Not fanart today everyone, sorry. I will be uploading some within the week though!
I just need to vent and rant a bit.
I was feeling a bit rough today & made a venting self portrait piece for Pride Month. I've been out as trans for four years this November (26th of November) I’ve been on T three months and four days. I love who I am and my identity and wouldn’t change a thing, but sometimes I’m so tired.
I just want to love who I want to love. I want to wear what I want to wear without thinking “could this outfit that I wear today get me killed or harassed because it’s not in the norm?” I get fed up with having to conform to cisgender and heterosexual norms out of fear. I want to wear a dress and other pretty stuff again. I am cis passing so I’m privileged. I was cis passing before even starting T because I have naturally high T. So, me wearing feminine stuff scares me because I don’t want to get harassed for it. I have developed internalised toxic masculinity because of it. If I dye my hair I “may look gay” or “would people be able to tell I’m trans?” When in reality, I LOVE being queer, I LOVE being trans. It’s just hard. Being me is hard.
If I were to change my gender marker where I am, and if I were to get ovarian cancer and be in need of a hysterectomy, it wouldn’t be covered by insurance here because I am a man.
I am entitled to love, freedom, healthcare, happiness, marriage, not being turned away by businesses, or by churches/places that are meant to help all and help the community. I and everyone in this world is entitled to love, comfort, and living happily.
We have lost so many LGBTQIA+ people from this bigotry and hatred. It only seems to have spiralled even further since the pandemic or maybe because I came out in 2020 I’m just paying attention more…There’s people dead who should still be alive enjoying their favourite foods, drinks, films, etc. The people who bitch about how we are harming children, they’re “doing this for the children”, well guess what, every time you introduce more bigotry, you are killing a child. Not helping one. So, you can take the “help for the children” and shove it up your arse.
I sobbed tonite in my restroom because Nex Benedict and Brianna Ghey came into my head. They were so young and they are DEAD and for what? Because some fucking assholes just couldn’t handle the fact that LGBTQIA+ exist.
I’m TERRIFIED of dating people. Especially (cis) men because my brain goes to “Okay, is this person really interested in me or am I a fetish to them?” “If I go on a date with this guy tonite, will I come home later?” “What if he’s just trying to lure me somewhere and hurt me?”
THESE THOUGHTS SHOULD NOT BE NORMAL. I AM NOT A FETISH. I AM NOT A KINK. I AM NOT PROPERTY. I’M A HUMAN BEING.
Why can’t I just be human?
Why is it every time in the media there’s a criminal case and that person may or may not be gay, trans, or both, they hardly focus on the act itself but only on the fact that they were gay or transgender.
I am just SO fed up. Living in the states right now is a nightmare. I acknowledge that I’m privileged in ways that not many people have. I am in a blue state (for now), my mother is supportive, I have access to HRT and medical needs, I am white, I pass as a man. I am extremely privileged in those rights. I will never be able to even imagine how our gay and trans people of colour are treated. My heart breaks for them.
How many more of us is it going to take until we’re seen as people?
We’re not ped0phil3s, we’re not gr00mers, we aren’t out to harm your children, we didn’t steal a fucking rainbow from The Father Over Yonder, we aren’t working for Lucifer & if we are, I haven’t gotten my fucking pay cheque, we aren’t taking away healthcare from women, we aren’t taking over sports, etc. I could go on & on & on about this.
I can’t change who I am. Ironically, I loved being a woman. I loved my hair, my dresses, my makeup, my jewellery, the way some guys looked at me, I loved me. Although, something didn’t fit. I loved being a woman but something wasn’t right. I dressed goth, and then when I got home I dressed masculine. Even then, something didn’t click.
Then one day I was in middle school and I saw this girl named Maddy in my class. She was joking with a few of the boys in our class. She put her hair in her hat and made herself look like a boy and all the boys went “Woah! You really do look like a boy” and I was like “Huh, I wanna try that.”
So, I went home that day and messed around with it for a bit. Something felt better in me. I couldn’t explain it because I didn’t know what being trans was or what it meant. I went out like that any chance I could, unless I was around a boy or any preppy girls because I didn’t wanna get made fun of.
Eventually, one time in the store when I was walking away with my cousin from the register (still cis and in denial. Still an egg) the man at the register went “Have a good day, boys!” and we looked at each other and started laughing. Like omg, they called me a boy but I’m not a boy, right? It felt good & right.
