1 Step Forward And 3 Steps Back || Alex Summers

1 Step Forward and 3 Steps Back || Alex Summers

Hello my loves! As promised here is part 2 to the 11 part imagine series I am doing for Alex Summers. If you haven't read part 1 yet I will link it on this post so you can pop over and read it and without further-ado let's get into this

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Brutal || Alex Summers

Hi before we start I wanted to let anyone who reads this know that this is going to be a 11 part imagine series. I took the songs off of Oli

I hope you enjoy xx

-VoidRanboo

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The next morning wasn’t that much better, I woke up, walked to the kitchen to get another drink, and then walked back to my room. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone today. I need to wallow in this heartbreak right now. I didn’t hear someone knock on my door, I only felt the presence of someone else and that’s when I turned around to see Alex standing there. I could see the hurt in his eyes and I scoffed at that, but before I could tell him to leave the alcohol started speaking for me.

“Why did you hurt me like this?’’ I slurred out.

“Y/N….” Alex said slowly.

“No, I want to know.’’ I asked, looking him in the eyes for the first time since we had our breakup….just the thought of it left a sour taste in my mouth.

You got me fucked up in the head, boy

“I never wanted to hurt you like this, but I couldn’t keep doing this to myself either.’’ Alex said.

Never doubted myself so much

“You were going to hurt me no matter what and I just want the pain to stop.’’ I said as my eyes started watering.

I hate that I gave you power over that kind of stuff

“I can’t take the pain away...I still want to be your friend and be in your life though.’’ He said.

“It’s always going to be one step forward and three steps back with you though. You want that, but I don’t want that. It will destroy me to see you love someone who isn’t me.’’ I sobbed.

Do you love me, want me, hate me, boy? I don't understand

“I..I don’t know what you want me to say.’’ He said looking down.

“I don’t know what I want you to say either. I wanted you to be in my life. What happened to all the times you said you wanted to marry me. I Ignored everyone who said this wouldn’t work, but I guess I should’ve listened to them.’’ I replied.

“I don’t know what I can do to help you.’’ He said walking closer to me, but I held my hand up to stop him.

“I don’t want your help and I think it would be best if you would just leave.’’ I said turning away from him. I couldn’t look into his eyes any longer.

No, it's back and forth, did I say something wrong?

Once I heard the door closed I took the glass that was in my hand and threw it against the wall in sadness or anger, I wasn’t sure.

It's back and forth, going over everything I said

I kept on going over everything and wondering what I could’ve done to change what happened. Did I love him too much? Did I not love him enough? Was I clingy? Was I too distant? What did I do wrong?

It's one step forward and three steps back

Just needed to vent

No this is not anything I wrote, this is just me needed to vent somewhere where I know the person I am venting about isn't going to find it.

So I have an on again off again friendship with this one person we will call Emily and the reason it is because it is on again off again is because she always likes to start shit with me over everything and you are probably sitting here and asking me why I put up with her and honestly I don't know.

So I was talking-to a few friends in a group chat that I am in (Emily is also in this gc) and I had said something about how it's super fucking hot where I live and it's raining so I was out in the rain playing with my nephew and then when we walked back into my house it was cold because the air conditioning was on and Emily went to one of our mutual friends and told this mutual friend that I was complaining about the wether and was basically talking about me behind my back.

I have been through so much with Emily but I am at my last straw. How about don't be a fake fucking friend and stop talking about me behind my back! This makes me so mad because I have given Emily so many chances and we both said that this time was going to be different but she's talking about me behind my back.

Sorry for all of this but I needed to get it off my chest. I am fucking done with fake friends.

Imagines <3

Okay so I just posted a prompt list! You guys can request anything and we will talk about a few details and then it will hopefully be out in two or three days of you requesting it!

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voidranboo

4 years ago

“Well, We Do Look To Our Prefects To Take A Lead At Times Such As These.”

“Well, we do look to our prefects to take a lead at times such as these.”

— Happy birthday to Fred & George Weasley

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voidranboo

4 years ago

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voidranboo

3 years ago

Finding each other in every universe

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voidranboo

4 years ago

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voidranboo

4 years ago

Facts that adults don’t tell you about bullying

- Communication doesn’t work on bullies. Telling a bully they’re making you feel bad is the wrong way to go. They want to make you feel bad. That’s the point.

- being kind to a bully doesn’t always mean they’ll stop. Sometimes it means they’ll just use your kindness to manipulate you while still continuing to bully you.

- not every bully has a sympathetically tragic home life. Sometimes people are just mean. Sometimes people just get off on hurting others.

- on that note, a tough home life is a reason, not an excuse. You don’t have to put up with bullying because somebody’s life sucks, just like you don’t have to let someone mug you because they’re broke.

- in order to forgive someone, they have to apologize first. If your bully has not apologized to you, you do not owe them anything.

- getting bullied as a kid can still mess you up in adult life. Maybe kids grow out of being bullies, but the marks they left often don’t go away.

- there are ways to get people to stop bullying you, but they almost all involve being mean back.

- as long as parents keep raising shitty bullying kids, there will be bullies. No amount of assemblies and hand-drawn posters will fix the problem. It’s the parents’ fault.

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voidranboo

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