Sad Words - Blog Posts

Sometimes it hits you exactly in your core. The realisation that you just not have that one person with whom you are never going to be angry, the person who gets your mood even before you realise, and someone to whom you can rant everything out.

Feeling anxious because something reminded me that I am not special & irreplaceable for the people who are special & irreplaceable to me.

Dear Wolrd,

The other day, I came across a video that said when someone is not meant to be with you the universe will do anything to make you two fall apart.

But, can't it see? Can't the universe see that I'm holding on a thread for that person. Can't the universe see that my soul is perishing for the person. And why is it that the universe gives me mixed feelings about that person. Are you confused too universe?

You're lonely?

You mean you write down all your feelings in a journal or as a note in your phone because you have no one to pour them out to who can truly understand you.

I easily forgive people. Rather, I would say I don't really hold grudges towards people.

But why, why is it so hard for others to forgive my mistakes. I am human too. I'm learning and trying to improve everyday too. So, why?

I want to be able to go on top of a mountain and scream to the world that I am yours.

But, it will only be possible if you accept me as yours.

Lately, I've been wanting someone to compliment me.

I have so much self hatred in myself these days that I can't look at the camera or the mirror without my smile fading.

I want someone to tell me that I'm worthy, that I'm not as bad as I think i am and that it will get better.

Oh to be a hopeless romantic in an unrequited love

I did not want to grow up.

I do not want to grow up anymore.

- We all break at a point. How long are you going to hold on?

- Forever. I'll hold on forever if I have to.

I used to be this happy soul with a goofy personality.

Now I look at people around me and wonder how they are able to smile in this chaotic world.

𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓳𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓽

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if I can feel your presence with me.

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if my racing heart and the storms in my head get calm

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if your scent will linger around me and trigger the nostalgia.

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if your arms are wrapped around me.

I wrap myself in your jacket and wish it was you instead.

I wish to make my love pure again.

𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

I love him in a way,

Inexplicable by my soul.

I love him in a way,

That can only be felt.

I love him in a way,

Where peace and chaos coexist.

I wish I could turn back time,

To when we had our first connection.

I would write our story all over again,

But this time with more experience.

I am chaos,

I am cursed,

I bring destruction to the table,

I ruin everything,

Everything that I have ever touched,

Everything that I have ever felt,

Everything...that I have ever loved.

Sometimes I feel like I want to get my life sort out. I want to be productive both mentally and physically.

But then I remember the regrets I have and the people I've hurt and my brain tell myself "You don't deserve to have a happy life."

Do you ever get sick? But it's not physical or mental. It's just emotionally sick.

There are many things that make me sad, but nothing will ever beat the bad ways you treated me.

~ honestlywhatfor