Cries In A Positive Way

cries its so beautiful

discovering the trend of “dopamine” dressing/decorating was so hilarious to me…

whats the point of doing life any other way??? are people really wearing clothes that dont make them happy?? and decorating their house in a way that doesnt brighten their day?? 😭😭

i was so confused like have i completely misunderstood society. no wonder people call me eccentric and weird.

i just assumed the things that make me happy were different to what makes others happy, not that they just.. were completely not having that as their goal in the first place.

pls surround yourself with things that make life sparkle guys i beg of u its the best way to live

mate idfk but here we are this is now my side blog ig

me when i made this account upset that i couldnt get “zylahbee” as my account name only to discover IM THE ONE WHO HAS TAKEN IT 😭😭 i somehow have another tumblr i didnt know about i love memory problems 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

I FEEL SO SILLYYYYY

you naturally grow out of a lot of unhealthy habits and I think that something that seeing obsessive self improvement culture in the early twenties crowd makes me sad about like. you will start to drink less as your world changes, you will get better at habits as your world stabilizes. your sense of self will solidify as you make mistakes waste time and figure out what works for you and what does not thru your own bodies rejection of it. you’ll be called to sleep earlier and wake sooner and to move your body bc it won’t bounce back with out stretching it out first like there are reasons older people are more regimented bc they don’t need to experiment as much anymore to find out what’s functional. It’s not 1 size fits all

agreed, making things i need pretty?? instantly changes my perspective on it.

decorating my feeding pump and using fun tube tape has done wonders for my mental health and not being able to intake much besides water by mouth. making things your own when you're disabled is such a necessity for me. 

ive been avoiding my shower for months (been using literally any other shower) but i finally used it today and i didnt even cry so i think 2025 is going pretty good so far fingers crossed everybody manifest tysm

okay it got better for sureeee!!

its a bit of a slow start for me personally, but i thoroughly enjoyed the 2/3 and then the 3/3 even more!

im not sure if i will get the sequel or not, ill read a few more books and see if im still thinking about emily wilde after that.

spoilers below

wendell and emily’s dynamic is hilarious after the proposal. they are so direct with each other normally, but when it comes to romance they just avoid actually speaking of it as such.

i really enjoyed how the town accepted emily’s way of being, that she is not good with attention or small talk or pleasantries. they didnt demand any kind of thanks from her, they knew she was thankful without it.

3.5/5 ⭐️

im reading emily wilde’s encyclopaedia of faeries right now and im not sure how i feel about it.

like i like it dont get me wrong. i eat anything up that has fairies of any kind.

but im a very.. emotional person, and so the format of the book being emily’s diary, and her being quite a.. professional and almost stoic? person, doesnt quite engage me as much.

maybe she taps into her emotions later in the story (i’m about a 1/3 of the way through) so idk!! thats just my thoughts so far

its really confusing when youve had a traumatic childhood, but your adult life has been really traumatic too.

because on the one hand i have so much nostalgia for my childhood and i long for it, but on the other hand it really wasnt that great.. i just had less responsibility for my health.

i feel like im constantly searching for when i felt safe, but im not even sure if there was really a time where i truely felt safe.

i think thats why i love engaging with media from my childhood so much, its what helped me escape as a kid and im still running after that feeling.