I’m Sorry But This Is Seriously All I Could Think Of When This Happened Lol

When I was younger and went to the doctors for a check up, I wasn't really that strong. I was skinny and small girl, but I ate healthy and such.

My doctor was female and she was giving me a check up and things seemed okay except I was a little under weight. So I said this:

"I'm going to be strong like a man!"

Then she told me this:

"Why not be strong like a woman?"

Years later, I finally understand. I'm not saying women should have more rights. Everyone should have EQUAL rights.

Sad

I've been feeling a bit down, and I decided to make a self portrait type picture. I drew JD and Connor behind me because I relate to them in certain ways. It's a bit personal to me, but I tried.

Depressed Again

Soooo yep. Here I am again.

Okay, I ship Phan, but this isn't about romance and crap. I re-watched some Dan and Phil videos and the way Dan looks at Phil got me.

Not because I was like:

"Omfg they are amazing together you can see him stare with love fkwvlsvslabsksv d's kqkabd"

I do, do that, but this was different. You can literally see the 'care' in his eyes for Phil, even if they're joking around. You can take it in a romance or friendship way.

I just broke.

I started to cry at fucking 4:17 am with no sleep, because I feel like no one will look at me that way. I'm not talking about how your family cares for you, or how your best friend loves you (in a platonic way), but with 'care.'

I feel alone in my head. Like "Freeze your Brain" from Heathers.

"Shatter your skull fight pain with more pain. Forget who you are, unburden your load. Forget in six weeks you'll be back on the road. When the voice in your head says 'you're better off dead,' don't open a vein."

I don't know, I'm not good with emotions. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I bottle my emotions up and help other people to avoid my internal war/battle.

So, if you ever, and I mean EVER, find someone who looks at you with care and understanding, even if it's in a friendship or romantic way, don't lose that. If you lose it, you may never see it again.

All my love goes out to the people who read this, and to @danielhowell and @amazingphil for making my world a happier brighter place.

💙

- Cas has said that Dean and him have a more “profound bond” than Sam and Cas do

- Dean is always significantly impacted by Cas dying/leaving/etc, and Sam, although also hurt by it, not NEARLY as much as Dean always is

- Dean and Cas have movie nights, (presumably) without Sam

- Dean wanted to actually die after Cas died, not wanting to live without him

- Cas has an issue with personal space but only with Dean ??

- Eye sex

- Cas never watches Sam while he sleeps, but you bet your ass he watches Dean

- Cas (presumably) usually always makes Dean coffee in the morning

- Dean made Cas a mixtape

- How Dean hates Jack, but suddenly Cas comes back and Dean wants Jack to stay

- “I need you”

- 13x05 NEVER shows Sam’s reaction to seeing Cas again, as if only Dean and Cas are reuniting

- How Dean always welcomes Cas home, because home is where the Dean is

- Dean not believing in anything after Cas’ death

- “I just need a win” *Cas comes back*

- Cas says “I love you.” *Camera cuts to Dean*

But yeah no —‘brotherly love’

What Have I Made? 😂

Pure beauty

I… had to, after that last video, I’m not good at drawing but I had to, anyway. I’m sorry @markiplier

(nope, I’m not)

Cinderella “plot holes” I am tired of hearing about

“Why didn’t her step family recognize her?” Because royal balls were basically the candle lit equivalent of clubbing in terms of both lighting and sheer numbers. Even if they were right next to her, they probably wouldn’t get a good look, especially since it would have started after sundown. Also, she was the help; they probably hadn’t looked at her in years.

“Looking for someone based on their shoe size is stupid!” See above.

“Was he going to have every size seven in the kingdom try the slipper on?” Prior to industrialization most garments were made by hand to fit the buyer’s measurements, including shoes. It’s why poor people only had one pair. It’s a lot smarter when you consider that they would’ve fit her like a glove.

“You can’t run down stairs in heels!” I know this is a misconception resulting from historical revisionism and disneyfication, but high heels were not originally women’s shoes. They were worn by men. Women wore slippers, which were basically ballet flats. So it’s debatable.

“Glass shoes don’t make any sense!” Okay first of all, it’s called the suspension of disbelief, and secondly, they’re gold in every other version but Perrault decided to change them to something else expensive.

“She just went to the ball to find a man!” I know this isn’t a plot hole but listen. As the daughter of a widower Cinderella would’ve been running the household finances and acting as hostess if he hadn’t remarried. By demoting Cinderella to a servant, her step-mother essentially guaranteed that she would never escape the house, because the only way for her to escape and maintain her status was to marry well, and no one was going to marry a servant. It was essentially the historical equivalent of your mom stealing your college acceptance letters out of the mailbox.

Some Art stuff

It's okay??? I tried realistic :P

Art Will Come Soon

Hello, my dear followers, 

I will rightfully inform you, my dears, that I shall soon be posting more art. Well more traditional art since I have been doing more pen work and practicing on not making any mistakes and it has been improving my normal pencil work. Although it is hard to do any digital art seeing as I have no motivation to do so, I shall make some as soon as I have the inspiration. In all honesty, I have had many struggles with my art and I have just got back into the art flow by doing my guilty pleasure art. Aka fanart of my favorite ships :3 it has been fun and my own special someone (the Dean to my Castiel) has agreed that I am doing much better mentally and physically after I got back into my flow and I am happier now. So I will be posting art soon and I hope y’all love it! Till then, ta ta my dear followers!

No one wants to deal with you when you’re sad all the time.

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