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This is now my headcannon for Doctor4t. Cannon and IRL. Folly too. The fact that you’re a deity does not stop you from ratting it up.
@milo-the-mage @marethyu-42 @enlighten3d I’m a genius and a madman and look at the tags I spent like 8 minutes on them
The funniest thing about how maids are depicted in a certain kind of fiction is that, like, at least half the time the people who ostensibly own the place don't even really seem to want them to be there? It's often genuinely unclear who their actual employer is, or whether they're getting paid at all – it's like looking at a universe where if you build a fancy enough house, maids just show up, like rats.
I hate this feeling. I hate what others might say about it. This forsaken curse that makes me incompatible with the flesh suit I was born with.
I hate dysphoria. I hate it when people around the world say "it can't be that bad"
And in some cases they're right. In some cases it isn't that bad. But it's when they're wrong that dysphoria gets dangerous.
That urge that can turn to violence or sadness or both.
The urge to crush and fracture the skeleton that makes your body shaped the way it is.
The urge to skin yourself so you don't have to look wrong.
The urge to remove yourself from the equation all together so that you can try to free yourself from this feeling that you aren't in the right body.
Waking up feeling like you're possessing a stranger's skin.
Being misgendered.
Simply existing and having a thought occur that makes you wish that you could simply give up or make everything fix.
If I were in a different state I wouldn't have had to wait another year. But here I am in one of only two US States that don't view people as adults until they are 19.
One more year after this one.
One more long fucking year.
I hate this vessel I am trapped within.
I hate waking up and feeling disconnected from the very skin that portrays my being.
I want to cut all the skin off. I want to shatter every bone and destroy every last atom of the genes that forced me to develop this way.
Sometimes it's not this hard. But today it's harder than I could imagine. The only thing keeping me from desecrating this flesh suit is the knowledge that deep down, it won't change a thing and it won't make anything better.
So now all I can do is wait.
Wait until I'm old enough to actually make an impact to alter my being.
Wait until I can actually look at myself in the mirror and see me.
Wait until I can actually feel happy and like I'm inhabiting my own skin, for more than simply a week at most
Chaotix headcanons !! (mainly for my au :) fic still in progress </3) very self-indulgent so they're probably mischaracterized HAHA my bad
Subject to change/stuff might be added!
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Vector
→ 29
→ He's a straight ally 🏳️🌈 loves his little gay kids
→ Boston accent. This will never not be funny to me. Is he from New York? Does he just talk Like That™️? Who knows
→ Chronic gambler. Even if it's not money he's always gambling with something
→ Anger issues </3 he's me I am him he's working on them though and doing pretty good
→ Married Vanilla 💗 they're very sappy and do that thing where they show a lot of pda in front of each other and it annoys the shit out of their kids but they're adorable together so they get away with it
→ Eventually starts charging people for his services. Now that his family's expanded, he needs all the money he can get
→ Can't sing for shit. It devastates him he wants to learn so badly
→ Djs on the side. Pretty good at it
→ Despite having mostly sons, he's such a girl dad. Goes on daddy-daughter dates with Cream a lot he loves hanging out with her
→ Not allowed in the kitchen. He'll find a way to burn it down, blow it up, and kill every living thing within a five-mile radius
→ Likes boxing/stuff life boxing. Trains with Knuckles :)
→ Will jump you if you look at his kids wrong. Very defensive of them even though they can take care of themselves
→ Amy's like his daughter too? Vanilla considers Amy her kid and Cream considers her her sister, so Amy's technically in the family
→ His kids consist of (oldest to youngest): Espio, Knuckles, Mighty, Amy, Ray, Cream, Charmy. Gemerl counts as his kid too but idk where he would fit in the lineup. Only Espio, Cream, and Charmy are legally his but he considers the others his own too
→ Speaking of, when he broke the news to Espio and Charmy he adopted them, they both freaked out in their own ways /pos. Charmy started bawling immediately and Espio stood there silent and wide-eyed. He smiled eventually, then freaked out again because where did Vector get the money for that ??????
Espio
→ 25
-> Achillean, demiboy (he/they) but also low-key doesn't care what you call him
-> Japanese
-> Inherited Vector's tendency to gamble. He's not as bad but he would definitely run straight to the slot machines at a bar
-> Dating Silver </3 shameless Espilver propaganda um been dating for 9 years
-> Pretty close with Blaze as well since he's dating Silver
-> Trains with Charmy a lot, teaches him (forces him to learn) how to use kunais, shurikens, improve his stealth, etc. Charmy's actually not that bad a listener
-> Also teaches Charmy Japanese!
-> Autistic 💥 or some form of neurodivergent.
-> Semi-strained relationship with Charmy. They love eachother through thick and thin, but sometimes Espio wonders if Charmy prefers Vector's company over his
-> Low-key excited to have sisters after all the years Charmy's driven him insane. Let's Cream give him makeovers and bakes with Amy from time to time
-> Feels like he's not allowed to make mistakes. His family literally could care less but to Espio if he fucks up it's the end of the world
-> Loves to read. He likes poetry (really good at it too), classics, distopians, etc
-> Him and Knuckles fight a lot. At each others throats constantly they're eachothers #1 hater
Charmy
-> 15
-> Bi trans ftm (he/him but he also doesn’t care), started transitioning (socially) early childhood, 'bout around the time he started living with Vector
-> If he was a human he'd be black. He's black to me
-> Like Espio and Knuckles, he fights with Kit a lot. Like. A lot. More than Es and Knux ever do
-> Inherited the anger issues from Vector. It's bad. Very temperamental
-> Vector's gayest kid somehow ??? Even though he's like one of the only single ones
-> As well as training with Espio, he trains with Knuckles too
-> Archie comics are semi-canon to my au so his whole backstory happened </3 r.i.p. bee family (he was 6 when it happened though to keep the timeline of the games consistent, still fleshing that out)
-> Because of said incident ^ he has abandonment issues. Can't be left alone for more than 3 hours without tweaking
-> Besties with Marine. Don't leave these two alone they'll either find a cure for cancer or unleash a zombie virus on the world
-> Chronic copier. He studies and copies most of the adult figures in his life (his family, Shadow [especially Shadow], Don & Nite, etc)
-> Speaking of Don and Nite, they're like his 2nd dads! If Vector ever needs someone to babysit his kids, he sends them to the birds
More to come </3 I'm lazy
-> Only musically inclined one of the group. He loves singing (pretty good at it), playing instruments, writing songs, etc