Latest Posts by videogamegeek12345 - Page 3

how awful do you think cecil felt when kain disappeared in mist? after accidentally annihilating an entire village, the guilt was already flooding in, let alone when he realized he personally dealt with rydia's mother. then the one person he had in the moment to rely on slides away in an earthquake that he definitely also could blame himself for (this is the most anxiety ridden man i've ever seen. he most definitely blames himself for that.) and is left with rydia, whom he dutifully takes care of, even though she hates him with all her guts (at the time).

imagine the self loathing, thinking that he condemned someone he loved to a death between stone and ash, thinking he could have prevented all of it if he'd simply had the guts to tell the king of baron "no". or investigated the ring he'd been instructed to deliver further. or anything else. but he didn't have time to dwell on it, because he needed to protect rydia, and that was his fault too.

Kadaj in all of his Gen Z glory: I would die for you

Aerith: Please don't!

Kadaj: I would die for you

Sephiroth looking him dead in the eyes: you will.

Kadaj: I would die for you

Yazoo and Loz: Not again :(

Kadaj: I would die for you

Tifa: That's sweet but I don't want anyone to die-

Kadaj: I would die for you

Genesis: But then it would be for nothing!

Kadaj: I would die for you

Cloud who's met enough teenage boys to know exactly what response Kadaj wants: then perish

rewatched advent children (complete) recently and it really just makes me so sad for kadaj. i mean, loz and yazoo don't even feel like people in the way that kadaj does- they don't have the sass and snark of sephiroth, they don't command a room the way that sephiroth does. but all kadaj wanted was to be loved. he wanted to be wanted, and his creation led him to believe he could only be loved by jenova (who is incapable of love) by becoming sephiroth, by becoming someone else entirely. kadaj is not sephiroth, he is a remnant of who jenova made sephiroth into. he isn't even a remnant of who sephiroth truly was- of the man that angeal and genesis and zack and lazard and glenn and matt and lucia got to know. kadaj likely doesn't know who any of these people are- because jenova didn't care about who sephiroth was, only his power as her puppet, her pawn. kadaj was never going to get what he wanted, and that fucking sucks.

i bet rosa hated. (hated!) being treated like she was weak, for being a white mage. that she spent her teenage years proud and ready to serve, just like cecil and kain, but was always shunted to the backline and protected, despite the fact that she could protect herself. that being kidnapped by golbez and being forced to be a damsel in distress drove her insane. that she wanted to protect cecil and kain just as much as they wanted to protect her- maybe even more.

i imagine for christmas that kain and cecil have a hard time with gifts. not giving gifts, but being able to accept them from each other (and rosa). like, they'd be those people that are like, "oh, no, don't get me anything this year," or "i'll just be happy with seeing you," which are nice sentiments and all, but rosa's love language is absolutely gift-giving (and acts of service, but that's a different comversation).

so eventually they have to have some sort of conversation that's like "you deserve gifts, i want to get you gifts, i don't feel pressured to get you gifts, i want you to appreciate them, etc. etc." and yknow im just thinking about that

it kills me when i get into a fandom and the my favorite ship doesn't have a ship name. i don't want to write a/b. i want to write some stupid insider thing that i don't even really get, y'know?