doing to scoop Peter up and settle him on his hip. I never expected something like that to be beautiful, especially when it comes to Stiles, but it takes my breath away. Stiles smirks slightly and I’m unsure if it’s about me or whatever he is reading. I sigh when I notice Issac is staring up at me, I scoop him up and set him on my hip. Stiles' smile softens and I’m not going to lie, I preen slightly. He softly chuckles and I smile softly at him. Most of the betas are back asleep in the pile minus our two clingers. This is going to be interesting, but I’m kind of looking forward to it. Stiles always knows how to make things interesting and admittedly fun as well.

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Derek Hale Appreciation Week 2021 Day 1:

Monday Nov 22 - Pre-Canon Years // Colors

Blue. My eyes are now blue and it’s all my fault. This was not my intention, but Paige is gone. I never should have let things go this far. No one treats me the same and the only person who understands is gone. Mom sent Peter away after what happened. He is the only one who wouldn’t treat me differently and he’s gone too. I’m alone in a house full of people, werewolves and humans alike. All of them refuse to treat me the way they used to. They’re all distant, not knowing how to handle my grief and suffering, so they just leave me alone. Soon I’ll be back at school and I don’t know if it’ll make things better or worse. I loved Paige more than anything and now she’s gone. I killed her, yes she asked me to, but it doesn’t change the fact that I did it. I brought the attention of hunters to my family. Which worries me despite mom’s assurances that it will be okay. I shamed my upstanding family and brought the attention of the humans that can take everything away from us. I don’t know if the Pack hates me for it or not, but they don’t treat me the same way they used to. Laura is too busy starting training to take over for mom, Eric is busy with his new wife, Thomas is barely home anymore and Cora is too young to really understand what happened. My siblings don’t have time for me anymore and it kills me. I try to spend time around mom and dad, but they’re busy with Alpha and Alpha Mate responsibilities. Which is my fault, they’re having to do more to appease the hunters after the change in my eye color. The rest of the Pack and family don’t have the time either with their responsibilities and children. I’m so lonely now and it’s my own fault. I have no one to blame but myself.

Yellow like her hair or the sun. She’s stunning and wants my attention. I know it’s wrong since she’s my teacher, but she’s beautiful. For some reason she wants me and I’m helpless against her. She has me in her hands and it doesn’t seem like she’ll let me go anytime soon. She took my virginity and she keeps dragging me back even when I don’t want her to. She has me wrapped around her finger and I don’t think I can actually tell her no. She’s magnetizing and enthralling. It’s like I’m on drugs around her if that was even possible for me. I’m no longer lonely thanks to her. She keeps me very occupied and is very interested in me. I don’t understand why but I’m too far gone to care. She seems a little too interested in my family and home but she’s too difficult to resist. I’m helpless around her and when it comes to her in general. She has me hook line and sinker. I’m too gone to question her interest.

Red like flames and Laura’s eyes now. My Pack my family burnt to death and it’s my fault. I gave her the information she needed. I only bring death and destruction. This is once again all my fault. How could I have been so stupid? Laura and I are the only ones left and it’s all my fault. Laura puts Peter in the hospital and runs, taking me with her. She doesn’t know it’s all my fault that we’re the only ones really left. Part of me is glad she made us flee but the larger part of myself wishes I died as well. This is my fault. Laura breaks our bond to Peter and it nearly kills me. I know she’s trying to keep us safe. It’s what we’re supposed to do after an event like this. Hide and heal. This is what we were trained to do growing up. I only wish it didn’t mean we had to leave Peter behind. If he ever wakes he’ll probably never forgive us for leaving him alone and fleeing across the country without a second though. I hate it but I don’t really have any room to talk. The entire thing was my fault. I killed my first love and my second one turned out to be a hunter. I should have known better. I killed my family, my pack. This is all my fault. I should have seen it but I couldn’t. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

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Why does this remind me of Peter Hale? I picture him singing this to Lydia or maybe Kate even. Man is a cockroach.

See I know that Stiles should be with Lydia because they’ve loved each other for years and it’s built on trust and respect and yada yada but my lizard heart really wants to see him make out with Derek

Peter Hale really is just a little bitch who's just hot enough to get away with everything.