Bpd Is So Unbearably Lonely. You Never Feel Like Anyone Loves You Because They Only Care About The Sanitized

Does anyone else just randomly feel like they're annoying everyone around them and that they should just disappear for a while to give everyone else a break from their existence, or is that just me?

I just want to be important, too.

Kind of don’t want to have to be strong and keep fighting anymore just want to give up and give in im so tired

I think something that is tough about BPD is being in a relatively good place in life and still feeling the destructive urge to end it all.

maybe I deserved better but I wanted you.

When did this start? When did I wake up hating myself? When did I start avoiding every mirror I came across? When did I hate being in pictures? When did my smiles become forced, and difficult? When did I stop looking both ways when I crossed the street? When did I stop leaving the house because I hated the way I looked that day? When did I grow to hate myself so much that I did physical damage to my body? When did I realize I had to change my wardrobe to hide the scars? When did I start avoiding everybody that ‘loves’ me? When did I start wanting to leave this world? It’s been so long, I don’t remember.

Live or die; life or death; Should I kill myself or make myself a coffee?

~ Girls when they can never be as pretty as the others, no matter how hard they try ~