All I Can Remember

Deadly Depths

Endless ocean of mercury

Unfathomable waters

Devouring the hearts

Swallowing the souls

Not a single ray of light

Ever hit the bottom

Not a single entity

Ever returned to surface

This treasure’s a reflection

Danger - Keep Away

I'm torn between trust and mistrust

And the thought of my betrayal of you

Fills me with guilt, shame and disgust.

I'm so sorry that I hurt you bad and

I wish I wouldn't have done that to you

So I tear my heart apart in deep regret.

Lost myself somewhere

Traveling the path and I

Found myself again

Sie sagen

Sprich über deine Sorgen

Es ist ok, Hilfe anzunehmen,

Aber wenn ich drüber rede

Oder um Hilfe bitte wird mir gesagt

Dass man mir leider nicht helfen kann.

Ich kann nicht mehr.

Ich hab keine Kraft mehr.

Keine Kraft aufzustehen.

Keine Kraft zu funktionieren.

Keine Kraft weiter zu machen.

Keine Kraft für die Rückschläge.

Keine Kraft den Schmerz zu tragen.

Ich kann nicht mehr.

For you it was love and war

Planted cluster bombs 

Between my ribs

Turned passion into crime

Came back to the scene

On your guilt trips

With your favorite knife

3 stabs into your heart

And 3 into mine

In your spider webs of lies

I hung on for dear life

And you set it on fire

Droplets

Drip..

Drip....

Drip...

The sound of the water crashing onto the porcelain pierces my ears.

But it's not that kind of piercing, not the 'gotta stand up and fix this'-type.

And even if I would like to stand up to fix it, I couldn't. I'm frozen, falling into the abyss, in a timeless place without any meaning. Everything's so meaningless.

And I'm just like these droplets, falling.

Falling deeper..

deeper....

And deeper...

Grauer Tag,

Verschleiert in unsichtbarem Nebel.

Ich kann nicht wirklich sehen, 

Was ich gerade sehe.

Oder will ich es nicht sehen,

Was da gerade vor mir steht?

Ich steh versteinert in Bewegung

während die Welt um mich sich dreht.

Frozen tears

 on the windows 

  obfuscate the

Stone sculptures of pain

 in the garden 

  of withered roses

Dreadful nightmares

 haunt the

  dilapidated rooms

Sometimes

I collapse

Every part

Inside of me

Breaks down

And I lose

Every sense

Of Time

And belonging

The only

Feeling left

Of an impending

Doom.

Silent Cry

Really if I'd knew how to

I would just take care of me

but every attempt falls trough

in absence of some air to breath.

Made all the moves I know my dear

wishing you'd say something

and every word untold by me

screams in deep despair darling.