Sonderhyggeukiyo - Shuu

I want to be held.

I feel like if I'm not held by the right person anytime soon I will break into thousands of pieces.

Dear Wolrd,

The other day, I came across a video that said when someone is not meant to be with you the universe will do anything to make you two fall apart.

But, can't it see? Can't the universe see that I'm holding on a thread for that person. Can't the universe see that my soul is perishing for the person. And why is it that the universe gives me mixed feelings about that person. Are you confused too universe?

Do you ever get sick? But it's not physical or mental. It's just emotionally sick.

He looking so precious for what?

Oh to be a hopeless romantic in an unrequited love

You people don't understand, do you?

You people don't understand how much i love him. My love for this man is like a burning passion. It burns me inside out in the most ethereal way. It became the only thing that would urge me to reach the other edge of the world.

This world made love become such a joke. I agree, the definition of love is not fixed. It is different for various people and it changes with the course of time. However, I don't get how it became to this. People are so easy to walk away from love. People are so easy to make love insignificant. People are so easy to to choose a good time over a good thing.

Because of this, I've suppressed my love for him for months now. People made me believe that love is secondary. Love is not something to yearn for. People were so quick to categorise me as a crazy obsessive person. And because of this, I've tainted my own love for him. But not anymore, I will not listen to anyone anymore when it comes to my love for him. I will do solely what my heart desires more for him.

You can call me a crazy lover, you can call me an obsessive person, you can call me a hopeless romantic. I will not care what you call me because only me, my heart, my brain and my body knows how much love I have for him.

I wish I could turn back time,

To when we had our first connection.

I would write our story all over again,

But this time with more experience.

𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

I love him in a way,

Inexplicable by my soul.

I love him in a way,

That can only be felt.

I love him in a way,

Where peace and chaos coexist.

And because it’s been a while, here a second one !

I easily forgive people. Rather, I would say I don't really hold grudges towards people.

But why, why is it so hard for others to forgive my mistakes. I am human too. I'm learning and trying to improve everyday too. So, why?