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anxiety suffering

how do I discribe this in a way. anxiety is like having all your negative emotions get rolled up into a small room and give them a rave party. ya that's a cause for a disaster. that's how alot of people feel including me. I've suffered with it for a long time. lately I've been getting anxiety attacks nonstop. I haven't slept, I haven't eaten much it's all just a big mess. lately school has been a real pain. I suffer from various health and social and mental problems. I work the hardest at things that don't need that much attention. I'm always expected perfection when really all I am is degrading. I can't keep going on like this. personally I wish sometimes that mabey i should just end myself. not with pills or guns or knifes or blades just...lie down and sleep and never wake up. I just...it hurts. after every attack I feel like s**t and I feel horrible. I have considered wanting to die but I realize my greatest mistake ever... I made friends and family. had I not this would be way easier and I wouldn't be talking to you about it at all. the pain is to much and I've suffered for 19 long years. it really really hurts... it dose

Sleepless Wolf Report

Hi guys!

Do you know the feeling when your body tells you that you need to sleep, but your brain are restless? 

My head is aching from all the nights I haven’t being sleeping well. I’m feeling anxious about my mother who is in a hospital again, luckily it’s not anything too bad. I’m also restless because I’m moving to a new apartment soon. I need to find a job to have my bills payed and have some money to spend after. I know I’m not alone with these kind of problems, but I have none to speak with, so I write them down to ease my brain. I could use them to so many more fascinating things than anxiety and mental breakdowns in the middle of the night.

StarBlaster signing out

For some reason I really like the idea of Virgil from Sanders Sides and Nico Di Angelo from the Percy Jackson series as best friends.

I feel that if they met they would become best friends. Like, hanging out, applying eyeliner, talking about cute guys, being emo, listening to music...

Reblog if you agree.

My very first digital art work. Like it?

Virgil as a necromancer. I gave him pretty basic robes, but they look fine.

Again, based of another OC, my necromancer demon one.

This is Amber:

Virgil, anyone?

Oh my boys. Sorry about the way its side ways. You'll figure it out. Just look at it sideways.

Get it!? SIDE ways!!!!!

Yeah it wasn't really that funny.

Oh my sweet little anxious child!

Found the diagnosis to my problems...

Autophobia

Morbid fear of solitude, or of being left alone, abandoned or ignored.

P.S.: Solitude is often good but the rest are just dreadful.

The wish to be alone is so wierd, you try to forget so many people and end up remembering so many things at once.

Feeling anxious because something reminded me that I am not special & irreplaceable for the people who are special & irreplaceable to me.

Finally accepting that gap between my teeth🤍

Took a long time but here I am🦩