No I Am Not Trying With These Tags No I Am Not Trying Anything Anymore.

I will not explain but I will post it here anyways...

I am

Depressed

Existentially.

I take rest right now for hour

Thmblr only ever recommends me “girls blogs” and groups.

Now I understand why users troon out.

I honestly prefer world where I can eat female steak on plate, inb4 this is actually a normal world…

Women find this attractive but I’ll never do it.

I do want to punch him though, he’s heckin’ hezbollah (i am a fake terrorist so cool, right? tehehehehe)

Okay? I believe in disciplining. I am gonna isolate myself from web tomorrow outside of uploading the rest of toubou videos on my channel. I was thinking about few other stuff… in short, I have 4 more non-touhou videos to upload, a bunch of touhou videos and few schizobabble nonsense that I probably will chose not to upload till later.

I was thinking of uploading the other shit with erotic novel reviews but I’ve reconsidered it to be awful and shameful to large extent. I am sure people can tolerate stuff like that but only if I look normie already. Anyway, review of taimanin will probably never be uploaded any time soon.

It is my duty to return chudpol.ru to its original glory.

I feel like starving today and few days ago might remove some of the weight gains, but getting lean is my goal. I might have sped up to extreme though, firstly i drink protein and then feel like almost dying, without enough water and carbs it is impossible for me to process glycogen enough, i don’t know medicine stuffs…. But if i eat carbs i still need to be in calorie deficit, one way or another i will be getting skinnier, all that monthly progress might jave been in vain.

But Ive heard one doesnt lose muscles quickly, I drink protein but I only eat light salad and very foods.

That said I feel headwise dizzy and its second time I remember messing up proportions of protein, drink too much and my head becomes hell, heart is aching feel like I’d die.

I’ve been reading higurashi so far and i am honestly going nuts with starvation, its definitely not good but ive eaten quite a bit too. Its confusing….. i have trained today either and I didnt yesterday barely, because i feel so little energy plus for most of day I had no access to containers of water because the water got boiled and therefore undrinkable. Having the pretaste of chocolate flavorsd protein left for so long without water feels disgusting. I can say that I probably have lost fat but it feels… ugh horrible and i dont know jow much muscle i lose since i javent trained today i am going to sleep tomorrow is sleep

I really need to reach state of nirvana.

oh shit, i forgot

i didnt want to say that. i mean i did but what I was actually thinking in my head is

"there are weak and strong cultures"

basically japan is hedonsitic society, in my opinion

Russia is one of the shittiest countries ever made.

But russian, ukranian cultures, they are strong, so is polish and bulgariran for example, and so is greek culture.

But american and british cultures are not that much, like american makes video " I dig 1000000000000000000 blocks in minecraft"

1

million subnscribers, CONGRADULATIONS! probably waUY FUCKING More

BUT

then they complain about being replaced, about the shit like conspiracy

when you waste your time on stupid shit you

complain your culture disappearing WHAT IS YOUR CULTURE?

YOU DON'T HAVE CULTURE. YOU LIVE OFF PAST..

that SAID ; I am sorry, if you make a video of digging a block in minecraft, i should be able to hit you every time you dig a oneth of million of these blocks

with my pole

CLANK

"oh here is another block. i am so sigma."

CLANK!

I should be able to kill you by second, I am sure of my skill but I will do it 1 million if needed.

260 million CLANK CLANK CLANK CLANK CLANK CLANK ......

Imagine someone liking your country like this, rock paper scissors tourism shit, japanese are really obsessed with big russian cock.

I am gonna watch this video, then get back to work, here watch with me.