You see, it wasn’t the dysphoria that made me figure out I was trans but the euphoria I felt from being called a man.
We have this heavy focus on the dysphoria (which I completely understand for people) but people forget about the euphoria too. I felt like something finally clicked but I couldn’t explain it.
That was until I started getting flooded with Trans TikToks and JammiDodger in my YouTube FYP and I was like “Haha, this is me. Wait-“
I didn’t realise I was trans until about 2020. Before I came out, (Oh, god, help me.. idk what egg me was thinking. I was so obvious..)I asked my mother while we were pulling into Walmart if I could get a binder and she’s like “What’s that?” and I said “Oh, to keep my chest flat. Since you know I love acting. So, do you think I could get one for when I play male roles? That way people couldn’t see that I’m a girl? Since you know I’m a girl who wants to play a male role.”
“Hmm, well sure, we can definitely do that. We’ll just have to see what I have to work with.” I was like hell yeah! I didn’t technically come out to my mother while I was in high school. She sorta just found out because she noticed everyone called me by my first trans name that I picked out and I was like “Uh- IT’S A NICKNAME BECAUSE I LOOK LIKE A CERTAIN ANIME CHARACTER WITH THE SAME NAME-“ I literally panicked.
Eventually, I kinda became like THE trans guy at my academy and since she was my English teacher, she found out through the words going around the school. It took her a while but she made it. We went and got the big chop. My hair was about three feet to four feet long and now it’s in the same style as Tony Stark’s hair or maybe even Shawn Spencer’s. Just that category of hair style. Lol. It’s very short now. I remember when she let me borrow her phone and I saw she changed my phone contact from my deadname to my old trans name. I took a picture of that and I still have it.
My name has since changed and I don’t have the same trans name I started out with. She’s still trying to switch over to using Anthony. She’s better than she used to be. I don’t mind being called by my old trans name per se but I just wish my name currently would be used more if that makes sense.
My mother is fully supportive of me now and we even got a pride cake a few days after my birthday (17th of June) because some dipshit at a store a town over threw a fit and destroyed a baker’s Pride cakes. Yeah, call US the snowflakes and yet you throw a fit about a rainbow on a cake? Yeah, okay. Lol. We got it from my mum’s friend who was giving pride cakes away to queer families after she found out about the incident.
Knowing that I have such supportive people means the world to me, but I know in some places that I go in the world, they won’t always be there to protect me. So, with that I’ve had to keep my guard up and protect myself.
I hope one day society will get to a place where we view everyone as people and that we’re all human. The LGBTQIA+ people we’ve lost will never be forgotten and we’ll always say their names. Please research our queer history. We could all learn stuff from each other.
If you’re ever feeling like your existence means nothing and that the world would be better off without you because of who you are, you are wrong. Your death isn’t something that just happens to you, it happens to everyone around you too. You would be missed because you’re loved and cherished. Knowing that you are also apart of this community with me, already makes me happy that you exist because we need more LGBTQIA+ voices. Our light and colours burn and shine brighter together so please do not go anywhere.
Thank you for existence. I love you. I’m proud of you for coming this far and we’ll go even further. We just have to make it through today. One day at a time. Everything will be okay and everything will turn out the way it’s supposed to.
If ANY of you are in need of immediate help please seek out The Trevor Project. They offer immediate help. It’s completely free and you can either text or call. I’ll leave a link for you below.
If you’ve made it to the end of this HUGE vent/rant, I’ll be sure to fluff some pillows for your eyes and get them some nice blankets because they must be tired as hell after reading this.
If you could reblog this so other LGBTQIA+ people who feel sad this pride could feel seen or just wanna reblog it for pride, please do!
If anyone can reblog this too with any other stories about their queer & trans experience or any other helpful info for LGBTQIA+ people & youth, that would also be really helpful!!
You are always safe on my blog. 💛⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🇵🇸🇸🇩🇨🇩
We can all benefit from helping each other, so also if you are able - please donate and help Operation Olive Branch for the people of Palestine, Sudan, and Congo! Remember, no one is free until we’re all free!! So, I’ll leave the link to their link tree here -
Link to Trevor Project here! They provide a lot of good info if you wanna research stuff too! -
More Sherlock & Co doodles. Sorry for the image quality.
The boys are high-fiving after a case.
I sort of gave up on the background and making the whole piece clean and neat. I didn't know what I wanted the background to be 100% but I got there in the end and I liked the way it turned out.
