Part 3, Last One. Final Results On Malika In A Royal Dress, Which I Might Redo It In The Future. That

HUGE UPDATE

The surgery is done and it was a outpatient surgery so I was in for almost two hours, apparently I was there a bit too long and they won't say anything why. So let me tell you everything that happened, I am a bit traumatized after the surgery and it's not because of the pain or anything.

So again, we woke up 5 in the morning for me to shower my body and hair, left around 6 to go all way to the city to the hospital. Traffic was a bit crazy but we got there a bit late but they got me in fast. I was actually almost having a panic attack on the walk inside, elevator freak me out, how the car parking building is so low and we own a suburban. But when we were call in, the nurses were nothing but experience on their job and extremely nice to me. I soon told them that I am autistic and I was really nervous so they were gentle. I personally am afraid of needles but I only had three of sleep last night cause I was so scared so I was a bit tired but they made me feel safe, I joke around and talk with them, one of them gave me a donation bag with activities to calm me more, they were understanding to me. Soon, I was transferred to the waiting room to enter the operating room. I was still scared that I won't wake up but I want to put a brave face for my mom before they took me away. When they prep me in the bed, I was already tired from the lack of sleep that I fell asleep before they can hook me into the anesthesia.

When I woke up, my eyes were watery and I can hear myself crying, I didn't remember where I was or why I was there for a while but the "nurse" taking care of me was telling me to go back to sleep cause I awoke up as soon I was transported to the recovering room. I thought and told that I won't have dreams so I have no problem during the sleep, I have problem sleeping that I won't sleep at all cause the nightmares are extremely painful, but I got a nightmare during it and it made me more scared. The nurse was extremely rude, saying that I need to stop crying and that they can't let my mom in if I "scared" her off.

People need to understand something, the first nurses that prep me for the surgery understood this, I have separation anxiety from my family, imagine waking up to a bed and don't remember where you are, why your arms are in extreme pain, and where your family who you are so close is at. You have a nurse yelling at you to stop crying and being a baby.

I was having a fucking panic attack and an episode during this whole thing, I just wanted to see my mom, in my head, I thought I was dead and wanted to see her one more time but the lady keep yelling that I wasn't dead and I need to stop crying like a baby. This woman may not know my history but it's not nice to say that to a drugged up panicking teenager. When I say saw my mom, I grab her hand the whole time cause I was scared of the lady and I'm happy to see my mom alright. (I'm actually crying as I'm writing this, this really hurt me more than I thought)

While the lady still act the same with my mom there and left for a second, my mom was piss and wanted to slap her. I was so drugged up that I cry again that I was scared of the lady, apparently I'm more emotional when I'm fucked up. Soon, they move me to a different room and my sister trade with my mom to give me a stuff animal I brought to calm me more down, my sister witnesses me when the lady and another nurse made fun of me about what I hate to eat. I didn't like coconut milk or jelly so they said that they bet that I like chocolate cake which I'm dumbly said yes cause it's very true I love sweets and chocolate. My sister didn't say anything but when we left, I was still sad after everything. I'm just glad I don't stay in there anymore.

I just want to say that it was not what I guess was going to happen but it saddens me that there are people that are so stuck up about themselves and that she didn't care that my sister and mom see her actions. I'm going to meet the doctor in two weeks about the armpits and I'm staying in the house cause my family didn't want my wounds to get infected from the virus here, luckily there is no case about it in my town (Update: I just jinxed myself there..there are about 30 cases here and we are kind of quarantine in our house..) but people are panicking that my sister might not have enough things for food, diapers, and toilet papers. I agreed that everyone are panicking so bad that they don't care about other lives, not leaving some things for my sister or other people like us. But I am not going to step on that drama, people just need to remember to clean themselves and stop acting like idiots over something that they can stay away from, it's like people don't want to shower and be dirty and nasty. Luckily, we have a clean freak grandma that comes by to clean the house in bleach.

