Am I Happy? Yet Another Difficult Question. Of Course I'm Going To Lie When I'm Not. I'll Always Say

Hi

Hey!

"Everything I let go of to forget you came back the second you said 'hey'."

-2 A.M. Thoughts (via. Wounded-Writing)

A sleepless night isn't as bad as it could be when I am talking with you.

2 am Thoughts

I'd like to say that I'm alive. But I can't. I feel more like a ghost as I walk through the halls, my touch barely changing anything as I go past. My voice only a whisper in the wind as I yell for help out of the repeating hell. Because to be alive, you just be doing something extraordinary. Otherwise, you become something of a shadow left to watch as everyone forgets about you.

I'd love to feel alive

You told me you liked magic, I like magic too. I love the targeted deception, almost like feelings, but with a fire pit inside. Like how your touch is like the trick I pull when I say 'pick a card'. How your breath against my skin is nothing more than an illusionist's touch on their own special segment. You told me you liked magic. Little did I know your favorite trick was the disappearing act.

Now You Don't

You wouldn’t know how good I am at lying until you give me a reason to trust you.

I don’t even trust myself

Falling for you was the easiest thing I’ve done. Falling felt like going to bed after a long day. Like admiring nature after the hike to get there. It felt like knowing I was home after being away for so long. It felt like wishing I had gotten the courage to speak to you sooner.

Would you still love me knowing you could never make me happy? Or is that too much to ask for?

Six feet under

Your eyes are the sky. Your voice is the earth. And your hug is what keeps me grounded.

Before you left

I wish my crush asks me out. It's cliche I know, but he does make me really happy more than 50% of the time and he's the only one I've talked to since my best friend left for the army. I hope this works.

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)