I hope you lot enjoy 💛💛💛
PLEASE REBLOG!! My friend and others have worked really hard on this so I'd love it if you'd support them all and read!! I have just started reading it and it's so good! I know you'd all enjoy it. [:
Hi everyone!! I'm sorry that I haven't posted a lot lately, but I have been busy. I am working on an art commission's website for myself to get my work out there and to make some money for my transition.
Thank you to everyone who has enjoyed my Watcher fanart and just my art as a whole. In the meantime, here's the messy storyboard of my Ricky Goldsworth and C.C. Tinsley Comic. Some of the storyboard has changed since this picture but this is the general idea. This is going to be a mini-comic, likely not a series because I am in the process of also making a Webtoon. So, I have been a busy beaver. Lol. Enjoy!!
Also, here's a sneak peek at my Webtoon/Webcomic as well if you're interested:
I will tell more about the comic if people become interested in it. ^^
A little while back, I was not educated on everything going on in Gaza. I wasn't on Social Media much, for mental health purposes, and only started hearing and seeing stuff about it when I started uploading my Watcher and other fandom artworks. The people in my life are very conservative, so I didn't see or hear any of this until around late October, I think. I can't think of the exact point in time.
Anyways, since then I have been on here more and have been seeing it more. I have been continuing to educate myself on the matter and stand proudly with Palestine. Some of my family is not happy about this at all. I honestly don't give a shit anymore. I cannot talk about it to most of the people in my family, so since I saw this post, I will say what I'm feeling here then.
She is absolutely correct. This is not normal. She and no one should have to be going through this. To be forced into making this decision is something I couldn't imagine. This is cruel. Those people are human beings. They're not toys you can just mess around with and throw away when you get bored with them. They are not livestock for you to slaughter. They have families! They have loved ones! They laugh, love, bleed, and cry just like the rest of us! They deserve justice!
I saw videos, online entries, and pictures of families, friends, and all sorts of people clutching the bodies of the people they loved most. They are grieving. Some are still processing the idea that those people are gone. Some of these people are processing the idea that they might not even make it home. The people they love were STOLEN from them and for what?
I watched videos of parents saying goodbye to their dead children. Children saying goodbye to their dead parents and friends.
I watched a video of a man sleeping next to the covered body of his childhood best friend. He refused to leave his side.
Journalists holding funerals for other fellow journalists by laying their vest on their corpses. Journalists sending their final videos and messages to their families and to the world because they know they will likely not make it home.
As of January 21:
83 journalists and media workers were confirmed dead: 76 Palestinian, 4 Israeli, and 3 Lebanese.
16 journalists were reported injured.
3 journalists were reported missing.
25 journalists were reported arrested.
There have been multiple assaults, threats, cyberattacks, censorship, and killings of family members.
(If those numbers are wrong, please let me know!)
The CPJ also reported 16 injured journalists and 3 missing journalists.
"Nothing can describe what you feel. You get to the point where you feel it's useless. But you have to show the world what's happening,” says reporter Youmna ElSayed.
The men, women, children, and others have been through and are continuing to go through things I cannot even imagine. There is not enough words to describe the anger I feel at the moment. The anger and mourning they all feel is probably greater than any anger. Why? Because those people are innocent. Those people had and are still having their loved ones, homes, pets, hospitals, schools, EVERYTHING stolen from them.
Since the war started, 25,105 Palestinians have been killed in Gaza, while another 62,681 have been wounded.
They are purposely starving these people. 570k+ people have been starving due to war fallout. Prior to the current hostilities, 1.2 million of Gaza’s 2.2 million people were estimated to be facing acute food insecurity, and over 80 percent were reliant on humanitarian aid.
On November 28, the Palestinian Central Bureau of Statistics said that Gaza is suffering from at least a US$1.6 million daily loss in farm production and the Palestine Food Security Sector, led by the WFP and the Food and Agriculture Organization, reported that over a third of agricultural land in the north had been damaged in the hostilities. Satellite imagery reviewed by Human Rights Watch indicates that since the start of the Israeli military's ground offensive on October 27, agricultural land, including orchards, greenhouses, and farmland in northern Gaza, has been razed, apparently by Israeli forces.
“The Israeli government is compounding its collective punishment of Palestinian civilians and the blocking of humanitarian aid by its cruel use of starvation as a weapon of war,” Shakir said. “The deepening humanitarian catastrophe in Gaza calls for an urgent and effective response from the international community.”
