Sirius Black Heard “mama, Didn’t Mean To Make You Cry…i Sometimes Wish I’d Never Been Born At

"'Was this…" Remus repeated, fingers pushing the fabric to the side and brushing the exposed collarbone, the sore spot where a purple bruise had started to bloom on porcelain skin. “A mistake?” He put his fingers on it, slightly applying pressure, and Sirius had to bite his tongue to repress the sigh that threatened to come out of his throat. It wasn’t a mistake, he wanted to say, he wanted to say so badly. The words already started to form on his tongue-"

new chapter out:

lets ignore that its been 6 weeks, i moved to spain so lifes been kinda busy lol

sirius black who drives with one hand on the steering wheel, who helps peter tie his tie, who draws on his arms in class, who always hands in his essays last minute, yet perfectly written and always well over the requested length, who wears huge boots and jeans too large for him and a leather jacket one size too big, who loves the beach and the sea, who pierced his nose in his dorm’s bathroom with a sewing needle, who only listens to james, whose favourite weather is the cold winter because the wind sends shivers through his bones, making him feel something, who leans put the window when he smokes in their dorm because james always complains the smoke, who does crosswords in pen and ink because he knows he’s not wrong, who hurts the people he hates and longs for the people he loves, who is reckless and determined and intelligent and arrogant, who’s loyal as a dog and whose words are as sharp as knives.

"remus gets so annoyed when sirius asks him for things-" remus would crawl out of his grave to light sirius' cigarette

“James no.”

- a book by Lily Potter, co authored by Remus Lupus and Sirius Black, introduction by Euphamia and Fleamont “Monty” Potter, with excerpts from the sequel by Harry Potter.

sirius and remus arguing about who's last name they want to take

sirius: I'M NOT STAYING A FUCKING BLACK

remus: I'M NOT GOING TO BE WOLFY MCWOLF MARRIED TO DOG MCWOLF

And they didn’t know this was their last night spent together

Reading fanfiction isn't enough I need to make out with Lily Evans

wolfstar are definitely the kind of couple to go grocery shopping where remus is trying so hard to just stick to their grocery list, while sirius is throwing in anything and everything that looks even remotely interesting. remus tries, but can’t even tell him no because sirius is so genuinely excited and adorable

Hello! If you like dead gay wizards from the 70s, this is for you: I'm the author of "The Serpent and the Viper" on Ao3, a fic centering noble Sirius and pirate Remus. It's an enemies to lovers (and I mean that, because they HATE each other), with lots of tension, hurt and comfort and a deep dive into Sirius' inner struggles. I update every 3-5 weeks and go by whiskeyinamug there too. I'm new to tumblr so I honestly have no idea what I'm doing, but if you wanna support a smaller author of the fandom and read a marauders pirate AU, it'd mean a lot if you checked it out! xx

regulus wanted to be james. to have sirius' undivided attention like that, to have such a codependent relationship which he could trust to hold. to be carefree and laugh with an abundance of friends like james potter the popular, attractive quidditch king did.

james wanted to be sirius. obviously, not literally - he appreciated his family being as loving as they were and wouldn't want for a second to be in an abusive household like him but... he wanted a little brother. he wanted someone who could actually care about him and take away some of his loneliness. but more than anything he wanted to be loved unconditionally in the way remus and sirius did.

but, arguably the saddest, sirius wanted to be regulus. to have their mother actually love him, or care about him to some extent. to be in slytherin and maybe have people tolerate him more as a black. to just generally have kept to himself more, as regulus did, would have meant so many of sirius' mistakes and regrets never even happened.

so yeah.

regulus wanted to be james. james wanted to be sirius. and sirius wanted to be regulus. of course, each boy loved the other, whom he envied. deeply. but maybe it was tainted with a strong sense of jealousy.