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live your life now. don’t save clothes for a time you’re happier in your body, don’t put off adventures because you think your friends would be happier without you there, don’t deprive yourself of good things just because you can’t see the good in yourself

Slacking off in the name of self care is not okay. Sometimes, the best thing that you can do for yourself is push yourself a bit more to secure the future that you've always dreamed of. 🌱 Productivity is self care 🌱

Death is a strange thing. People live their whole lives as if it does not exist, and yet it's often one of the great motivations for living. Some of us, in time, become so conscious of it that we live harder, more obstinately, with more fury. Some need its constant presence to even be aware of its antithesis. Others become so preoccupied with it that they go into the waiting room long before it has announced its arrival. We fear it, yet most of us fear more than anything that it may take someone other than ourselves. For the greatest fear of death is always that it will pass us by. And leave us there alone.

- Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove

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♡ studying when you don't feel like it ♡

Today, I honestly didn't feel like studying. I felt disappointed in myself because the test results got announced and I feel like I failed myself.

However I'm choosing not to dwell on that feeling. I studied quite a bit today and I didn't let my emotions hold me back. I'm pms-ing hard af too. >_<

What's meant for you will be all yours at the end. The constellations are in your favour, so my little star-bright, what are you worried about?

A cat lays in the sun

Belly up

Soaking in the warmth

His Sister comes by

What are you doing Brother

Trying

Said Brother

Trying?

Questioned Sister

With her black and white spots

Standing on end a bit

It appears you are doing nothing

She said

Does it?

He asked

Perhaps things are not

What they seem

He replied

And with that

He dragged himself up

Into a sitting position

I see you have moved

Said Sister

But sitting is not really trying

You think not?

Asked Brother

Quietly

I spent last night

Locked outside

Helping a friend who

Was cold and sad

That in turn made me

Cold and sad

This morning

When I came back in

I helped the Dog

Find its toy

(He always seems to lose it)

I’m tired

And a bit melancholy

So I’m trying to cheer up

By laying in the sun

This feels like real work

Like real trying

I see

Said Sister

You are trying very hard on the inside

And I couldn’t see that

So I assumed you were not trying

But now I see

I was wrong

Trying on the inside

May be the hardest trying there is

Thank you, Sister

Purred Brother

Thank you for trying to understand

Trying

Is everything

"Do you know how to live three hundred years?” she says. And when he asks how, she smiles. “The same way you live one. A second at a time."

- the invisible life of Addie LaRue by V.E Schwab

But books, like people, die. They die in fires or floods or in the mouths of worms or at the whims of tyrants. If they are not safeguarded, they go out of the world. And when a book goes out of the world, the memory dies a second death.

- cloud cuckoo land

Memories are a curse; I want to remember you no more.

But the world is strange and endings are not truly endings no matter how the stars might wish it so.

- Erin Morgenstern, The Starless Sea