(Ex-)questioning culture is using self-insert rpgs to explore gender, getting used to your transname being standard fare for games, and then going "aw fuck now I need a new character name" upon realizing you're cis, bc now your transname has started to feel like a deadname (/neu)
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Yesterday I tried to explain to my parents the difference between a transvestite and a transgender person and my dad was like "oh so you know everything about trans people now" like ironically. And I smiled with the dramatic irony of someone whose parents don't even know their baby daughter likes to be called a he/him on social media and queer spaces
i've decided that if i'm gonna go thru some shit, i'm gonna get some interactions out of it
First entry in a while, huh?
I hit a local barbershop on Monday and got my beard shaved off. Looking in the mirror for the next day or 2 kept making 🎶the person in the mirror isn’t me🎶 pop into my head, but since that’s passed, I think it was a reaction to not having that level of protection from weight shit (since that aspect is still here) and not a bad reaction to taking the next step in social transition.
Still dreading the inevitable coming out convo w/ my parents, and still stressing over writing the transname letter to my profs, but nothing so far is dissuading me from transition: I felt (and still actively feel) happier than (almost certainly) I felt all summer. I think this is the right choice, I just need to get over non-trans-related appearance fears to be really happy.
i blog for the ppl in their 20s being slowly driven insane by living with parents theyre closeted to ONLY!!!!
Ralsapril Day 7 - Robe
Ralsei in a Yukata counts as a robe right?