I Want To Be Held.

And because it’s been a while, here a second one !

11.03.2021

Hii Tumblr People! Last night was full of emotions for me. The person I love is not well and it worries me to the core. I've been trying my best to be with him and I'll continue to do so. However, I really wish he gets better quickly. It makes me sick when he is sick too. His jacket is the only thing that gives me comfort when I feel sick like this.

Besides that, I've had online classes and I'm trying my best to catch up with my revisions. Fun fact about me: I do accounting.

You people don't understand, do you?

You people don't understand how much i love him. My love for this man is like a burning passion. It burns me inside out in the most ethereal way. It became the only thing that would urge me to reach the other edge of the world.

This world made love become such a joke. I agree, the definition of love is not fixed. It is different for various people and it changes with the course of time. However, I don't get how it became to this. People are so easy to walk away from love. People are so easy to make love insignificant. People are so easy to to choose a good time over a good thing.

Because of this, I've suppressed my love for him for months now. People made me believe that love is secondary. Love is not something to yearn for. People were so quick to categorise me as a crazy obsessive person. And because of this, I've tainted my own love for him. But not anymore, I will not listen to anyone anymore when it comes to my love for him. I will do solely what my heart desires more for him.

You can call me a crazy lover, you can call me an obsessive person, you can call me a hopeless romantic. I will not care what you call me because only me, my heart, my brain and my body knows how much love I have for him.

I did not want to grow up.

I do not want to grow up anymore.

I wish to make my love pure again.

I wish I could turn back time,

To when we had our first connection.

I would write our story all over again,

But this time with more experience.

I am chaos,

I am cursed,

I bring destruction to the table,

I ruin everything,

Everything that I have ever touched,

Everything that I have ever felt,

Everything...that I have ever loved.

And you are just there crying alone again, aren't you?

I want to be able to go on top of a mountain and scream to the world that I am yours.

But, it will only be possible if you accept me as yours.

"It's my only power.

Finding you." - Mason Hewitt

"Heartless." 𝘛𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘞𝘰𝘭𝘧 created by Jeff Davis, season 6, episode 7, MTV, 2016