They are doing everything in their power to ensure that the Palestinian people are wiped from the map. I looked a few thing up this week and I was reading this:
"According to a January 2024 analysis, Israel's aerial bombardment and ground invasion of Gaza is responsible for over 99% of the 281,000 metric tons of carbon dioxide (CO2) equivalent generated in the first 60 days after the October 7 Hamas attack.
The carbon emissions from the first few weeks of the war are equivalent to the annual energy use of around 2,300 homes, or the annual greenhouse gas (GHG) emissions from around 4,600 passenger vehicles.
The war has also destroyed sanitation and water treatment systems, and left a new layer of toxic chemicals in Gaza's soil. Israel has also targeted the environment by destroying essential infrastructure, such as limiting water, electricity, and fuel supplies to Gaza.
The conflict has also raised energy prices, which could mean that energy security concerns will take precedence over energy transition initiatives. This could entrench the power of fossil fuel interests worldwide."
If you support israel, you aren't just killing Palestine, but you are literally helping to doom our planet. They are genocidal monsters. In October 2023, Israeli Defence Minister Yoav Gallant said, "We are fighting against human animals". Comments about fighting "human animals," making Gaza a slaughterhouse, and erasing the Gaza Strip are key components of the ICJ genocide case.
Dan Gillerman, the former Israeli ambassador to the United Nations, also called Palestinians "inhuman animals." Are these really the people you want to support? Like I stated earlier, those HUMAN BEINGS are NOT livestock. To dehumanise, mock, starve, slaughter, and terrorise those innocent people, is downright disgusting. I am not religious, but if I were I would say that there is a special place in Hell for people like that.
Before you support anyone, or anything, please research, ask around, do anything in your power to educate yourself and support what you believe because you know it is the right and just thing. It can be scary to be around people in your life who are completely against your beliefs and who you are as a whole, believe me, I get it, but thinking and believing/supporting what you believe, for yourself, because you believe it, is an amazing feeling. Think for yourself! If the people in your life support israel and there's no way for you to protest safely, if you have private access to online forums, then do your best to just read up as much as you can. Educating yourself is the first step.
I am still trying to find as many resources as possible to help spread awareness and support. So please, to anyone who is currently uninformed like I was, or just doesn't know how to help/bring support to the genocide going on right now, you can do these things to help:
Call or email your representatives about this. I saw a website the other day. You can join the AFSC online for weekly Action Hour for a Cease-Fire. Every Friday, they share updates from AFSC’s staff in Gaza, tips for advocacy, and then make calls and write letters to Congress. So, I would definitely recommend checking them out! You can sign up for Action Hour -> here
Here is a book you can read. It's about 12 Palestinian writers writing about what they dream for the future of Gaza. The book is called “Light in Gaza: Writings Born of Fire.”
Here's a collection of Palestinian books you can buy: Free Palestine! books
Humanitarian Aid for the Palestinian people: here
Research the subject. Talk to people, whether that be online or in-person. Any source of information you can get is useful.
Avoid companies that you know are in support of the genocide. If you do not know the companies, ask a friend or look up online what companies are supporting Israel. Here is a link to that: here.
I am going to be doing this myself, but even online, like many people have been doing, you can add the flag or something in your bio to show support such as the Palestinian flag or the phrase "Free Palestine!" to make others aware of your support.
Join protests, make art. Whatever it takes to spread the message out into the world to help these people, please do it!
The year has just started, let's do out best to be there for each other and stick together! Whatever help and support you offer will not go unnoticed!
I wish everyone a safe and pleasant night (or day where you come from). Let's do our best! If this helps/informs even one person, I am happy! Thank you for reading! 💛
❤️🖤🤍💚
To the deceased Journalists, we will never forget you. Thank you for everything you've done.
Here is a link to the list of killed, injured, and missing journalists -> here
Free Palestine!
Noor Harazeen you are the world's hero. You're completely correct, this is not normal. This is evil and no human needs to make these decisions.
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"It may be that you are not yourself luminous, but that you are a conductor of light. Some people without possessing genius have a remarkable power of stimulating it."
Happy Johnlock Day!!!
I know Valentine's isn't here yet, but I wanted to make a drawing for it anyway. So, Happy (very early) Valentine's Day!
I finished my Granada Holmes/Johnlock Valentine's Day drawing!! I hope you enjoy!! 💛💛
Holmes got his beloved poisonous flowers and Watson received some sweets. I love them.
