Why Do I Continue To Make Myself Look Like An Idiot Even After You've Left And I've Stated To Fall Away?

I don't know what happened for fate, or destiny, or maybe just sheer coincidence, to push us together, but I have a feeling that whatever happens from here will only strengthen the nonexistent bond that we have yet to form.

Inside the Artist #4

I still fake my smiles, but around you I feel as if I don’t need to.

My wounds start to heal around you

A sleepless night isn't as bad as it could be when I am talking with you.

2 am Thoughts

Why me? Why now? Why this? Why me? Out of all the other girls who would pay to have you attention for even a minute you chose me, someone who never came to you to seek any. I’ve admired you for a while but you never felt the same way, so why now? I have so many questions in my mind about why you have taken an interest in me, but I won’t get a straight answer even if I asked. So I’ll wait until we get close to ask. But before we do anything…. Why this?

I don't know what to think

You wouldn’t know how good I am at lying until you give me a reason to trust you.

I don’t even trust myself

If you ever wonder how much I love you, remember that I started to cry when we talked about what would happened if we lost each other to death or someone else. And you walked out to your car, you had to hug me close and wipe away my tears, because you brought up how you’d play our stuffed dog until it broke because it said ‘I love you’ in both of our voices.

That’s how much I love you

"Thank you for putting a smile on my face even when I was one of the darkest places I have ever been."

- I forgot to thank you (via. Wounded-Writing)

I never thought missing someone could hurt so much. Then I lost you.

I'll be fine

The shower is the only place I don’t crave your touch. The warmth of the water is the only thing that reminds me of your body on mine.

I miss you

How do I get myself to not fall for you? You with the messy hair and kind eyes, and the mouth that spouts so much sarcasm. You, also with the kindness to respond to my text messages and make me happy even when you don't realize it. So tell me, how do I not fall for you? And why was it so easy to in the first place?

Before practice when I sit with you and our friends