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2016 - Blog Posts
I want to be the person I need
Me to 2017
Found out Anton who plays Chekov in Star Trek had passed away in 2016, I had no clue till recently, he is missed
The first time I ever received a D!ck Pic
Backstory: it is 2016. we started talking on Omegle chat and moved to kik. this was the first time i ever downloaded kik. i was 11 (said I was 18, looked 11) he was 18.
*after chatting for awhile*
Me: Omg I have a really cute cat! Do you want to see it?
Him: I would love to. Do you want to see my snake? He’s in my sweatpants.
“That’s a really weird place to keep your pet snakes” me thinks.
Me: yes! I love snakes! *sends photo of my pet cat, named Poppy*
Him: *sends [NOT SNAKE] photo*
I'm calling this one done, aside from getting some varnish for it. I really need to get better light bulbs. Natural light makes such a difference.
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More sketchbook doodles
I love how awkward and layered and mismatched dancers' rehearsal clothes are.
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How to Practice Drawing Hands
- have two essays due
- work on the essays until you're frustrated
- draw hands instead
- draw hands until you're frustrated
- go back to working on your essays
- repeat
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Trying to get back into the habit of drawing for the sake of drawing, rather than drawing for a finished product.
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I made a mixtape for this awful year.
You can listen to it here: Fuck 2016
1. Manifest Destiny -- Damon Albarn and Michael Nyman 2. Archie's Fades -- Xiu Xiu 3. Hate, Rain On Me -- AJJ 4. Hoist That Rag -- Tom Waits 5. Build A Wall -- Kultur Shock 6. Dead City [Live] -- Patti Smith 7. Fear Is a Man's Best Friend -- John Cale 8. Everybody Knows (Live) -- Leonard Cohen 9. Two Weeks -- FKA Twigs 10. We Build Ghost Towns From the Ground Up -- The Sad Bastard Book Club 11. Into the Night -- Xiu Xiu 12. A Winner Every Time -- Oxbow 13. (What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love And Understanding? -- Elvis Costello 14. This Year -- The Mountain Goats
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Had 4 assignments due in the same week. Using my time off to work on this painting which I swear I will actually finish before 2017.
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I didn’t feel comfortable talking about the awesome time I had at @shortrunseattle without mentioning what happened after...
That said, I had a great time and met a lot of really amazing people and if I haven’t responded to you yet, it’s because I’m having a bit of a rough time being a functioning human in light of the election. I promise I will get back to you.
Doodled in my sketchbook with pen and markers
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Debuted this @shortrunseattle and now it’s up for sale in my etsy
"Emet" is a short story about a woman and a Golem -- $10, plus shipping 5.5 x 8.5, 12 pages, full color choose media shipping and save money!
I hope to post something about the awesome time I had at Short Run, but it might be a little while because I have about three grad school assignments I’m working on. Also there’s an election tomorrow and I will either be drowning my sorrows or celebrating having dodged the Apocalypse.
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Step Out Into Your Short Shorts - $12.50
A collection of 16 fashion studies
This collection is risograph printed. Due to the nature of risograph printing, each print is slightly different, making each zine a unique art piece.
8x10,16 pages
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grad school has helped me level up my procrastination skills
while avoiding reading and homework, I taught myself how to use Sculptris and created a bust of a character for a huge sprawling comic that may never actually happen!
I’m pretty pleased, what with this being my first sculpt and all.
It’s here!
“Emet,” my 12 page, full color comic will debut at @shortrunseattle on November 5th!
It’ll be available on my etsy store after Short Run.
(and before anyone goes “Women don’t wear tefillin!”, the gendered usage of tefillin varies based on the form of Judaism. The majority of Orthodox Jews feel that women should not/do not need to don tefillin, most Conservative Jews hold this view as well, although there is a growing movement of Conservative Jewish women who don tefillin. Opinions among Reform Jews vary from “Women don’t need to/should not don tefillin,” to “If that’s how you practice your faith, that’s great!” to “Why are you asking me? I don’t care.”)
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Drawn on my lunch break with sharpies and crayola markers.
@turtleshroom, what’s good?
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Sneak peek at a new technique I'm using for a comic that will debut at the @shortrunseattle
This scribbly ghostly mess will ultimately be a full-color twelve page comic book.
Trying to finish work for that while also moving!
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Aaah! My first risograph printed collection of portraits!
Slap Your Cheeks for Color -- $12.50
A collection of 16 portraits. Due to the nature of risograph printing, each print is slightly different, making each zine a unique art piece.
This is the first in a trilogy that I hope to print and take to the Seattle Short Run. Orders of this collection help fund printing for the others!
Printing services by the wonderful Colour Code Printing, who did a bang up job and were incredibly helpful with talking me through formatting.
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Queer Code -- hard copy $5!