The cafe is a cafe I use in my comics. It's called "Witches Cap - Cafe and Roast". Like I said in my last post, I always enjoy putting characters in it. [:
(Sorry for the wonky lines.)
(Edit: everyone is saying such sweet things, thank you lot so much!! 💛😭)
I know the creator of Sherlock & Co. found the idea of writing Moriarty into the series intimidating. Plus, not knowing how to do Sherlock's "death" over a podcast and such. But I had an idea.
I love the idea of Professor Moriarty being some sort of hacker/online troll and MORIARTY is the name of a dark web corporation that is trying to hack into the Sherlock & Co. Company to send Sherlock puzzles/cases. You lot know those shady anon hackers on the dark web in films and certain websites? Like that.
I think it would be cool if at first Moriarty leaves hate/weird comments on John's podcasting sites and Watson just thinks it is some hater and thinks nothing of it and deletes the comments. He just grumbles about the comments being a continous thing.
Suddenly the comments stop. Watson isn't complaining about it, he is relieved by that because they were really annoying him. (no matter how many times Sherlock & Mariana told him to ignore them.)
Later on, Watson gets these emails from an unknown email of some shady guy (Moriarty) taunting Sherlock (and the rest of the company) and sending them on goose chase cases (Like the BBC did in that one episode with the phone calls, in a way?)
When Moriarty becomes the main centre of the podcast episodes, instead of Sherlock dying, he gets kidnapped by Moriarty's network. Watson and Mariana embark on and have to solve their most important case yet "Where is Sherlock Holmes?" This would give us some cool dynamics and more screentime between Watson and Mariana.
Watson starts to panick because he thinks he isn't like Sherlock and Sherlock did tell him that he would never be able to figure out stuff the way he could. Mariana is there to support and be there for him. Watson and Mariana have to channel their inner Sherlock Holmes to solve the case.
Idk whether I like the idea of Sherlock expecting this to happen and leave behind clues in some way. I do know though, that I like the idea of the following cases being them trying to work on finding Sherlock.
When they do, Sherlock is banged up and Sherlock tells him "I trusted that you would find me, Watson. You really are a persistent fellow."
And Watson just runs up and hugs him and Mariana joins in and they are just mother henning him like crazy.
Watson tells Sherlock "Don't do that to me again. Don't disappear on me again, you hear?"
And Sherlock is like "It's not like I was expecting to kidnapped, John. Besides, your podcast wouldn't last without me."
Watson just huffs and tells him "No, no, it wouldn't. Just come here," and then goes to hug him again.
Mariana pulls away from them both in realisation and she tells them "Boys, I don't mean to break up our moment, but we still do have one problem."
They both look at her and Sherlock nods and says "Moriarty. He's still out there."
I want it to be implied that they came face to face while Sherlock was kidnapped.
"He? Sherlock, you saw him?" Watson replies.
"Indeed, Watson and I think I know where he'll be waiting next."
*cue Sherlock & Co. End of episode music.*
Anyways, then we get to the episode of the Reichenbach fall, they have their final facedown. Sherlock doesn't die, but Moriarty does fall.
Watson would 100% be grumbling about how he can't pick up any audio over the sound of the falls.
Sherlock and Moriarty would begin fighting and Watson would start describing the scene in a panicked tone.
Sherlock calls over "Not helping, Watson!"
After more sounds of fighting and nervous ramblings from Watson. Sherlock & Moriarty turn the corner of the falls into a blind spot.
All Watson hears and sees is a cry and someone fall and crash into the water.
Watson panicks and shouts "SHERLOCK!" then dashes up to where they were fighting. Sherlock is sitting down and catching his breath.
Sherlock would probably make a smartarse comment like "Ah, John. Glad you make it. Help me up will you?"
"You're not dead."
"Clearly, or else we wouldn't be speaking. Now, would you please help me up?"
"Right, yeah." Watson helps him up.
"So, you, erm, you killed him?"
"I did. His baritsu was lacking, so his demise was inevitable."
"You're a clever, bugger, mate. Now, lift home?"
"Yes, of course."
I think it would be funny if the episode ended like this. They get home and Mariana starts mother-henning them both and she is scolding them both in Spanish about being more careful, how much she cares for them both, etc. Then she hugs them both.
Later on, we cut to them sitting in their chairs and talking about, well, everything.
"It's good to have you home, you know? I- well, Mariana and I both missed you."
