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The difference between constructive criticism and criticism is nothing because I will cry at both

Panel redrawing?

Real because, how can you forgive a villain who's killed 30+ civilians in cold blood, but not a man who's actively trying to ammend what he broke years ago ??

Both are terrible, by the way. Endeavor shouldn't get away with abuse, of course, but what will clear his name again ? Like, what does he have to DO for you to be satisfied 🫵?? Like where is the line drawn if you can forgive an active serial killer, but not an abuser who wants to atone for his actions ??

There's just so much nuance to it, it's not black and white, like with villains, sure they kill people, but they're also actively dismantling the society that shunned them. Most people can see why the villain feels justified. Endeavor abused his family, but he's trying to ammend that. Why can't people just see it for what it is mannnnn 😭

He's literally willing to step out of their lives if it puts them at ease because he now understands how much he put them through, that he doesn't deserve to be a part of their lives anymore because he ruined the first half of them.

Usually, when people want a redemption arc, the WHOLE POINT of the redemption is for that character to understand where they went wrong. And then the next step is for the character to ammend their mistakes.

IS THAT NOT WHAT ENDEAVOR IS DOING ??

just saw another endeavor hate post so please let me reiterate again: i love endeavor. you will never take this fucked up old man away from me. i will be writing endeavor fic one of these days and i hope it makes everyone who hates him mad

call me crazy if you want but i believe that supporters of villain redemption can’t complain about endeavor being redeemed. and everyone should in some respect support villain redemption because that’s something of a thesis throughout the show (i.e., all these people needed was someone to reach out to them). but if you can redeem a killer of dozens (or hundreds, or thousands) and yet can’t stomach a man who is doing everything he knows how to heal what he hurt? [points at door] go away

“kats he abused his—” i don’t care. do i need to bring back my post about how forgiveness is essential to one’s own growth. even if they don’t forgive him, he’s fine with that because he’s not trying to improve to win their forgiveness. he’s trying to improve because deep down he’s a good person. and that, sirs and madams, is what i care about

in short: endeavor i love you and the fandom can pry that love from my cold dead hands

Anyone else want to cry from stress? I’ve been so swamped with work from my classes and chores that I had almost no free time. And in what little free time I did have I mostly played Spiritfarer and read fanfiction. I haven’t spent time on my here in what feels like ages. >:(

If turtles can live from 10 to possibly hundreds of years then how long would the teenage mutant ninja turtles live for no matter which iteration it is?

Would it be the same for their species? Would it be the equivalent of the age in human years? Would it be half a turtles age because of the mutation? Would they live longer? If in the rottmnt universe how would the mystic powers affect the aging process? Would it be the same or would it make cells die quicker or slower?

I legitimately want to know and this will bug me for so long because of it.

HUGE UPDATE

The surgery is done and it was a outpatient surgery so I was in for almost two hours, apparently I was there a bit too long and they won't say anything why. So let me tell you everything that happened, I am a bit traumatized after the surgery and it's not because of the pain or anything.

So again, we woke up 5 in the morning for me to shower my body and hair, left around 6 to go all way to the city to the hospital. Traffic was a bit crazy but we got there a bit late but they got me in fast. I was actually almost having a panic attack on the walk inside, elevator freak me out, how the car parking building is so low and we own a suburban. But when we were call in, the nurses were nothing but experience on their job and extremely nice to me. I soon told them that I am autistic and I was really nervous so they were gentle. I personally am afraid of needles but I only had three of sleep last night cause I was so scared so I was a bit tired but they made me feel safe, I joke around and talk with them, one of them gave me a donation bag with activities to calm me more, they were understanding to me. Soon, I was transferred to the waiting room to enter the operating room. I was still scared that I won't wake up but I want to put a brave face for my mom before they took me away. When they prep me in the bed, I was already tired from the lack of sleep that I fell asleep before they can hook me into the anesthesia.

When I woke up, my eyes were watery and I can hear myself crying, I didn't remember where I was or why I was there for a while but the "nurse" taking care of me was telling me to go back to sleep cause I awoke up as soon I was transported to the recovering room. I thought and told that I won't have dreams so I have no problem during the sleep, I have problem sleeping that I won't sleep at all cause the nightmares are extremely painful, but I got a nightmare during it and it made me more scared. The nurse was extremely rude, saying that I need to stop crying and that they can't let my mom in if I "scared" her off.

People need to understand something, the first nurses that prep me for the surgery understood this, I have separation anxiety from my family, imagine waking up to a bed and don't remember where you are, why your arms are in extreme pain, and where your family who you are so close is at. You have a nurse yelling at you to stop crying and being a baby.

I was having a fucking panic attack and an episode during this whole thing, I just wanted to see my mom, in my head, I thought I was dead and wanted to see her one more time but the lady keep yelling that I wasn't dead and I need to stop crying like a baby. This woman may not know my history but it's not nice to say that to a drugged up panicking teenager. When I say saw my mom, I grab her hand the whole time cause I was scared of the lady and I'm happy to see my mom alright. (I'm actually crying as I'm writing this, this really hurt me more than I thought)

While the lady still act the same with my mom there and left for a second, my mom was piss and wanted to slap her. I was so drugged up that I cry again that I was scared of the lady, apparently I'm more emotional when I'm fucked up. Soon, they move me to a different room and my sister trade with my mom to give me a stuff animal I brought to calm me more down, my sister witnesses me when the lady and another nurse made fun of me about what I hate to eat. I didn't like coconut milk or jelly so they said that they bet that I like chocolate cake which I'm dumbly said yes cause it's very true I love sweets and chocolate. My sister didn't say anything but when we left, I was still sad after everything. I'm just glad I don't stay in there anymore.

I just want to say that it was not what I guess was going to happen but it saddens me that there are people that are so stuck up about themselves and that she didn't care that my sister and mom see her actions. I'm going to meet the doctor in two weeks about the armpits and I'm staying in the house cause my family didn't want my wounds to get infected from the virus here, luckily there is no case about it in my town (Update: I just jinxed myself there..there are about 30 cases here and we are kind of quarantine in our house..) but people are panicking that my sister might not have enough things for food, diapers, and toilet papers. I agreed that everyone are panicking so bad that they don't care about other lives, not leaving some things for my sister or other people like us. But I am not going to step on that drama, people just need to remember to clean themselves and stop acting like idiots over something that they can stay away from, it's like people don't want to shower and be dirty and nasty. Luckily, we have a clean freak grandma that comes by to clean the house in bleach.

help ✨

don't you just hate it when you love a book or something and then the person who created this awesome thing turns out to be a douche? like all of these horrible people make cool things and I can't help but feel a bit betrayed ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

Was gonna just leave this as is but I think I’m gonna render this one so I can put them on my UnVale account. So that will be coming up sometime. I also bought a proper drawing pad so once that comes I’m gonna set that up.

Have a messy sketch

The arms only took me 30 minutes today so yayyyy…. Had to stop because I’ve been doing this for who knows how long. Need to get a drawing tablet my iPad takes forever to charge even on a fast charger ;-;

idk, just thought I would post it, no particular reason

Sometimes I think about the scene from Cinderella 3 were Anastasia reunited Cinderella and the prince and compare it to the scene from KH2 were Kairi reunions Sora and Riku.

I'm crying

I speed drew this for chalk the walk at my school, the submission deadline was today, I’ve never sped drew something so quickly in my life ;-;

Isn’t really good but I hope you guys like it at least