Rewatched Advent Children (complete) Recently And It Really Just Makes Me So Sad For Kadaj. I Mean, Loz

cait sith

let him be the hero 😭

giving him the costume he deserves <3

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those adjudicators and yin and yang with JUST CAIT??? oh. my gosh. AAAAAAAAH. thank goodness for the fat moogle acting as another target 🙏🙏🙏

also i did NOT get the box throwing game my first playthrough... but i had much more luck this time, it only took me three tries :) not. that. bad!!

going back to the land of the feymarch is honestly really funny. every single npc there is just like "oh, hey rydia! nice to see you again!" or "rydia, is that you? who are all these losers you're with?" or "rydia, you're back! please don't leave!" or "rydia, rydia rydia".

except for like, two people, who told me "man, monsters are really acting out of turn in your world" to which i was like, "yeah, they really are, huh?" and the other person who was like "this is the library. maybe you should go study," to which i was like "DAMNNN that's CRAZY" but to be fair the king and queen were down there and i was looking for them so maybe that was some sort of code???

idk i'm mostly joking but i do think it's nice how rydia got to be a part of this community since cecil and kain kind of blew up her original one. like she gets all of these people to recognize her and be excited for her return to their village and whatnot.

i'm reading the kids are alright: a turks side story and there's a bit where the turks have decided to look for jenova again, but there's a lot of interference from the people from edge, so when kyrie canaan gets attacked, tseng goes to check on her (and sort of kidnap her... dw about it), but she has a conversation with kadaj of all people and when i tell you tseng was freaking out.

"Opposite her was a teenage boy with silver hair and a well-structured face- and Tseng immediately felt his heart rate increase. He bore far too strong a resemblance to that infamous Shinra Company creation. Maybe it's just the silver hair, Tseng tried to tell himself, but the piercing eyes, too, called him to mind. A man once hailed as a hero who later tried to destroy the world.

"The memory of facing Sephiroth and all his fury came rushing back- being cut down, left for dead. It was all the Turk could do to stop his limbs from trembling as he looked the boy in the eye."

like DAMN. tseng is one of the most stoic, put together people in this universe- to get the information that from his point of view, sephiroth renders him terrified?? that's fucked.

having a flare up = forcing it on my blorbos of the month

zack revival after meteorfall au where he has chronic pain and cloud takes care of him on his hard days which is hard for zack because he's always been the one taking care of everyone around him. he was helping aerith with her flower wagons, he was trying to help angeal and sephiroth and genesis stay sane, hell he was trying to help cloud with his motion sickness!! and now his body revolts and makes him sore and exhausted for days on end.

cloud tries to convince him he really doesn't mind takin' care of him, that he loves him, but it's hard for him to take, y'know? it's hard to accept help when it feels like accepting defeat, and it's even harder to accept help when you don't exactly know what's goin' on.

ugh i'm so tired of this you guys

i like to imagine reeve is embarrassed, a little, about using cait sith. everyone else on the team can use their real bodies, really be in the fight, physically put their lives and livelihoods on the line. aerith gainsborough dies, in their quest to save the planet from sephiroth. in dirge of cerberus, he holds himself as if he doesn't see himself as a real member of the group, only someone who helped out.

i think yuffie probably helps the most with this- recalling things cait sith did in battle, treating him as if he's been there the whole time. (she's probably got a little bit of it on her own, what with being the youngest member, and with different motivations than everyone else.)

when cid and vincent get clued in on reeve's imposter syndrome, they're probably much less subtle about supporting him. cid isn't exactly a subtle man in the first place, and vincent doesn't do a lot of nuance in his day-to-day life (autistic old man.). telling reeve how proud they are of the good he's doing, attending all his little team building whatchamacallits, just generally doing their best to be supportive. by being the best husbands they can be.

are other people making "hopes and dreams in part 3" bingo boards?? i was thinking about it and made a list of like 30+ things to put on the board (a LOT of them are definitely only dreams and won't happen but i thought of them and want them to happen so...)

if other people are, or have ideas, pleeease let me know i'm so curious what other people expect or hope for from part 3

LOOK WHO CAME IN THE MAIL!!!!! HE'S SO SMALL. AND SO CUTE. RENOOOOOOOO :D

rebirth hard mode update:

aw man. everyone was right. rufus stinks. i forgot he was IMMUNE TO ELEMENTAL DAMAGE?? HOW??

plus, i'm going on vacation, and i will not get another opportunity to try again until i get back. he's just gonna haunt me for a week. i'm gonna watch so many videos about hard mode rufus. i'm gonna get him. i am not going to pysche myself out of fighting him. i am gonna get him. he's gonna say "and yet here. you. are." in that stupid tone that i like so much when he summons darkstar. and i'll blow him up.