Every Time I Think About Messaging Or Calling Someone, I Have To Remind Myself That No One Cares. If

I'm literally in an abusive relationship with myself, I constantly belittle myself, and put myself in situations intentionally to be harmed.

am i the abusive one?

am i the reason so many people leave?

i am arent i?

i’m the problem

i always have been the problem

i’ll always be the problem

BPD math: they said I can come "if I want" instead of "you should come" so that means they hate me and they wish I was dead.

-kurea:)

Sometimes I feel like I go above and beyond for people to make up for the fact that I’ll never be good enough and in hopes that it’ll distract them enough so they don’t notice and leave.

Idk if thats a bpd or a me thing

I never think it’s paranoia.