Latest Posts by thesadpandagod - Page 2

if j*hova were real and also a human id bomb his house and steal his dog

going to start telling people i ragequit my religion and now i'm running homebrew

I ship dis fellow and dis fellow. They are gay.

Call that a disfellowship

If you're fifteen or older an still sleep with a stuffed animal please reblog this.

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it's always so fascinating and heartbreaking when a character in a story is simultaneously idolized and abused. a chosen prophet destined for martyrdom. a child prodigy forced to grow up too fast. a powerful warrior raised as nothing but a weapon. there's just something so uniquely messed up about singing someone's praises whilst destroying them.

middle school lesbianism

me, incorrect: everyone is probably sick of me drawing this character by now...

my inner voice, wise: ah, but this cannot be... because I am part of "everyone"... and until I am sick of drawing them... it will not be everyone

me, opening a new blank canvas: ur so right

💖Reblog if you are Kenough💖 (you are)

You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.

So god really made me the most disobedient, strong-willed fucker around and then placed me in a religion that demands absolute obedience from its members, particularly women? Stupid prick was just BEGGING for me to leave with that faulty setup.

Sunny D all the way

guess who made one of those ask game things :] yknow cause why not

you know the drill

If you feel blocked, stuck, repressed, scared (also of trusting and letting go, of feeling vulnerable but safe with others)... it may have something to do with the environment in which you grew up. Your caregiver/s was/is probably someone with anger issues, that used to get even more easily angered when things didn't follow a specific plan that pleased them (any sudden change in the stability or habitual life felt too much to bear with for them), or if they felt even barely sick. Someone who may have had also light confidence issues and other fears. And you, in order to not have them yell against you for no real reason or the slight annoyance, learned to stay silent, and just do your job. You almost became a shadow whenever you happened to understand it was a wrong day for them. You probably always tried to make things better and please them and others too. To save yourself from the pain of yelling and feeling wrong or being accused of all that was going on when you had no fault. You may have also been controlled a lot by them or someone else. And you never felt free to express yourself cause they always had to comment on you, your decisions, your acts, your behaviour. To point out all you did. To give you their unsolicited and at times also rude opinion. You may have also realized they used to lie around (about you too), gaslight or guilt trip you, not just in those occasions but in others as well, especially when the fault was theirs.

All this ofc has been playing in the back of your head, no matter how many good days you could experience. Take time to understand you have no fault, you have no guilt, you can do whatever you want to do and even if others comment or judge you, it's only how they got used to act and think, and are probably only projecting onto you. I hope you can find the strenght to forgive yourself cause you did all you could and you did amazing. And that you can remind yourself of your real worth and find your way out of this cage. You don't deserve to stay there.

abusers will go 'it makes me feel sooo upset when you live your life the way you want to and do the things you want to do, actually what you're doing is victimizing me by not existing only as a support and validation to me you are so abusive and selfish and you should think more about how your sense of freedom and boundaries is negatively effecting me'

WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT MOON GIRL AND DEVIL DINOSAUR?!?!?! I AM BEGGING YOU TO WATCH IT!! PLEASE!! ITS MARVEL BUT THE ADVENGERS ARE BARELY IN IT!!! THEY'RE BARELY EVEN MENTIONED!!! GO WATCH IT!! PLEASE!!!

all terrain vampire. a drawing from 2021

Hey folks, reminder that if you ever got suckered into a cult, it wasn't because there was anything wrong with you. You didn't sign up to be hurt. You didn't misinform yourself on purpose. You were taken advantage of by someone who exploited your vulnerabilities. Getting into a cult is like getting into any other abusive relationship - it's not the victim/survivor's fault.

i’ll have you know well over six tumblr users enjoy my religious trauma shitposts

After everything with moving away, leaving the cult, graduating, making real friends, and being able to be openly queer... I still miss my parents so much

They treated me awful and still haven't really apologized. They're all sad I'm not in contact with them but have done nothing besides decide "I guess we should stop messaging since they asked us to". This is safer for me but God I want parents. The bond between parent and child and the security of having a guardian to rely on is a privilege ripped away from me.

I love my found family, but wish my biological ones were what I needed and deserved.

Can you really present Christian weddings as monogamous when they're inherently throuples?

There's you, there's God, and there's your side-person, oh right. The term is spouse.

Can you really present Christian weddings as monogamous when they're inherently throuples?

There's you, there's God, and there's your side-person, oh right. The term is spouse.

being mutuals is like we’ve never talked but i saw your vent post and do you want me to kill that person for you. still won’t talk to you tho bc that is scary sorry. love you

i would like to stop making realizations about my childhood now. i think i've learned enough, thanks.

Okay but shout out to religious trauma/cult survivors who don't have the most talked about no-nuanced "I'm an atheist now" response to everything. There's definitely a sense that if you go from one state of believing in a god/religion to another that you're somehow weaker than other survivors or that you're trapped in a cycle, and whilst it is good to look for patterns found in your original religion, I don't think this is the case at all.

Like, if you worship another god now, if you found some other spiritual practice that's soothing, or if you just don't know what is out there and just kind of vaguely pray to anyone who might be out there, you're not delusional* or dictated only by your trauma. You're allowed to believe again, if you want to, in whatever helps you.

(* being delusional isn't a bad thing to be btw)

in this new year I want you to be alright. I hope you move out. I hope you have enough money to feel safe. I hope you abandon shame and forgive yourself. I hope you get enough sleep and some good news. I hope you laugh a lot and the heaviness of the world eases a bit. I wish you to be alright.

What people think why i became a bookbinder: Oh she wants to explore her artistic horizon with those pretty leather bound books of hers. She even gives them out as gifts to her friends. It most likely helps her with anxiety or maybe she just wanted a more special costume made notebook.

Why I actually became a bookbinder: I just illegally downloaded and printed out several of my favourite fanfics and books and started binding them into books cuz I love reading them but looking at screens for too long gives me headaches.