Lance is easy to draw actually, but of course I always put a perk in my drawings. This Lance is a main character in my draft, Swim. In a accident, he got hurt on his eyes, years later, it turn into a scar. Give him loves!

I remember this, I try to do a comic on Half Human since I love drawing but I sucked on it and comics for me are very hard so I abandoned it. I felt a bit off with it but looking back make me realise, I came this far from a self-taught learner to a bit of a pro at drawing. I’m speechless!

So...I was practicing my drawings and I waned to see the difference between my drawing on paper vs digital. And...

Its..a little crappy but like I said, I'm practicing!!!

This is just a wolf I thought from Amber in Hidden Crystals but...I plan something more then this.

A oc but she is not going to be on a draft, A Mother’s Voice. Rest in peace, unnamed shady girl

This is Malika McClain, a character in my draft book, BLACK. There are three parts of of this. This is just her main clothes. You can recreate it, my coloring pencils are not trusted. **UPDATE: I have a better set up so I might redo this.**

So I want to show you how I draw my way, it's weird but it gets the job done under an hour.

I doing a new cover for a book I published. I just wanted to show you how I draw.

So I use a big or small sketch book, it depends what I want to draw but I'm drawing eyes. So I use my imagination and sketch with a 2H sketching pencil (light tone).

As you noticed, I made some mistakes. Happens all the time.

Next, I use a 2B pencil to sketching it and add more details to the eyes.

Now, this is the best part, coloring!

I grab what I need, mostly Markers and Color Pencils.

Now I try a new trick with the coloring. It actually an old trick I use a lot when I was a kid, use markers on the outside and color pencils in the inside. You'll see.

I use a black marker to do the eyes lines and the details.

Then, I color the lines.

To clean this up, I erase the pencil lines and make it look like I use the marker only ;)

Next, I kind of fill it in with the markets.

Lastly, I color the rest in color pencil! The end result!

For the other eyes, I repeat this and put my signature and date and.....

¡Boom!

Thanks for reading this crap 😂😂😂

The book cover is a little slow but I had to reset it since I didn't feel...confident with it but hey! New drawing!

Plus little side note, been playing Sky: Children of the Light a lot and I enjoy playing with the other players too!

That's me if you light my candle! Don't be shy to say hi! I'll be by the entrance to the office, I just found out about it but I don't have the blue cape 😔

My characters from one of my books, Half Human. They’re the main characters, mostly the girl that look like she was in battle ;), Drifter.

Hello everybody! Been a while, huh? I got big and personal news to share with everyone. But let me explain a bit of things about this picture.

This picture is the new cover for The Reina Rex (TRR), I'm wrote a message in Wattpad that I'm reworking the books again and the Hidden Crystals is on hold for now. I wanted to fix some mistakes or change so plot to make it better, understandable, and enjoyable. I wanted to try digital drawings so the covers look clear and better looking than on a paper with some crappy lighting from my phone camera.

I recently got a new phone, the old one didn't want to let me download games or apps that I need to use (Plus it was badly cracked on the screen, my fingers are still alive) so I upgrade a better one and now the memory space is very roomy. It also came with a pen so I use it for the drawing like a pencil I can now download the app I'm useing for the drawings.

I'm using IbisPaint for the drawings, I been using it for a while and it's amazing! 🤩

I will be very honest with you guys, I am using some pictures to help me draw the positions I want but I am not copying it and will take as mine, I putting my own details and colors in there. If you want to know what pictures. Check them below, they are photos from the Jurassic World: The Game and the hybrid dinosaur toys.

I will be gone for a few day, hell months cause I'm am going into emergency surgery. They will call me a 24 hours notice but we don't know what day but it have to be within this week. I don't think I will able to move my arms but we'll seen.

I will post another note about this personal problem and it related to the surgery. I will explain more detail on that post but for now, be patient.

Anyways, if anyone got any questions about this, ask away, don't be shy! Now, I will talking soon again when I get well rested.