@nopanamaman I Simply Love This Song

same anon lol. follow up from my previous ask (I started thinking about oz and the original team more):

augh. Thinking about laurent genuinely trying to connect with makoto and failing. Thinking about him watching abbie and cynthia connect with makoto effortlessly, and feeling left out. Thinking about him talking to oz about it, and realising that oz knows nothing about makoto at all. laurent getting angry, because even he knows makoto better, and suddenly feels responsible for him. imagining laurent blaming oz, blaming shi-won because they "made" him this way, even though by now he's responsible for his own actions. I'm imagining shi-won specifically calling him out on this, because she's been there the longest. how even though he suffered, at some point he has to accept that his decisions were his own. and that arguably, makoto was put through far, far worse things than he was.

laurent empathising with makoto more and more and starting to feel kind of angry on his behalf, but realising that by now there's very little he can do... he can resent the remaining members of the original team confidence all he wants, but they've been so good to him. they're old friends but they're also walking wounds. he can blame shi-won for teaching dorothy, for bringing him to dorothy. he can blame oz for giving him makoto to work with. he can blame them, but it's not going to change anything. shi-won at least stuck by his side, so she's easier to forgive. oz is harder to forgive, even if he gave up everything for dorothy, for laurent. laurent is splitting hairs here, because he still blames them less than he blames himself.

I think once laurent has this realisation, he doesn't really know what to do with himself. he still does cons and stuff because he probably feels like anything else would be boring, but I think he now kind of wants to shoot oz (not shi-won, because like I said, her sticking directly by his side all those years makes it easier for him to "forgive" her). he gives himself reasons to hurt oz in these cons because he doesn't know when to quit a bad habit when he's spiralling. oz notices, but he doesn’t say anything. he does whatever laurent asks of him, because he's right. I don't think oz feels bad for laurent, however (I think he just feels bad for makoto at this point, because he's already processed most of his grief and self-loathing regarding miki).

I think oz is the type of person to mask his loneliness. he probably cares about laurent the same way two people in a jail cell care about each other. he does whatever laurent asks of him almost like a peace offering, because he's used to just playing whatever role people ask of him without question. he probably doesn't know who he is anymore, and he probably doesn't care. he'll just follow whatever laurent says because the memories he made with team confidence stick to him like old wallpaper, and he can't bring himself to peel them off. he traded one life for another, and he lost both of them.

unlike them, I imagine shi-won already made peace with her demons long ago. there's a reason she told kudo to just let his daughter go. there's a reason why she didn't get an arc to herself. I don't think she feels bad that they're going through this, but she probably tries to distract them once in a while because the one-sided tension between them is annoying to deal with.

sorry I'm a little skdjsjajfj about them

as it is, it feels to me that oz just goes along with what others want most of the time. he isn't too different from makoto in that regard orz

op how does it feel like to be the sexiest person on earth

god god god I LOVEE your thoughts about laurent theyre so incredibly great I've never seen more correct hcs than yours

laurent and oz bonding over fucking up makotos life augohfj its sad but. But. sigh

laurent empathizing with makoto and somehow relating to him now bc he realizes he kinda been through the same shit as him. but like. makoto dealt with way worse so he cant really say anything so he lashes out at the og team instead orz 😭

oz doing everything laurent asks kf him the same way makoto does too now . im going insanw now.

thanks op sorry i dont have anything to say bht please know that i fucking love all ur thoughts about this thank you so much you have opened my eyes

people online really will bemoan the media’s obsession with making fun of teenage girls’ interests and then in the same breath make fun of teenage girls for (assumedly) being straight and liking gay pairings like oh my goddddddd

“if mango, woman go where” TO HELL. WOMAN GO TO HELL TO REENACT DOOM (2016)

YOU. YOU GOT ME INTO KENSAE AFTER YOUR FANFICS

I came to tumblr to search a bit more after reading everything and I found you😭

I'M SO HONOURED 🥹🥹🥹

I haven't hyperfixated on kensae in a while, but please feel free to reach out to me about them! they are always being microwaved in the back of my head

(plus, you know... I have quite a few unfinished fics + a fanart stash if you're interested in more content 😏)

i'm a kenjirou kinnie and i got saeru. what. what does this mean

i.... am not sure... perhaps u should watch out for a snake possessing u or smth........... uhhhh heres them :):)

I finally finished all my oc refs (for now)

This is the .core gang + Vincent who is the main antagonist (name is still debatable) Their story is so convoluted that I could probably spend an hour trying to explain it and even then I'm not done yet... woops!

Then there's Devils Manor, with Emile and Nana! Emile being an aspiring photographer who goes to a manor to take pictures for his portfolio, gets himself trapped inside the manor and has to survive all the ghosts 'monsters' and obstacles while having to deal with, the reincarnation of a clown herself Nana, slowly they learn more about each other as they explore the mansion together.

and the last group is Fini and Rowan (who technically don't have as lore rich of a story but I called it Arrow through the heart! The gimmick being that Fini, who's an equivalent to cupid, is actually aro/ace and does not care for romance and they learn about what love really means and that it's not just about relationships :) Rowan is just the worlds most autistic guy trying to help Fini in their endeavours )

Here's another campaign I trust, I spoke with the woman behind it for a while. Her name is Mona Abu Hamda, she's been using donations received through paypal to buy food and other necessities for people in Rafah, today she distributed water for 1000 people for free thanks to the donations! I'm very very impressed with this initiative and this woman.

Here's the gfdme for the evacuation:

gofundme.com

Helping us leaving out of G.a.z.a, organized by Muna Abo hamda

NOTE// THIS LINK WAS MADE BY A FRIEND OF MINE WHO LIVES IN US. MY INSATA IS: monaa__… Muna Abo hamda needs your support for Helping us leav

Here's the p4ypal for the on-the-ground relief initiatives.

Please donate! Or at the very least share this post.

sorry kenjirou

idk what to say 😭😭😭

can’t believe I spent like 3 hours trying to beat mirror dungeon hard mode only for me to get no rewards (not even exp) at the end 😭😭😭

I find it interesting how metamorphosis is less about the nature of gregor samsa's "horrific" transformation and more so about the social response to it and yet the transformation and the terror it elicits is what popular culture fixates on: in a sense we kind of assume the role of the outside characters in lamenting samsa's "loss of humanity" when the story is very much about how human he remains despite the people around him thinking otherwise