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And you are just there crying alone again, aren't you?

Maybe I want to disappear because feeling invisible hurts more than actually being gone.

I wonder if you have a song that reminds you of me.

I wonder if I'm one of the first thing you think of when you just woke up.

I wonder if you ever wish I was by your side even for some moments.

I wonder...

And because it’s been a while, here a second one !

Paradise Lost, 1873, by Gustave Doré

I've become very silent lately. I keep telling myself that it's because I need some time alone or that I'm finally at peace with my loneliness.

But, somewhere, I feel like it's because I'm tired. I'm tired of speaking up everytime without being understood so I choose to keep everything inside.

I want to be held.

I feel like if I'm not held by the right person anytime soon I will break into thousands of pieces.

Dear Wolrd,

The other day, I came across a video that said when someone is not meant to be with you the universe will do anything to make you two fall apart.

But, can't it see? Can't the universe see that I'm holding on a thread for that person. Can't the universe see that my soul is perishing for the person. And why is it that the universe gives me mixed feelings about that person. Are you confused too universe?

Please look at him-

The best thing I've come across in a while.

“I used to be a villain like you, then I took a Natsu to the face.”

—

Jellal, Laxus, Hades, Zeref, Acnologia

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You're lonely?

You mean you write down all your feelings in a journal or as a note in your phone because you have no one to pour them out to who can truly understand you.

I easily forgive people. Rather, I would say I don't really hold grudges towards people.

But why, why is it so hard for others to forgive my mistakes. I am human too. I'm learning and trying to improve everyday too. So, why?

I want to be able to go on top of a mountain and scream to the world that I am yours.

But, it will only be possible if you accept me as yours.

He looking so precious for what?

Lately, I've been wanting someone to compliment me.

I have so much self hatred in myself these days that I can't look at the camera or the mirror without my smile fading.

I want someone to tell me that I'm worthy, that I'm not as bad as I think i am and that it will get better.

Oh to be a hopeless romantic in an unrequited love

I did not want to grow up.

I do not want to grow up anymore.

- We all break at a point. How long are you going to hold on?

- Forever. I'll hold on forever if I have to.

I used to be this happy soul with a goofy personality.

Now I look at people around me and wonder how they are able to smile in this chaotic world.

𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓳𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓽

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if I can feel your presence with me.

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if my racing heart and the storms in my head get calm

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if your scent will linger around me and trigger the nostalgia.

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if your arms are wrapped around me.

I wrap myself in your jacket and wish it was you instead.

11.03.2021

Hii Tumblr People! Last night was full of emotions for me. The person I love is not well and it worries me to the core. I've been trying my best to be with him and I'll continue to do so. However, I really wish he gets better quickly. It makes me sick when he is sick too. His jacket is the only thing that gives me comfort when I feel sick like this.

Besides that, I've had online classes and I'm trying my best to catch up with my revisions. Fun fact about me: I do accounting.

You people don't understand, do you?

You people don't understand how much i love him. My love for this man is like a burning passion. It burns me inside out in the most ethereal way. It became the only thing that would urge me to reach the other edge of the world.

This world made love become such a joke. I agree, the definition of love is not fixed. It is different for various people and it changes with the course of time. However, I don't get how it became to this. People are so easy to walk away from love. People are so easy to make love insignificant. People are so easy to to choose a good time over a good thing.

Because of this, I've suppressed my love for him for months now. People made me believe that love is secondary. Love is not something to yearn for. People were so quick to categorise me as a crazy obsessive person. And because of this, I've tainted my own love for him. But not anymore, I will not listen to anyone anymore when it comes to my love for him. I will do solely what my heart desires more for him.

You can call me a crazy lover, you can call me an obsessive person, you can call me a hopeless romantic. I will not care what you call me because only me, my heart, my brain and my body knows how much love I have for him.

10.03.2021 (Part2)

I made myself some Shin Ramyun and some coke as lunch. Very unhealthy I know but at least my tummy is happy😋

10.03.2021 (Part1)

Hii Tumblr People❤️

Shu here and I just wanna share a small insight of my recent days.

So, I live on an island in the Indian Ocean where there were zero local cases of Covid19 for the last 3 or 4 months. Life here was back to normal compared to other countries. However, two days ago the authorities found a local case and since then the numbers keep increasing. The government came forward yesterday to address that we will be in lockdown for around 2 weeks.

So since there isn't much to do at home, I've decided that I will take this opportunity to share more here; about my day, the news, and much more.

As you can see in the picture, today is a good day. It's sunny with a little bit of wind. The perfect weather for a beach day. Sadly covid19 said no to beach day. I'm feeling rather overwhelmed lately. I've been feeling a lot, both negative and positive and it's hard to control. I'll do my best to sort those feelings out.

You people can follow me for more and I appreciate any support. ❤️

I wish to make my love pure again.

𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

I love him in a way,

Inexplicable by my soul.

I love him in a way,

That can only be felt.

I love him in a way,

Where peace and chaos coexist.

𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓪𝓵𝔀𝓪𝔂𝓼 𝓻𝓾𝓷 𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

Even when the earth beneath my feet is crumbling,

Even when the oceans of the world are raging,

Even when the sky is at war manisfesting storms,

Even when everything around me is burning in hell fire,

Even when souls around me are leaving their bodies,

I will always run back to him.

I wish I could turn back time,

To when we had our first connection.

I would write our story all over again,

But this time with more experience.