Kadaj In All Of His Gen Z Glory: I Would Die For You

going back to the land of the feymarch is honestly really funny. every single npc there is just like "oh, hey rydia! nice to see you again!" or "rydia, is that you? who are all these losers you're with?" or "rydia, you're back! please don't leave!" or "rydia, rydia rydia".

except for like, two people, who told me "man, monsters are really acting out of turn in your world" to which i was like, "yeah, they really are, huh?" and the other person who was like "this is the library. maybe you should go study," to which i was like "DAMNNN that's CRAZY" but to be fair the king and queen were down there and i was looking for them so maybe that was some sort of code???

idk i'm mostly joking but i do think it's nice how rydia got to be a part of this community since cecil and kain kind of blew up her original one. like she gets all of these people to recognize her and be excited for her return to their village and whatnot.

rebirth hard mode update:

aw man. everyone was right. rufus stinks. i forgot he was IMMUNE TO ELEMENTAL DAMAGE?? HOW??

plus, i'm going on vacation, and i will not get another opportunity to try again until i get back. he's just gonna haunt me for a week. i'm gonna watch so many videos about hard mode rufus. i'm gonna get him. i am not going to pysche myself out of fighting him. i am gonna get him. he's gonna say "and yet here. you. are." in that stupid tone that i like so much when he summons darkstar. and i'll blow him up.

rewatched advent children (complete) recently and it really just makes me so sad for kadaj. i mean, loz and yazoo don't even feel like people in the way that kadaj does- they don't have the sass and snark of sephiroth, they don't command a room the way that sephiroth does. but all kadaj wanted was to be loved. he wanted to be wanted, and his creation led him to believe he could only be loved by jenova (who is incapable of love) by becoming sephiroth, by becoming someone else entirely. kadaj is not sephiroth, he is a remnant of who jenova made sephiroth into. he isn't even a remnant of who sephiroth truly was- of the man that angeal and genesis and zack and lazard and glenn and matt and lucia got to know. kadaj likely doesn't know who any of these people are- because jenova didn't care about who sephiroth was, only his power as her puppet, her pawn. kadaj was never going to get what he wanted, and that fucking sucks.

having a flare up = forcing it on my blorbos of the month

zack revival after meteorfall au where he has chronic pain and cloud takes care of him on his hard days which is hard for zack because he's always been the one taking care of everyone around him. he was helping aerith with her flower wagons, he was trying to help angeal and sephiroth and genesis stay sane, hell he was trying to help cloud with his motion sickness!! and now his body revolts and makes him sore and exhausted for days on end.

cloud tries to convince him he really doesn't mind takin' care of him, that he loves him, but it's hard for him to take, y'know? it's hard to accept help when it feels like accepting defeat, and it's even harder to accept help when you don't exactly know what's goin' on.

ugh i'm so tired of this you guys

cid raines you'll always be famous to me

now that i'm about halfway through dirge of cerberus, i went back and replayed remake intergrade, chapter 2...

the thing that stuck out to me the MOST is that the deepground lackeys or whatever the hell you wanna call them are totally outfitted for long range combat when they fight yuffie and sonon. i also remembered WAY more members actually being there- but in all actuality you probably only see 20 or so members, including the ones nero murders (out of boredom or for power? another day.)

but they're all equipped with their stupid like, range enhancing helmets that would fucking impossible to see out of at short range (hello security officer helmet, but at least that thing doesn't cover their whole head.) and they're all wearing pants, which begs the question. was it just a small sample size (~20 members) or did they change the deepground uniforms in the three years inbetween remake intergrade and dirge of cerberus? 'cause they're totally wearing different outfits depending on their gender in dirge of cerberus- their thighs are OUT if they're women. but all pants in intergrade. did we only fight men, or was there an outfit change...?

also nero has split pupils (cat pupils? idk the right word) like sephiroth... is that just a jenova thing? if so, why don't more SOLDIERs have eyes like that??

thinking about "say goodnight, pippilly...!" followed by the losing music.

update on rebirth hard mode: i hate that evil fish. terror of the deep?? who let it trap all 3 party members at once?? fuck that shit and shoutout to enemy skill plasma discharge on tifa, that shit saved my ass.

also i got to see one of my top 5 yuffie moments, where she waves and goes "thank you very much!" and barret mockingly goes, "you're welcome!" they're so dumb i love them. so found family core of them tbh.

okay you know the meme where person a says "i'm going to (go do something)" and person b says "not dressed like that you aren't!" and then person a says "is this better?" and person b says "yaas bitch slay"

that but genesis and minerva.

genesis: i'm going to go kidnap my brother from a cave!

minerva: not dressed like that you aren't!

genesis: is this better?

minerva: yaas bitch slay!

this is insane im sorry i can't make memes. does this make sense??

reeve being anxious about one thing or another but vincent and cid (and yuffie and shelke, sometimes) are always there to help him

always catching when he's overthinking something

dragging him away from wro hq to go out with them for dinner

being with him after some sort of scare, so he knows they're all okay

helping him get through panic attacks, if and when he has them

yuffie sends him updates when she's away in wutai, or on a mission

shelke updates reeve on cid and vincent, since neither of them are technology experts, and she's with them all the time anyway.

cid likes to have reeve "help" him bake (reeve just sits there, and they talk, mostly.)

vincent takes naps on reeve when he's home, since reeve always seems to worry the most about vincent.