I Just Found Out Viceroy Sarruf Is Implied To Be Rufus 😭 Wdym They Pulled A Gerad Again??? I Wanted

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cid highwind having tea parties with marlene, denzel, yuffie, and shelke, on the demands that he gets to make the tea, and gets to sit in a comfortable chair. he is NOT sitting on one of those little kid stools or drinking shit tea.

update on rebirth hard mode: i hate that evil fish. terror of the deep?? who let it trap all 3 party members at once?? fuck that shit and shoutout to enemy skill plasma discharge on tifa, that shit saved my ass.

also i got to see one of my top 5 yuffie moments, where she waves and goes "thank you very much!" and barret mockingly goes, "you're welcome!" they're so dumb i love them. so found family core of them tbh.

on my rebirth replay i had the stellar idea to write down the loveless prelude and compare it to the "original" loveless poem. also it's color-coded.

later i'm gonna think harder about my big "explore differences" note. maybe on the airplane. i mean, what do you do on an airplane anyway? analyze fictional religious poetry.

as kids, i imagine kain got in a lot of trouble. all three of them were little trouble makers, (i mean, c'mon. three kids running around a castle? they're bored.) but only kain ever got in trouble. it seemed obvious to the king and rosa's parents and cid (and basically all of the adults in their life) that kain coerced them into spending their time making mischief rather than dutifully training as they should've been.

obviously, this was not the case. have you met rosa? that girl was out and about as soon as she heard cecil and kain might've been exiled from baron. she headed straight for damcyan, even though her lack of experience with heat had her ill almost instantly. rosa acts first and thinks later- if she wanted to sneak out to the town during training, she was the one begging kain and cecil to help her.

and cecil, despite his almost-inability to actually tell someone "no", generally went along with it. he noticed early on that kain was taking the brunt of the blame, and tried to take some himself, but between kain's self sacrificial nature and the king of baron's favouritism, cecil's attempts never held any water.

how awful do you think cecil felt when kain disappeared in mist? after accidentally annihilating an entire village, the guilt was already flooding in, let alone when he realized he personally dealt with rydia's mother. then the one person he had in the moment to rely on slides away in an earthquake that he definitely also could blame himself for (this is the most anxiety ridden man i've ever seen. he most definitely blames himself for that.) and is left with rydia, whom he dutifully takes care of, even though she hates him with all her guts (at the time).

imagine the self loathing, thinking that he condemned someone he loved to a death between stone and ash, thinking he could have prevented all of it if he'd simply had the guts to tell the king of baron "no". or investigated the ring he'd been instructed to deliver further. or anything else. but he didn't have time to dwell on it, because he needed to protect rydia, and that was his fault too.

darkstar/dark nation i want to know your gender.

why doesn't anyone gender you ever????? not in the original (although tbf dark dies RIGHT AWAY in og). not in remake and rebirth.

PLEASE TELL ME THE GENDER OF YOUR DOG DOOFUS SHINRA. IT MAKES IT HARD TO WRITE ABOUT YOUR DOG AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP TO SAID DOG.

i like to imagine reeve is embarrassed, a little, about using cait sith. everyone else on the team can use their real bodies, really be in the fight, physically put their lives and livelihoods on the line. aerith gainsborough dies, in their quest to save the planet from sephiroth. in dirge of cerberus, he holds himself as if he doesn't see himself as a real member of the group, only someone who helped out.

i think yuffie probably helps the most with this- recalling things cait sith did in battle, treating him as if he's been there the whole time. (she's probably got a little bit of it on her own, what with being the youngest member, and with different motivations than everyone else.)

when cid and vincent get clued in on reeve's imposter syndrome, they're probably much less subtle about supporting him. cid isn't exactly a subtle man in the first place, and vincent doesn't do a lot of nuance in his day-to-day life (autistic old man.). telling reeve how proud they are of the good he's doing, attending all his little team building whatchamacallits, just generally doing their best to be supportive. by being the best husbands they can be.

it kills me when i get into a fandom and the my favorite ship doesn't have a ship name. i don't want to write a/b. i want to write some stupid insider thing that i don't even really get, y'know?