My Boyfriend Doesn’t Wanna Go For Another Walk

Oh yeah! If anyone was curious, I was 204lbs on Monday when I started fasting & am now 196lbs! Don’t worry, I know some of that is likely to just be water weight… but I’m still pretty happy 😄

Managed 12,135 steps today! Haven’t exactly had a great day calorie-wise since we ate out for lunch (again 😫), but at least I’ve done a decent amount of exercise to burn at least a little bit of that food..

yeah mom im ok i just dont want to be alive haha

Also ate wayyy more of the Chinese takeout than I’d originally planned 😅 at least I haven’t eaten anything else today though… I guess…

I genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna survive this next week while he’s off before he starts his new job on the 24th 😫 can’t fast until then & can’t really restrict much either… I hate this… ugh

That’s my plan now he’s back home. Just to only eat when I actually have to because he’s around (should be just one meal a day, dinner). Obviously means I’ll have to eat normally on Saturdays and Sundays because they’re his days off… but I at least that’s only two days a week. I should still lose a decent amount of weight decently fast since I’ll only be eating one meal a day most of the week

I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to deal with the fact he now has a work phone that I can’t access

My boyfriend just got back home, by the way

I should be happy… but I’m just anxious af

sorry for looking like i just cried for an hour. it’s just that i cried for an hour