So... this was originally gonna be a few pages explaining “queer coding” but the further I got in it, the more I had to say, so I chopped up the first few panels I made, rearranged them and added like 6 more pages.
When I heard they were making a tv version of “Preacher,” I decided to give the comics a read. I’d read some of Garth Ennis’ other stuff back in high school and I always heard him put up there with Neil Gaiman and Alan Moore.
By the end of the first arc in “Preacher,” I basically had to will-power my way through the rest of the comic because I wanted to know how it ended. Despite having read the whole damn thing only a few months ago, I can barely remember any of it, except for how utterly aggravated the whole thing made me. The most POSITIVE depiction of a queer character in the whole series is of a self-loathing gay cop who can only have sex with other men when they’re beating and humiliating him. THAT’S THE MOST POSITIVE DEPICTION OF A QUEER CHARACTER.
And then I recently read some contemporary manga
“Soil” -- One canon queer character. A gay man who is a serial child molester.
“One Punch-Man” -- One canon queer character. A gay man who is basically a walking prison rape joke.
“I Am a Hero” -- One canon queer character. A transgender man who is repeatedly misgendered and insulted and ultimately dies. But he’s not a rapist or a murderer, so yay representation?
I’ll admit, this comic is coming from a place of anger and disappointment. That the Big Names in Serious Graphic Novels (some of which I really enjoy and really influenced me) still have so much homophobic/transphobic content. That a lot of contemporary comics haven’t progressed much further. I don’t expect every queer character to be a hero, but when you have a mere handful of queer characters and the majority of them die or are villains, it’s a problem. I’d rather see a body horror metaphor for queerness than see another shitty canon queer trope.
Shout out to my fellow queer comic book makers. Even if you’re just xeroxing comics in the campus computer lab and giving them to friends, you are doing good work.
And if Garth Ennis wants to argue that “Preacher” isn’t homophobic, I am ready to throw down in the alley behind my apartment. And by “throw down,” I mean “debate.”
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I’m working on drawings for several zines that I hope to get riosgraph printed. I thought a neat way to get some interest for these future projects would be to show my work.
Watch me draw and listen to me ramble!
The face I’m drawing comes from a photo in “Artist’s Models 8: Practical Poses for the Working Artist.”
...aaaand here’s what I’m aiming for the final pieces to look like.
Also, I should have more copies of my “R. J. Hill: Therapist” comic for sale later in the week.
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11/14/22 UPDATE: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.
It’s here! A hard copy version of my comic -- including a ten page sequel! $5.00 + shipping
I was debating whether or not to post the sequel online. I thought maybe the sequel would be the motivator for people to buy the hard copy, but I already have mixed feelings about selling fanwork, so I’m gonna go ahead and post the sequel here.
That said, purchasing a hard copy helps me out. I’m hoping to put the money towards some color risograph zines that I can take to an upcoming comix convention.
I’m putting the sequel under a cut because, while it doesn’t contain explicit imagery, it does involve discussion of a parent making inappropriate/incestuous comments towards a child.
Click here to read more
This is as far as I had planned these comics going. I may revisit the idea, but probably not for awhile. Thanks for the wonderful messages that y’all have sent me!
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The Artistic Process
I’m here, I’m queer, and I’m gonna put my little gay hands all over everything.
Also, here’s an interview of me by Devon Douglas-Bowers of the Hampton Institute
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oops my hand slipped
(tumblr is butchering the image quality on inline pics for me, pls view on my tumblr for non-pixel death)
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Finn’s sexual awakening took place while he lived a crowded barracks amidst like a hundred other people, and Rey’s sexual awakening took place while she lived in an abandoned AT-AT miles away from anyone else, so Finn’s approach to masturbation is like “be still, be quiet, pretend you are still asleep and nothing is happening under this blanket, what could possibly be happening under this blanket? nothing because I’m asleep,” and Rey’s is like “time for screaming, it is scream time”
Which means they first time they combine their mutual sexual experience, it just stops halfway through so they can both be like, “UMMM SO I’M HAVING A GREAT TIME BUT WHAT ARE YOU DOING”
Clients’ names and personal information have been omitted to retain their privacy.
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75% of the profits from sales are donated to the Northwest Community Bail Fund and the Transgender Education Network of Texas. The remaining 25% covers the various fees of selling online.
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11/14/22 UPDATE: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.
So if you go to grad school for art therapy, you may end up taking a ferry out to an island to visit an aged psychoanalytic art therapist and present her with drawings of serial killers in exchange for her wisdom.
That's what I will be doing with my Saturday!
I'm giving her a picture of Jeffrey Dahmer and if the trip turns out to be some sort of elaborate murder mystery, please avenge my death.
Also, a collage piece about Edith Kramer and Margaret Naumburg, two early art therapists.
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