AND THE COYOTES HOWLED, Lev St. Valentine, Part I

Electra drives me insane she's really like. This family tree is rotten and so I am rotten but the rot will end with me. And yes the father that lives in my memory is a fantasy and a stranger to the man that really lived but he's dead and every memory of the dead is a fantasy. And yes my father did horrible things but he did those things because he had to, I have to believe he did them because he had to. And maybe if he had lived, he would have loved me and I am so starved of love that I will beg for it from the graves of dead men. Yes this woman gave birth to me and shaped me into the wretched form I am today. No she is not my mother. Yes I hate her. No I can't remember a time when she didn't hate me. Yes I am desperate for her to love me. No I would rather die than do something to earn her love. No I am nothing like her. Yes I look into the mirror and see my mother, and I hate her, so I hate me. Yes I believe my brother remembers and loves me and will come and save me. No I don't know what he looks like or if he's still alive. Yes I love my brother unconditionally. No I don't really know my brother. Yes I know my brother intrinsically because he is the other half of my soul. No I don't believe he's coming. Yes I love him anyway because I am destined to love men who leave me behind in this house. This house that has been built on the bones of my murdered family, killed by my family, and their blood has poisoned the roots. Yes this house is my home. Yes this house hates me, and what does it mean when your home is also your prison? Yes I want to leave this house. No I will never leave this house. Yes this house has always been haunted. I am the thing that is haunting this house.

life is just [when mitski said “mom, would you wash my back? this once and then we can forget” and killing eve said “clean your face” “can you do it?” “you’re not a child” “I want to feel like one. please, can you do it?” and @maiabaia said “mother, eat me and give birth to me again, this time around I’ll make you proud” and @inkskinned said “mom can you come get me things are getting bad again and i feel every insult like a sharp tooth and i feel my dreams rotting under my fingernails”]

day 167 | excerpt from ‘the worm king’s lullaby’ by richard siken [id in alt]

harasses u classically

harasses you historically

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i have been listening to @mothercain almost exclusively this week

paradise lost satan really said “i tried to do something and i failed, and now i realize that i was always destined to fail, and i want revenge for that but i also see that my every effort to spite authority will just satisfy that authority more. so i guess i will just be as good as i possibly can be at the role that i now know i was always meant to play, in which the more i succeed, the more i’ll disgrace myself. i cannot escape. i never could have escaped. i am going to be the adversary, and i am going to destroy myself, and there is nothing i can do about it. ok. ok. let’s get started.”

i just wanted to be yours, can I be yours?

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I know I can’t shut up about this painting today so I drew it. ivan the terrible and his son ivan as kiva & rin and I’ve already explained why they’re so RAKAJHAHHAHAHAH

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