“Maybe if I was good enough you would have stayed.”
-12:34 AM
On most days it just hits me why am I even trying to put any effort at doing anything when all it leads to failure in a life I don’t even fucking want.
The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.
It’s always the people you would never want to hurt and care about so much that do the most fucked up shit to you.