Let Him Be The Hero 😭

LOOK WHO CAME IN THE MAIL!!!!! HE'S SO SMALL. AND SO CUTE. RENOOOOOOOO :D

update on rebirth hard mode: i hate that evil fish. terror of the deep?? who let it trap all 3 party members at once?? fuck that shit and shoutout to enemy skill plasma discharge on tifa, that shit saved my ass.

also i got to see one of my top 5 yuffie moments, where she waves and goes "thank you very much!" and barret mockingly goes, "you're welcome!" they're so dumb i love them. so found family core of them tbh.

i just found out viceroy sarruf is implied to be rufus 😭 wdym they pulled a gerad again??? i wanted it to be someone completely unrelated but nooOOOo.

doing homework while video game slots run in the background >>>

day dreaming about commissioning someone to draw rufus and tseng from my own fic. i know what i want it to look like but i can't draw for the LIFE OF ME.

imagine. it's sunset in junon. rufus and tseng stand side by side, rufus leaning over the railing on the airstrip. rufus is looking over the ocean, tseng is not-so-subtly looking lovingly at rufus. rufus is in a baby blue sweater vest, a white dress shirt underneath, khakis and dress shoes. a jacket tied over his shoulders, a platinum wristwatch on his wrist. his hair is gelled back. tseng is out of uniform too- a deep red silky dress shirt, not quite buttoned all the way up. he's wearing black slacks and his holster, his hair down and cascading over his shoulders.

is the vision there?? do we see it?? do we hate it??

as kids, i imagine kain got in a lot of trouble. all three of them were little trouble makers, (i mean, c'mon. three kids running around a castle? they're bored.) but only kain ever got in trouble. it seemed obvious to the king and rosa's parents and cid (and basically all of the adults in their life) that kain coerced them into spending their time making mischief rather than dutifully training as they should've been.

obviously, this was not the case. have you met rosa? that girl was out and about as soon as she heard cecil and kain might've been exiled from baron. she headed straight for damcyan, even though her lack of experience with heat had her ill almost instantly. rosa acts first and thinks later- if she wanted to sneak out to the town during training, she was the one begging kain and cecil to help her.

and cecil, despite his almost-inability to actually tell someone "no", generally went along with it. he noticed early on that kain was taking the brunt of the blame, and tried to take some himself, but between kain's self sacrificial nature and the king of baron's favouritism, cecil's attempts never held any water.

i finished the game and I'M RIGHT! WHERE IS MY DoC FOUND FAMILY CONTENT??? i gotta do it myself (i was doing it already but was i nervous shelke was gonna die so i left her out just in case but she DOESN'T!)

started dirge of cerberus, here's my main takeaway so far:

reeve, cid, and vincent have two daughters, yuffie and shelke.

three dads, two daughters.

am i close 🤨

yuffie taking .5s of vincent and sending them to reeve in official channels

having a flare up = forcing it on my blorbos of the month

zack revival after meteorfall au where he has chronic pain and cloud takes care of him on his hard days which is hard for zack because he's always been the one taking care of everyone around him. he was helping aerith with her flower wagons, he was trying to help angeal and sephiroth and genesis stay sane, hell he was trying to help cloud with his motion sickness!! and now his body revolts and makes him sore and exhausted for days on end.

cloud tries to convince him he really doesn't mind takin' care of him, that he loves him, but it's hard for him to take, y'know? it's hard to accept help when it feels like accepting defeat, and it's even harder to accept help when you don't exactly know what's goin' on.

ugh i'm so tired of this you guys

rewatched advent children (complete) recently and it really just makes me so sad for kadaj. i mean, loz and yazoo don't even feel like people in the way that kadaj does- they don't have the sass and snark of sephiroth, they don't command a room the way that sephiroth does. but all kadaj wanted was to be loved. he wanted to be wanted, and his creation led him to believe he could only be loved by jenova (who is incapable of love) by becoming sephiroth, by becoming someone else entirely. kadaj is not sephiroth, he is a remnant of who jenova made sephiroth into. he isn't even a remnant of who sephiroth truly was- of the man that angeal and genesis and zack and lazard and glenn and matt and lucia got to know. kadaj likely doesn't know who any of these people are- because jenova didn't care about who sephiroth was, only his power as her puppet, her pawn. kadaj was never going to get what he wanted, and that fucking sucks.