Not Knowing Where This Will Lead Scares Me, But The Thought Of Losing You Scares Me Even More.

the worst thing about being mentally ill is like.. nothing is wrong.. my life is pretty okay right now.. everything is fine. and yet.. theres this sinking feeling in my stomach and i cant stop thinking about dying

thank u dad for the irreparable psychological suffering 💓

Alejandra Pizarnik, from Diarios.

That feeling of helplessness never really goes away does it, when you realize that the person you’d do anything for, doesn’t give a fuck about you. So you just sit there feeling so small and pathetic, wondering how something like this happens. How one person can mean the world to you and you are nothing for that person.

The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.

Overthinking the idea of “unrequited love”.

Some realizations I had in the last few days

— I’m never going to be good enough to make anyone stay

— I’m needy and pathetic, clingy and annoying. No one wants that

— I’m so inconsequential that I’m not even worth being told by people that they don’t want to talk to me

— there’s something terribly repulsive and unlovable about me

— my sadness will be the only thing that will be there for me so I need to hold on to it

— happiness isn’t for me

— I need to stop trying and accept my fate of dying alone. Let’s face it, why would anyone want me