I Know It's For The Better

People who criticize The Punisher for being “too dark and violent” are blowing right past the fact that every man on the show is canonically whipped as fuck and soft for the women in their lives.

wait. making these tags a separate post. this is about the heart drawing.

#look. i have this headcanon. and it's not quite as romantic but.#i really.#i think since buck was helping chris with his homework he figured out pretty quickly - if not right away#that he was supposed to be drawing an anatomical heart#but the thing is they've all had a hard couple of weeks#and chris's homework attempts and smiles are half-hearted at best#so he makes a game of it - 'i bet i can draw a better heart than you'#and he hides his work from chris and goes on and on about how amazing his heart is going to be and how hard he's working on it#and when he shows chris at the end - big huge smile as he feigns ignorance of the nature of the assignment#chris laughs and it's the best sound he's heard all day#and it's an intentional silliness but it's an act of love too#he drew it to bring his family joy#and so maybe he leaves it out so eddie can see it too#and eddie doesn't smile exactly#but he does raise his eyebrows and look at buck with that semi-incredulous stare that buck's been on the other end of so often#and buck just has to duck his head and smile because#there's eddie. they're going to be okay.

Following up with dates:

6x01 - Sept 19

6x02 - Sept 26

6x03 - Oct 3

6x04 - Oct 10

6x05 - Oct 17

6x06 - Oct 24

week off

6x07 - Nov 7

6x08 - Nov 14

week off

6x09 - Nov 28

midseason break

6x10 - Feb 20

6x11 - Feb 27

6x12 - Mar 6

6x13 - Mar 13

6x14 - Mar 20

6x15 - Mar 27

week off

6x16 - Apr 10

6x17 - Apr 17

6x18 - Apr 24

today i am stuck on the moment after eddie at his most alert since he was shot asks "are you hurt" and then immediately fades once buck tells him he's okay

the bridal party

the grooms party

Anna Karenina & Alexei Vronsky in Anna Karenina. Vronsky story (tv mini-series, Russia, 2017)

A Finale Dance

As they danced in that empty, dimly lit gym hall, with none to criticise or see ,they were free from the chains that held them down. They could dance and sing to the beats of their hearts, like the day in the ice rink or the woods.

He was like fire, filled with love and compassion, twirling around letting the air guide him, as his steps were full of life.

She was like water, following through an endless ocean fording her own path, destroying those that doubted her as her heart guided her, making her steps were light and sure.

And as they dipped and lifted each other up, it was like a swirling tornado of hot and cold air. As they twirled around each other, pulling each other close and pushing each other away. Like their hearts verses the world. Forcing each other apart as they desperately wished to pull each other close.

But as the song came to an end, and the heavens finally looked away they knew that it would never be the same even if they wished it to be. They needed each other, to dance, to believe, to be.  

But now was not the time, not for them but for the world. So as they stepped apart they decided to let the stars die, before something tried to kill it. Cause they weren't ready for the task ahead, they weren't ready to make history. Not ready to write all the desperately needed to be written, to show all that needed to be known.

Cause they were just two people with stars in their hearts wishing to reunite, they were people with a thousands of stories of tragedy hidden on their skin and a fire in their eyes. They had no armour, no skin of steel, no hearts with barricades. They were just two people wishing to hold each other, two people with souls who have never had the time. Two souls that fell at the wrong time and in the same way.

And so in that empty, dimly lit gym they knew that the right time would never come, it would always be to late or to early. But they couldn't risk it. They no longer had army's guarding their hearts or armour guarding their skin they were human. And they were carrying exhausted souls through the same streets of tragedy, carrying they same love and pain.

So as they looked at each other, hearts heavy, souls tired and deeply in love they turned away. Each walking their own path waiting for a when the time was right. But they knew that the only chance would be to look back and run to each other.

However that  would be the guilt and pain they would bear. Alone and healing, wishing for another dance.

But time goes on. Even in heart ships, they will heal, cause they've survived a lot more hardships trying and failing of course. One day though they may succeed. They might get that last dance.

Supporting Native Organizations on Indigenous Peoples’ Day

It’s Indigenous Peoples’ Day (#f*ckColumbus) - what better way to commemorate the day and show solidarity than to support Native organizations and social media accounts. I’ve put together the following list to help get you started:

Native Roots Farm Foundation (https://www.nativerootsde.org/): A non-profit organization dedicated to “celebrating Native American cultures, protecting open space, cultivating a public garden, and practicing sustainable” founded by fellow alum Courtney Streett ‘09

SLC Air Protectors (@SLCAir): Native-led 501c3 that addresses the air pollution in Utah, while supporting Indigenous stewardship; Venmo: SLC-AirProtectors

Indigenous Peoples Day NYC (https://ipdnyc.org/):  A 24 hour celebration of dance, culture, and ceremony on Lanapehoking/Randall’s Island, NYC

Lakota People’s Law Project (IG: @lakotalaw)

Honor the Earth (https://www.honorearth.org/)

Indigenous Food Lab (IG: @indigenousfoodlab): An org focused on creating access to Indigenous education & foods

Tewa Women United (https://tewawomenunited.org/): Located in the Tewa homelands, the org works to grow community and end violence against women, girls, and the earth

Indigenous Women Rising (https://www.iwrising.org/): An org focused on sexual health and reproductive justice accessibility for Native families

Native American Rights Fund (https://www.narf.org/): “Since 1970, the Native American Rights Fund (NARF) has provided legal assistance to Indian tribes, organizations, and individuals nationwide who might otherwise have gone without adequate representation.”

Indian Law Resource Center (https://indianlaw.org/)

Land Rights Now (https://www.landrightsnow.org/): An org that mobilizes and engages active citizens, media, communities and organizations worldwide to promote and secure the land rights of Indigenous Peoples and local communities.

American Indian College Fund (https://collegefund.org/)

Indigenous Environmental Network (https://www.ienearth.org/)

Coalition to Stop Violence Against Native Women (IG: @csvanw; https://www.csvanw.org/)

Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women USA (https://mmiwusa.org/)

Partnership with Native Americans (http://www.nativepartnership.org/site/PageServer?pagename=pwna_home): A 501 ©(3) nonprofit organization “committed to championing hope for a brighter future for Native Americans living on remote, isolated and impoverished reservations.”

Native American Heritage Association (https://www.naha-inc.org/):  NAHSA is a charitable non-profit organization dedicated to “helping Native American families in need living on Reservations in South Dakota and Wyoming”

Inuit Tapirit Kanatami (https://www.itk.ca/help-inuit-communities-thrive/):  Works to improve the health and wellbeing of Inuit in Canada “through research, advocacy, public outreach and education.”

Native Wellness Institute (https://www.nativewellness.com/)

Warrior Women Project (https://www.warriorwomen.org/)

The Redhawk Native American Art Council (https://www.redhawkcouncil.org/): A not for profit organization “founded and maintained by Native American artists and educators serving the tristate [New York] area.”

Indigenous People’s Power Project (https://www.ip3action.org/who-we-are/): A nonviolent direct action training and support network “advancing Indigenous communities’ ability to exercise their inherent rights to environmental justice, cultural livelihood, and self-determination”

Alaska Rising Tide (IG: @alaskarisingtide)

Native Womens Wilderness (IG: @nativewomenswilderness; https://www.nativewomenswilderness.org/):  A nonprofit organization with the purpose of “inspiring and raising the voices of Native Women in the Outdoor Realm.”  

Sacramento Native American Health Center (https://www.snahc.org/)

You know, camping is lovely - even though I don’t live in a state that’s so great for it