"Mm. It's good to be home, Watson. I prefer the smell of our flat to the vile odour of where I was."
"Do you want to talk about it? Because, I, erm, am always here if you need a good talk."
"Not at the moment, Watson, but I will keep that in mind."
Long pause.
"So, Moriarty's network.. is it?-"
"Gone? Mm. No, but it will be taken care of."
"How? They are bloody HUGE, Sherlock. Shouldn't we, I don't know, contact Lestrade? Actually, the whole bloody Scotland Yard?"
"They're useless here, Watson. I'll leave this to the government."
"The government? Sherlock, we both know what they are. The government is not reliable in the slightest."
"Mm. The government you are discussing, yes. They are indeed unreliable, but in this instance I am discussing a WHO not a what."
"Friends in high places?"
"No. Much much worse."
"Oh, erm, an enemy then?"
"Mycroft is not an enemy, but certainly not a friend."
"What the devil is a 'Mycroft'?"
"My brother."
There's a long silence in the audio
"YOUR WHAT!?"
*Cue end of episode music*
I think this concept would be a cool way to be introduced to Mycroft, Watson realising his capibilities since meeting Sherlock, more screentime with Mariana and John's friendship, a way to do the podcast without killing Sherlock and having the time gap between Sherlock's "death" and resurrection, etc.
If you made it to the end of my Sherlock & Co plot concept ramble, good for you. Lol. Anyway, I just thought this would be a cool concept. The rant kinda blended into a fic, but oh well.
Do you lot like this idea? I thought it would be neat.
If John (or even the creator of Sherlock & Co) sees this ever, I will spontaneously combust. 😳
Enjoy my story/plot rant-
(Sorry for any typos, I am sick and half-asleep)
(I am so normal about them, I swear-)
I completed some Hannibal fanart!!! 💛💛💛
I am pretty proud of it. Especially the dialogue.
I'm sorry if the comic is fuzzy, Tumblr wouldn't let me upload the full quality image. (You'll have to click on the first image to see the comic)
In regards of the Trump government scraping all trans inclusion in its queer information portion of its websites I have made this thing. Spread the word. Don't let them pretend we never existed.
P.S: Don't like! Reblog! <3
EDIT: Well this got a lot of attention! I got a few users asking to print or repost my art and I am unimaginably grateful to everyone's interest, especially since it's a really simple drawing I made on a whim haha! Anyone who is looking to print these out to hang or hand out or repost on another platform is free to do so, although I ask you to credit me and let people know it's from my Tumblr profile! If anyone wishes to do anything else with my art or post and wants to clarify what I consent to then they can message me privately and I'll explain! <333 all my love to my queer siblings
EDIT: I made an LGBTQIA+ version with a focus on trans and intersex folks, it's on my pinned if you prefer this version of the acronym.
friendly reminder that intersex trans people exist and they arent your fucking business and telling us "thats impossible" when we share an experience is entirely unhelpful
im a trans woman with enough of a uterus/ovary to menstruate occasionally. "trans women cant have periods" is not only invalidating to perisex trans women/trans women who can't menstruate but still have a hormonal cycle that causes some symptoms of periods (cramps, mood swings/shifts, etc.) but also invalidates intersex trans women who do have the ability to menstruate
and i shouldnt have to hide the fact i do menstruate to be seen as "valid." i shouldnt have to hide that i used medical bias against intersex people to get my transition surgeries covered and done at a younger age. i shouldnt have to hide the fact i had to go on testosterone because my body only produces miniscule amounts of both hormones but i have severe reactions to estrogen/progesterone that fucks with my body more than testosterone while still needing some sort of sex hormone to be able to live my life normally. yes, this has given me privilege in some areas. yes, it is different from the experience of a perisex trans woman. no, this does not make me transmasc or not actually trans. i do not feel comfortable identifying as transmasc because i am not a man, and even if i was, i presented as primarily male most of my life and was percieved as such. perhaps if i'd had my "female" sex characteristics removed instead, i would identify differently, but my reality is that i live my life as a trans woman, even if i am currently indistinguishable from a cis woman and many people percieve me as such.
Tony/Al/Luci/Lucifer- He/Him They/Them 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈 ♠️Digital Artist. Love all things House MD, Psych, Hannibal, Good Omens, Grimm, Helluva Boss, Hazbin Hotel, and Sherlock Holmes. Please enjoy your stay on my blog. 💛
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